The girl who died being burnt alive in her MYvi........has a great impact on me.......
It reminds me of my own experience when I was in my first year of uni........ That sense of helplessness, knowing that you might die in a ball of fire, with people surrounding you and yet no one dares or knows how to help you.
It is really due to the grace of God that I'm still alive today.......
At that time, I was on a taxi going back to KL when the accident happened in the dark at 6:30 a.m in the morning...... It knocked into a tractor which had no lights on and started spinning non-stop on the road..... We were all screaming without knowing what had happened as it was so dark and there were no street lights on that stretch of road. When it stopped, everyone began dashing out of the vehicle, except for me......because my legs were pinned due to the impact of the crash on my side. I could see smoke billowing from the engine and I could hear someone yelling, "Quick...... get away from the car as soon as possible......" I struggled to free myself, but to no avail. I was in a state of panic which made me 'disabled' at that moment, not even having the strength to shout......In my heart, I was crying out to God:"Please save me..... I don't want to die in this way......" I turned my head, trying to see where the rest were. As the sun began to rise, I could see they were all a safe distance away from the taxi which made me even scared.......Smoke was still coming out from the engine and in my heart, I was thinking: I'm dead meat this time.... barbecued style......
Yet I thank God, nothing happened and when the taxi driver and some passers-by were sure that it was safe, they came back to me and helped to pull me out from the wreckage. At that time, I pulled and tugged at my legs so hard that I thought it was going to break....... I remembered telling those people: 'Even if my legs are broken or have to be amputated, you all have to get me out from here....... In the end, I managed to free myself with their help and ended up sobbing like a baby at the side of the road........
Therefore, when I read the news about how this girl died, it affected me so much that I couldn't sleep throughout the night..... Imagine her fear before dying and the feelings of anguish and helplessness even though there were so many passers-by who stopped by trying to help. It pains my heart and the pain is indescribable.......
R.I.P to this girl..........though I might not know who you are........
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Showing posts with label 自言自语. Show all posts
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Addicted to.................
Seem to be addicted to FB.........too many interesting videos n news n gossip there tempting me to log in every day.
Seem to be addicted to cooking n baking...........with new recipes spinning in my mind every day..........
Seem to be addicted to this person................craving for this person's phone call, wanting to know how everything's going on............
Seem to be addicted to the fishball mihun in Xinpark...........wanting to eat it every day..........
Seem to be addicted to the show 妇产科的女医生。。。。。wanting to watch it every night.........
Seem to be addicted to losing weight............. trying hard to cut down on the kilos.....................
Seem to be addicted to $$$$$............... coz i'v been trying hard not to cancel tuitions, not like last year when i was eager to have them cancelled...............
Seem to be addicted to bus station....................coz i love the drinks n food there............
Seem to be addicted to PPIA..................coz no matter how i still can't bring myself to leave that place.......
Seem to be addicted to Chinese Christian songs................ coz they r really real nicer than the English ones...........
Seem to be addicted to my best fren.................. coz i have to meet her up at least 3-4 times a week, which if not wil make me feel uneasy.........
Seem to be addicted to earrings................. coz i just can't resist buying them whenever i see them.....
Seem to be addicted to.......................... the list goes on.........................................................
Seem to be addicted to cooking n baking...........with new recipes spinning in my mind every day..........
Seem to be addicted to this person................craving for this person's phone call, wanting to know how everything's going on............
Seem to be addicted to the fishball mihun in Xinpark...........wanting to eat it every day..........
Seem to be addicted to the show 妇产科的女医生。。。。。wanting to watch it every night.........
Seem to be addicted to losing weight............. trying hard to cut down on the kilos.....................
Seem to be addicted to $$$$$............... coz i'v been trying hard not to cancel tuitions, not like last year when i was eager to have them cancelled...............
Seem to be addicted to bus station....................coz i love the drinks n food there............
Seem to be addicted to PPIA..................coz no matter how i still can't bring myself to leave that place.......
Seem to be addicted to Chinese Christian songs................ coz they r really real nicer than the English ones...........
Seem to be addicted to my best fren.................. coz i have to meet her up at least 3-4 times a week, which if not wil make me feel uneasy.........
Seem to be addicted to earrings................. coz i just can't resist buying them whenever i see them.....
Seem to be addicted to.......................... the list goes on.........................................................
Saturday, February 20, 2010
一家人本来就应该是这样子。。。。
看到阿嬷开始笑，讲话，调皮的应嘴，觉得她一定会长命百岁。。。。
这阵子生病的阿嬷让我们一家人更加的团结。。。。。。
帮忙扶她去洗澡，上床，大小解，换尿布，吃东西。。。。。这一切都让我很佩服我的老妈子。。。。她每天哪来的力气和能耐，帮阿嬷做这些事情。。。。。
看到我老妈子无私的付出，让我更加肯定在以后的日子，不管老妈子出什么事，我都不会遗弃她，也不会把她丢到老人院。。。。。一家人本来就应该是这样子。。。。。有福同享，有难同挡。。。。
这阵子生病的阿嬷让我们一家人更加的团结。。。。。。
帮忙扶她去洗澡，上床，大小解，换尿布，吃东西。。。。。这一切都让我很佩服我的老妈子。。。。她每天哪来的力气和能耐，帮阿嬷做这些事情。。。。。
看到我老妈子无私的付出，让我更加肯定在以后的日子，不管老妈子出什么事，我都不会遗弃她，也不会把她丢到老人院。。。。。一家人本来就应该是这样子。。。。。有福同享，有难同挡。。。。
Friday, February 19, 2010
绑不住的野马。。。。
没可能的事情，我通常都很少去理会。。。。
就偏偏这件事不理他却让自己心不安。。。。
只要他得到他想要的东西，我也就满意了。。。
只要他攀得到他想要的高峰，我也就开心了。。。。
就算他离我越来越远。。。。我也无所谓了。。。。
因为这是他一路来在寻找的。。。。。。
曾经有人问过：野马是绑得住的吗？
我的答案是：绑得住，但那只马会非常的不快乐。。。。。
就因为这样，学会了不要对一只野马寄于任何希望。。。。。从远远看着，在该伸出援手的时候扶着一把，知道这只马快乐就好。。。。
就偏偏这件事不理他却让自己心不安。。。。
只要他得到他想要的东西，我也就满意了。。。
只要他攀得到他想要的高峰，我也就开心了。。。。
就算他离我越来越远。。。。我也无所谓了。。。。
因为这是他一路来在寻找的。。。。。。
曾经有人问过：野马是绑得住的吗？
我的答案是：绑得住，但那只马会非常的不快乐。。。。。
就因为这样，学会了不要对一只野马寄于任何希望。。。。。从远远看着，在该伸出援手的时候扶着一把，知道这只马快乐就好。。。。
Monday, January 25, 2010
5 Things to Learn from Caleb......
Went to night service. 3rd time after not having gone to church for 2 years……..A change of church…….
Today’s sermon is about Caleb……..
Numbers 13
30 Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, "We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it."
31 But the men who had gone up with him said, "We can't attack those people; they are stronger than we are." 32 And they spread among the Israelites a bad report about the land they had explored. They said, "The land we explored devours those living in it. All the people we saw there are of great size. 33 We saw the Nephilim there (the descendants of Anak come from the Nephilim). We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them."
Numbers 14
1 That night all the people of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. 2 All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, "If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this desert! 3 Why is the LORD bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn't it be better for us to go back to Egypt?" 4 And they said to each other, "We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt."
5 Then Moses and Aaron fell facedown in front of the whole Israelite assembly gathered there. 6 Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh, who were among those who had explored the land, tore their clothes 7 and said to the entire Israelite assembly, "The land we passed through and explored is exceedingly good. 8 If the LORD is pleased with us, he will lead us into that land, a land flowing with milk and honey, and will give it to us. 9 Only do not rebel against the LORD. And do not be afraid of the people of the land, because we will swallow them up. Their protection is gone, but the LORD is with us. Do not be afraid of them."
10 But the whole assembly talked about stoning them. Then the glory of the LORD appeared at the Tent of Meeting to all the Israelites. 11 The LORD said to Moses, "How long will these people treat me with contempt? How long will they refuse to believe in me, in spite of all the miraculous signs I have performed among them? 12 I will strike them down with a plague and destroy them, but I will make you into a nation greater and stronger than they."
There are a few things that we have to learn from Caleb…….
1. Speech – Our speech reflects our life, can build up someone and also can break someone.
Okie, gotta admit that in terms of speech, I still have lots to learn……. My %*@#&$% will still come out when my blood really boils….. I m still using kns, ls (better than saying out the real word…)…….. Can’t get rid of them…. Seems to b part of my life…………..
The breaking someone part…… well, those thou art holier people are the one that break people’s spirit the most…… Will always remember these few parts:
“So long still don wan to go to church ar? The devil is going to get u one of these days…..” – Who’s the devil now? The way this person talks seems to indicate that she’s the devil herself…..
“If you are not going to come, we will have to take out your name from the members list…” – Go ahead, as if this will make me listen to you thou art holier people…This kind of church I also don wan to b part of it……
2. Faith – Gotta have faith in God n trust him even when things look impossible…..
Well, for this, I really have to hand it to God…… He has never failed me………….really…. He really provides…… When my account is dropping at an alarming rate, he gave me back all my financial sources…… When I thought my life really sucks (with all the wrong choices and wrong people around me), when everything seems to be going downhill, when I feel my life is worth nothing…..He pulled me back and gave me back my confidence and hope in life……
3. Perception on Life – 2 different people might be seeing, hearing and experiencing the same things, yet their perception can be so totally different……………. The optimistic one will see it as an opportunity, while the pessimistic one will see it as an adversity…..
This is wat I’ve been working hard on….. and I find that it’s true….. the moment we change our perception, a lot of things change………
4. Capture opportunities
Thinking back, how many opportunities have I lost throughout these past few years…….. What if I…….? always pops up in my mind….The fact is I can’t turn back time now to take a different step…… So, the only thing that I can do now is to not let go of any opportunities that come knocking in my life………..
5. Courage - in living out our faith and showing our love to God……..
Today’s sermon is about Caleb……..
Numbers 13
30 Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, "We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it."
31 But the men who had gone up with him said, "We can't attack those people; they are stronger than we are." 32 And they spread among the Israelites a bad report about the land they had explored. They said, "The land we explored devours those living in it. All the people we saw there are of great size. 33 We saw the Nephilim there (the descendants of Anak come from the Nephilim). We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them."
Numbers 14
1 That night all the people of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. 2 All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, "If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this desert! 3 Why is the LORD bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn't it be better for us to go back to Egypt?" 4 And they said to each other, "We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt."
5 Then Moses and Aaron fell facedown in front of the whole Israelite assembly gathered there. 6 Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh, who were among those who had explored the land, tore their clothes 7 and said to the entire Israelite assembly, "The land we passed through and explored is exceedingly good. 8 If the LORD is pleased with us, he will lead us into that land, a land flowing with milk and honey, and will give it to us. 9 Only do not rebel against the LORD. And do not be afraid of the people of the land, because we will swallow them up. Their protection is gone, but the LORD is with us. Do not be afraid of them."
10 But the whole assembly talked about stoning them. Then the glory of the LORD appeared at the Tent of Meeting to all the Israelites. 11 The LORD said to Moses, "How long will these people treat me with contempt? How long will they refuse to believe in me, in spite of all the miraculous signs I have performed among them? 12 I will strike them down with a plague and destroy them, but I will make you into a nation greater and stronger than they."
There are a few things that we have to learn from Caleb…….
1. Speech – Our speech reflects our life, can build up someone and also can break someone.
Okie, gotta admit that in terms of speech, I still have lots to learn……. My %*@#&$% will still come out when my blood really boils….. I m still using kns, ls (better than saying out the real word…)…….. Can’t get rid of them…. Seems to b part of my life…………..
The breaking someone part…… well, those thou art holier people are the one that break people’s spirit the most…… Will always remember these few parts:
“So long still don wan to go to church ar? The devil is going to get u one of these days…..” – Who’s the devil now? The way this person talks seems to indicate that she’s the devil herself…..
“If you are not going to come, we will have to take out your name from the members list…” – Go ahead, as if this will make me listen to you thou art holier people…This kind of church I also don wan to b part of it……
2. Faith – Gotta have faith in God n trust him even when things look impossible…..
Well, for this, I really have to hand it to God…… He has never failed me………….really…. He really provides…… When my account is dropping at an alarming rate, he gave me back all my financial sources…… When I thought my life really sucks (with all the wrong choices and wrong people around me), when everything seems to be going downhill, when I feel my life is worth nothing…..He pulled me back and gave me back my confidence and hope in life……
3. Perception on Life – 2 different people might be seeing, hearing and experiencing the same things, yet their perception can be so totally different……………. The optimistic one will see it as an opportunity, while the pessimistic one will see it as an adversity…..
This is wat I’ve been working hard on….. and I find that it’s true….. the moment we change our perception, a lot of things change………
4. Capture opportunities
Thinking back, how many opportunities have I lost throughout these past few years…….. What if I…….? always pops up in my mind….The fact is I can’t turn back time now to take a different step…… So, the only thing that I can do now is to not let go of any opportunities that come knocking in my life………..
5. Courage - in living out our faith and showing our love to God……..
Sunday, January 17, 2010
2010 - Another new beginning......
After going through a bad patch in 2008, having a new beginning in 2009 by discarding all the trash of 2008, I am now stepping into 2010 with a renewed hope in everything......
All the bad things in my life has made me more mature, sensible and stronger.... My temper is still hot, yet the temperature has dropped...... I can still be silly at times, yet fast enough to withdraw my steps to avoid falling into another pitfall.... I am still a failure in certain aspects of my life, yet I do not let failure blind my sight to the successful things that I've achieved.
The ME now is thankful for whatever I have now.......
To have achieved a lot in life is one thing, to be contented is another thing.......
I may not have achieved a lot, I may not be fully contented, but I know my life story is still going on...... I hope that when the story ends one day, it will end on a beautiful note......
All the bad things in my life has made me more mature, sensible and stronger.... My temper is still hot, yet the temperature has dropped...... I can still be silly at times, yet fast enough to withdraw my steps to avoid falling into another pitfall.... I am still a failure in certain aspects of my life, yet I do not let failure blind my sight to the successful things that I've achieved.
The ME now is thankful for whatever I have now.......
- people in my life who have never forsaken me no matter what choices I make in my life journey.....they are always there when i am down, there when i want to share my joy....... and they are there to lift me up when i think that i will never be able to climb up again....
- my full time job that makes me happy and useful in life, and my part-time job which keeps me stable financially....
- I am still breathing....... which means all is not lost..........
- I have a God who loves me and gives me chances in life again and again......
To have achieved a lot in life is one thing, to be contented is another thing.......
I may not have achieved a lot, I may not be fully contented, but I know my life story is still going on...... I hope that when the story ends one day, it will end on a beautiful note......
Sorry, my dear blog....
So sorry for abandoning you for so long......
For I've been focusing on Facebook, MSN, tuition, work and things so far have been quite smooth-sailing.....
So sorry........
I promise I will come as often as possible, for you are the one sticking with me through thick and thin.....
So sorry again, my dear blog....
For I've been focusing on Facebook, MSN, tuition, work and things so far have been quite smooth-sailing.....
So sorry........
I promise I will come as often as possible, for you are the one sticking with me through thick and thin.....
So sorry again, my dear blog....
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Funerals....
I can't go to funerals. Coming out of one, I tend to get very upset..... Especially if the deceased is someone young and nice, having a bright future ahead of him / her......
Following on, every meal that I take will make me guilty. Every fun that I have will make me feel even bad. Looking in the mirror every morning, the same question will keep circling in my head: Why am I still here? I am no better than a lot of people in this world. Why does God still keep me here on earth?
The good thing out of funerals are that I tend to push myself further. I tell myself that I can't just rest like I have plenty of years ahead of me. I need to get things going so that even when I'm gone one day, there will be no regrets. Besides that, I tell myself I need to start doing things that I've planned but never get them materialized so far.
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Looking at AM and CH at the funeral, my heart really goes out to them. 白发人送黑发人。。。I can't imagine how my mum will take it if the one lying in the coffin is me or my brother or my sister...... Hope this will never have to happen to her..........
To AM and CH, may God comfort you all during this time and heal your wounds as time passes.
Following on, every meal that I take will make me guilty. Every fun that I have will make me feel even bad. Looking in the mirror every morning, the same question will keep circling in my head: Why am I still here? I am no better than a lot of people in this world. Why does God still keep me here on earth?
The good thing out of funerals are that I tend to push myself further. I tell myself that I can't just rest like I have plenty of years ahead of me. I need to get things going so that even when I'm gone one day, there will be no regrets. Besides that, I tell myself I need to start doing things that I've planned but never get them materialized so far.
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Looking at AM and CH at the funeral, my heart really goes out to them. 白发人送黑发人。。。I can't imagine how my mum will take it if the one lying in the coffin is me or my brother or my sister...... Hope this will never have to happen to her..........
To AM and CH, may God comfort you all during this time and heal your wounds as time passes.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Just the thing that I need..........
Just a hint is
what I hope
yet the eyes
never blink
nose and ears
never quiver
lips never part
An assurance
is what I need
yet
the hands
do
not reach out
STOP
the feet
continues
their
own journey
throwing
me
abandoning
me
PLEASE
leaving
me behind
WAIT
struggling
for
stability
An answer
is what I need
yet
silence
takes over
dusk and dawn
stillness
still
till
ill
i
.
.
.
......................................................................
what I hope
yet the eyes
never blink
nose and ears
never quiver
lips never part
An assurance
is what I need
yet
the hands
do
not reach out
STOP
the feet
continues
their
own journey
throwing
me
abandoning
me
PLEASE
leaving
me behind
WAIT
struggling
for
stability
An answer
is what I need
yet
silence
takes over
dusk and dawn
stillness
still
till
ill
i
.
.
.
......................................................................
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
The Real Patriotism and 1Malaysia
At last, National Day is over. It is really sickening to hear those hypocritical politicians talking about patriotism and 1Malaysia, regardless of their race or religion. It is even sickening to see some of them waving the national flag, proclaiming their patriotic spirit, while at the same time inciting hatred in certain races towards other races.
Why can't these people see that by inciting hatred in each other, they are actually trying to break the country into pieces. If they are really that patriotic, they should be thinking of ways to unite the whole country instead of causing it to crumble.
If we want to be patriotic, the next election we should be voting for the right politician that promotes unity among races, unity among religion, unity among people of different status. We should let those racial based politicians be sitting out in the cold. It is not about which party we support, but what agenda we are supporting. UMNO, MCA, MIC, PKR, PAS DAP..... all have their racist, 'religionist' and sexist politicians. And at the same time, there are those in these parties who promote peace and understanding and fighting for human rights instead of racial rights. So, to be patriotic, we have to kick those scums out of politics and let the right people take the chair. If one day, our country go into chaos, who should we blame? The answer is OURSELVES, because we vote for the wrong people up.
To be patriotic and promote unity, first we have to start with education. Malays should be willing to give up their Matriculation colleges and take STPM together with the rest. Chinese and Indians should be willing to give up their Chinese and Tamil school system and go back to the Sekolah Kebangsaan. If we can't even give way on this matter, there is no use talking about loving this country and being 1Malaysia.
My advice - there is no 1Malaysia or patriotism in politics. Everything is just a farce. You want 1Malaysia and patriotism? Take a look at those who have special needs children, sick children in the hospital, HIV / AIDS family members, dying family members in the hospice, who are trapped in a flood or collapsed building, or dying in a pandemic. In these cases, you only have all who are in the SAME BOAT, no colour, no race, no religion. It is in times of difficulties, people see beyond their skin colour and the God they are worshipping. Everyone extends a hand to you and comfort comes from all. We help without motives and without hidden agenda. Everyone is bound together in the name of humanity. This is when you have 1Malaysia and patriotism.
Why can't these people see that by inciting hatred in each other, they are actually trying to break the country into pieces. If they are really that patriotic, they should be thinking of ways to unite the whole country instead of causing it to crumble.
If we want to be patriotic, the next election we should be voting for the right politician that promotes unity among races, unity among religion, unity among people of different status. We should let those racial based politicians be sitting out in the cold. It is not about which party we support, but what agenda we are supporting. UMNO, MCA, MIC, PKR, PAS DAP..... all have their racist, 'religionist' and sexist politicians. And at the same time, there are those in these parties who promote peace and understanding and fighting for human rights instead of racial rights. So, to be patriotic, we have to kick those scums out of politics and let the right people take the chair. If one day, our country go into chaos, who should we blame? The answer is OURSELVES, because we vote for the wrong people up.
To be patriotic and promote unity, first we have to start with education. Malays should be willing to give up their Matriculation colleges and take STPM together with the rest. Chinese and Indians should be willing to give up their Chinese and Tamil school system and go back to the Sekolah Kebangsaan. If we can't even give way on this matter, there is no use talking about loving this country and being 1Malaysia.
My advice - there is no 1Malaysia or patriotism in politics. Everything is just a farce. You want 1Malaysia and patriotism? Take a look at those who have special needs children, sick children in the hospital, HIV / AIDS family members, dying family members in the hospice, who are trapped in a flood or collapsed building, or dying in a pandemic. In these cases, you only have all who are in the SAME BOAT, no colour, no race, no religion. It is in times of difficulties, people see beyond their skin colour and the God they are worshipping. Everyone extends a hand to you and comfort comes from all. We help without motives and without hidden agenda. Everyone is bound together in the name of humanity. This is when you have 1Malaysia and patriotism.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
To Go or Not to Go / To Be or Not to Be
So sad......
That 6 year old boy in BP who has H1N1 has died......
The family must really be grieving now..........
Although sad cases happen everywhere, every day and at any time, to have something happening near us can be so devastating.........
Vic, RIP......
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Having the symptoms of H1N1, yet going to work at the same time seems dangerous, selfish and stupid.......
Yet, to follow the Health Ministry's advice of staying at home...............I will have to stay at home for 2 weeks or more..................
Should I go to work or not?
If I really have H1N1 and spread to others, I will really be cursed by people all around.........
Yet if I don't have it, and choose to stay at home, I will be labelled 'opportunistic' and lazy.......
To go or not to go...........
To be or not to be.......
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That 6 year old boy in BP who has H1N1 has died......
The family must really be grieving now..........
Although sad cases happen everywhere, every day and at any time, to have something happening near us can be so devastating.........
Vic, RIP......
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Having the symptoms of H1N1, yet going to work at the same time seems dangerous, selfish and stupid.......
Yet, to follow the Health Ministry's advice of staying at home...............I will have to stay at home for 2 weeks or more..................
Should I go to work or not?
If I really have H1N1 and spread to others, I will really be cursed by people all around.........
Yet if I don't have it, and choose to stay at home, I will be labelled 'opportunistic' and lazy.......
To go or not to go...........
To be or not to be.......
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Dazzling neons lights
Waving their hands to me
Beyond my grasp
Beyond my means
Yet if I try and catch the lights
There might be a chance
For I may survive......
Yet I try to reach out
Treading very carefully
For I know just one wrong step
There might be no turning back......
To go or not to go.............
To be or not to be......
Waving their hands to me
Beyond my grasp
Beyond my means
Yet if I try and catch the lights
There might be a chance
For I may survive......
Yet I try to reach out
Treading very carefully
For I know just one wrong step
There might be no turning back......
To go or not to go.............
To be or not to be......
Monday, August 3, 2009
走过的。。有人陪比较好。。。
病还是没好。。。。。
很辛苦，因为有好多事需要做，但却无能为力。。。。
听说 BP 有位小孩患上了 H1N1，情况危急。。。。
还是我朋友的学生。。。。。。。。。。
这个病真的越来越猖狂。。。。
有时还真怀疑是不是某间 pharmaceutical company 故意制造这细菌，好让他们多捞一笔。。。。
马来西亚已经 8 个人死了。。。。。。
接下来又会是谁呢？
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Kim, Pin & Fa, 谢谢你们为了我特地从日本运进了一只正版 Doraemon。
好喜欢。。。。。。。。我的 Doraemon 礼物都是你们送的。。。。。
看到 Doraemon，就会很自然的想起你们。。。。。。。。。。
很感动。。。。。谢谢。。。。。。。。。
Pin 谢谢你的柠檬蜜糖水。。。。。。
每次生病都得到你的关怀。。。。。。。。让我觉得不会体贴朋友的我非常惭愧。。。。。
Kim，谢谢你带我去看医生。。。。。
身边不需太多的朋友。。。。。两三个真心的就足够了。。。。。。。
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妈妈的爱是最纯，最真。。。。。。
这果然一点都没错。。。。。。。。。
因为我妈就是那么的棒。。。。。。。。
不用自己煮饭，洗衣，做家务的我。。。。。。
比起任何一个人，我是多么的幸福。。。。。。
就连早上水壶的水都是妈妈准备的。。。。。
去哪里找一个这样的妈。。。。。
找不到了。。。。绝种了。。。。。唯独我妈。。。。。。
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不喜欢你那张“走过的”。。。。。
感觉很寂寞，孤独。。。。。。。
把一双脚改成两双，那该有多好。。。。。。。
看到桥尾好像看不到希望。。。。。
有点很悲的感觉。。。。。。。
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很辛苦，因为有好多事需要做，但却无能为力。。。。
听说 BP 有位小孩患上了 H1N1，情况危急。。。。
还是我朋友的学生。。。。。。。。。。
这个病真的越来越猖狂。。。。
有时还真怀疑是不是某间 pharmaceutical company 故意制造这细菌，好让他们多捞一笔。。。。
马来西亚已经 8 个人死了。。。。。。
接下来又会是谁呢？
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Kim, Pin & Fa, 谢谢你们为了我特地从日本运进了一只正版 Doraemon。
好喜欢。。。。。。。。我的 Doraemon 礼物都是你们送的。。。。。
看到 Doraemon，就会很自然的想起你们。。。。。。。。。。
很感动。。。。。谢谢。。。。。。。。。
Pin 谢谢你的柠檬蜜糖水。。。。。。
每次生病都得到你的关怀。。。。。。。。让我觉得不会体贴朋友的我非常惭愧。。。。。
Kim，谢谢你带我去看医生。。。。。
身边不需太多的朋友。。。。。两三个真心的就足够了。。。。。。。
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妈妈的爱是最纯，最真。。。。。。
这果然一点都没错。。。。。。。。。
因为我妈就是那么的棒。。。。。。。。
不用自己煮饭，洗衣，做家务的我。。。。。。
比起任何一个人，我是多么的幸福。。。。。。
就连早上水壶的水都是妈妈准备的。。。。。
去哪里找一个这样的妈。。。。。
找不到了。。。。绝种了。。。。。唯独我妈。。。。。。
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不喜欢你那张“走过的”。。。。。
感觉很寂寞，孤独。。。。。。。
把一双脚改成两双，那该有多好。。。。。。。
看到桥尾好像看不到希望。。。。。
有点很悲的感觉。。。。。。。
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Sunday, August 2, 2009
An Update of My Latest Will..........
Jika anda :
Disertai dengan salah satu:
Sounds exactly like me...................
But I hope not................
No energy today......... all sapped away by my illness...............
Hope it's not H1N1................... and yet it's possible..................
Thinking back, I have had many contacts with those who return from overseas................
I HOPE NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The doctor gave me some antibiotics..................
If it's not H1N1, I will be healed soon........................
If it's H1N1, be prepared to attend my funeral soon................
A person like me who has pneumonia before, with weak lungs, with a weak immune system..........
Sounds like a wonderful target for this virus....................
The thought of death seems terrifying......................
Yet I keep thinking of it.........................
I'm actually not worried of dying, just the way of how I would die..............
It is my wish if one day I die, it would be in my sleep without me knowing............Slipping, drifting away...................in peace....................
No horrifying moments.....................
Everytime I'm sick, I start thinking of all these.................... Guess my pneumonia experience in the hospital sparked off this kind of pessimistic thinking.........................
Better write something here for my dear mum, in case I really just go off...................... Need to let her know what I think, coz everytime I bring up this topic, she will just stop me and pretend not to understand what I say...................
Dear Mum,
If I really do go off earlier than you, do not be too sad. Follow what I write here, then I will be able to go in peace:
At least, I know you all will ask my mum to read this before she decides on anything.
- Demam
Disertai dengan salah satu:
- Sakit Kepala
- Sakit Badan
- Sesak Nafas
- Batuk
Sounds exactly like me...................
But I hope not................
No energy today......... all sapped away by my illness...............
Hope it's not H1N1................... and yet it's possible..................
Thinking back, I have had many contacts with those who return from overseas................
I HOPE NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The doctor gave me some antibiotics..................
If it's not H1N1, I will be healed soon........................
If it's H1N1, be prepared to attend my funeral soon................
A person like me who has pneumonia before, with weak lungs, with a weak immune system..........
Sounds like a wonderful target for this virus....................
The thought of death seems terrifying......................
Yet I keep thinking of it.........................
I'm actually not worried of dying, just the way of how I would die..............
It is my wish if one day I die, it would be in my sleep without me knowing............Slipping, drifting away...................in peace....................
No horrifying moments.....................
Everytime I'm sick, I start thinking of all these.................... Guess my pneumonia experience in the hospital sparked off this kind of pessimistic thinking.........................
Better write something here for my dear mum, in case I really just go off...................... Need to let her know what I think, coz everytime I bring up this topic, she will just stop me and pretend not to understand what I say...................
Dear Mum,
If I really do go off earlier than you, do not be too sad. Follow what I write here, then I will be able to go in peace:
- Please, please donate whatever organs that I have. Do not hesitate because I have already pledged my organs a few years ago. This is the best thing that can happen to me if I really die. (Many do not know that even though they have pledged their organs, their family is still the one to decide and can say no!)
- Any money that can be found which is not in my bank account, please pass to Alan. He will know what to do with it. They are not mine................but my dear trainees. Any extra, Alan, please just throw it into the JTC fund.
- Do not bury my body..................cremate it..................... I really hate the idea of my body rotting away in the soil. Then, scatter my ashes in the sea, which is my favourite place.......
- My favourite collection of CDs - distribute to sis and bro
- My favourite collection of books - give it to any organization which wants to start a library for the community
- My favourite collection of earrings - keep them as decoration
- My piano - pass to sis
- My car - pass to bro.
- My pc and handphones - for you to use
- My exercise machine - pass to bro.
- Take RM10,000 from my account and donate straight to PPIA in remembrance of me........
- Take another RM2000 and donate it to Malaysian AIDS Council.
- Another RM2000 goes to Malaysian CARE.
- The rest of the sum from my bank account - find a home that house HIV/AIDS kids and donate to them. Make sure their accounts are transparent before donating to them..........
- My insurance payout, EPF distribute among you, sis and bro.
At least, I know you all will ask my mum to read this before she decides on anything.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
加油！
好忙的一段时间。。。。。
忽略了我这个天地。。。。。
但这一次的忙是快乐的。。。。虽然身体疲惫，但精神却是无比的爽快。。。。。
这一年也已经过了一半，没有一刻是让我觉得我在浪费我的时间。。。。。。
2009 应该是我这一生最有意义的一年。。。。。。
抛开了所有 2008 的不愉快，创造了2009 的愉快。。。。。
这些都要感谢上帝所恩赐的一切。。。。。。。Jeslyn， 继续加油喔！
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很感叹，因为这一年虽然是我生活的高峰，但却是你的谷底。。。。。
真的是束手无策。。。。。只能把我的耳朵，时间，精神借给你，其余的你得自己想办法。。。。。
真希望你等待的答案在不久的时候会出现。。。。。
你经历过的我也曾经历过，但你的是“单伤”，而我却是说不出的“双伤”。。。。。
庆幸的是上帝在不到一年的时间就给了我我所等待的答案和解脱。。。。。。
我也开始学会不要质疑上帝的话，而是去服从，顺从。。。。。叛逆有时是要付出代价的。。。。
你寻找了两年，但答案还是没出现。。。。。
我只能说。。。。上帝会在对的时间开一条路给你。。。。。虽然不清楚何时，但却会为你祷告着。。。。。。此刻会到来的。。。。。
到时你也会看到 why you are not an accident, and why your life should be a purpose driven life.....
加油喔！
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你要到台湾留学了。。。。。哲学本来就是你的梦想。。。。。替你开心！
谢谢你让我在大学生涯里看到光芒。。。。
在我最孤独，失落，无助的第一个月。。。。你伸出了双手扶我一把。。。。。
当我觉得我们小组的男生很可恶时，你让我改观。。。。
当我觉得很想放弃直接回家，你的扶持让我继续留下。。。。。
你也许觉得那只是简单和顺便的帮忙而已，但对我而言你那时就好像我的救生圈。。。。
谢谢你让我决定留下在马大。。。。。
谢谢你帮我登记 tutorial。。。。。。
谢谢你上课时和我一起坐。。。。。。让我不觉得寂寞。。。。。
谢谢你和我一起看戏喝茶。。。。。
谢谢你帮我庆祝生日。。。。。。
谢谢你让我有一组那么棒的朋友。。。。。没有你我就不会认识 Ah Lu 和 PingYeen。。。。
谢谢你为我介绍第一份翻译的工作。。。。。
谢谢你让我觉得人生有希望。。。。。。
Thx for everything Yee Chen........ Wish you all the best in your Masters! 加油喔！
忽略了我这个天地。。。。。
但这一次的忙是快乐的。。。。虽然身体疲惫，但精神却是无比的爽快。。。。。
这一年也已经过了一半，没有一刻是让我觉得我在浪费我的时间。。。。。。
2009 应该是我这一生最有意义的一年。。。。。。
抛开了所有 2008 的不愉快，创造了2009 的愉快。。。。。
这些都要感谢上帝所恩赐的一切。。。。。。。Jeslyn， 继续加油喔！
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很感叹，因为这一年虽然是我生活的高峰，但却是你的谷底。。。。。
真的是束手无策。。。。。只能把我的耳朵，时间，精神借给你，其余的你得自己想办法。。。。。
真希望你等待的答案在不久的时候会出现。。。。。
你经历过的我也曾经历过，但你的是“单伤”，而我却是说不出的“双伤”。。。。。
庆幸的是上帝在不到一年的时间就给了我我所等待的答案和解脱。。。。。。
我也开始学会不要质疑上帝的话，而是去服从，顺从。。。。。叛逆有时是要付出代价的。。。。
你寻找了两年，但答案还是没出现。。。。。
我只能说。。。。上帝会在对的时间开一条路给你。。。。。虽然不清楚何时，但却会为你祷告着。。。。。。此刻会到来的。。。。。
到时你也会看到 why you are not an accident, and why your life should be a purpose driven life.....
加油喔！
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你要到台湾留学了。。。。。哲学本来就是你的梦想。。。。。替你开心！
谢谢你让我在大学生涯里看到光芒。。。。
在我最孤独，失落，无助的第一个月。。。。你伸出了双手扶我一把。。。。。
当我觉得我们小组的男生很可恶时，你让我改观。。。。
当我觉得很想放弃直接回家，你的扶持让我继续留下。。。。。
你也许觉得那只是简单和顺便的帮忙而已，但对我而言你那时就好像我的救生圈。。。。
谢谢你让我决定留下在马大。。。。。
谢谢你帮我登记 tutorial。。。。。。
谢谢你上课时和我一起坐。。。。。。让我不觉得寂寞。。。。。
谢谢你和我一起看戏喝茶。。。。。
谢谢你帮我庆祝生日。。。。。。
谢谢你让我有一组那么棒的朋友。。。。。没有你我就不会认识 Ah Lu 和 PingYeen。。。。
谢谢你为我介绍第一份翻译的工作。。。。。
谢谢你让我觉得人生有希望。。。。。。
Thx for everything Yee Chen........ Wish you all the best in your Masters! 加油喔！
Sunday, June 21, 2009
4-in-One Coffee
虽然不知你烦什么，或为了什么心情不好，但我依然会给你我的时间。。。。。就算累了一整天，你的要求我还是一定会答应。。。。。如果这样子会让你心情好些，再辛苦也无所谓。。。。
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不知道你指的是谁，但希望为难的人不是你。。。。。。。很好奇令人为难的又是谁，也有自己的猜测，但却希望自己的猜测是错的。。。。。。。心里其实也有些渴望另一个猜测才是对的。。。。。
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我的建议不知你会不会接受。。。。。。但如果我在你心里有那么一点的重要，我相信你会做。。。。。时间可以证明一切。。。。。。也许事情需要回到原点。。。。。。才会看到终点。。。。。。。
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虽然现在的你很成熟，但你终究还是不明白。。。。。难道我这一个小小的希望都不能成真吗？你这个提议并不是第一次。。。。而是很多次。。。。。。我做不到，也不会为任何人做到。。。。这一步不管发生什么事，我都绝对不会走。。。。。
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不知道你指的是谁，但希望为难的人不是你。。。。。。。很好奇令人为难的又是谁，也有自己的猜测，但却希望自己的猜测是错的。。。。。。。心里其实也有些渴望另一个猜测才是对的。。。。。
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我的建议不知你会不会接受。。。。。。但如果我在你心里有那么一点的重要，我相信你会做。。。。。时间可以证明一切。。。。。。也许事情需要回到原点。。。。。。才会看到终点。。。。。。。
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虽然现在的你很成熟，但你终究还是不明白。。。。。难道我这一个小小的希望都不能成真吗？你这个提议并不是第一次。。。。而是很多次。。。。。。我做不到，也不会为任何人做到。。。。这一步不管发生什么事，我都绝对不会走。。。。。
Friday, June 19, 2009
Sick of Crazy People............
This world is full of crazy people...... and my life is one of those 被他们这些人围绕着的。。。。。
Dunno whether I'm plain unlucky or just damn so lucky.................
Unlucky because I got 2 crazy neighbours, got a crazy trainee and a crazy parent (of that crazy trainee). Just when my crazy neighbours start to tone down, and my blood pressure starts to go down, come this crazy trainee plus that crazy mother of hers to make my blood pressure shoot up again..........
Lucky because I get to train my patience and next time I'm going to earn big money by writing about my experiences.................. (hopefully by that time I still get to retain my sanity).
Anyway, thanks to that crazy trainee and that crazy mother of hers, I get my interest back in this blog and start writing again...................
Frankly speaking, I have not even one cent of sympathy for them............... Should anything happen to them, I won't even shed a tear for them.................. Thanks to people like them, my heart has harden and never will I simply sympathize with people like them again........
Dunno whether I'm plain unlucky or just damn so lucky.................
Unlucky because I got 2 crazy neighbours, got a crazy trainee and a crazy parent (of that crazy trainee). Just when my crazy neighbours start to tone down, and my blood pressure starts to go down, come this crazy trainee plus that crazy mother of hers to make my blood pressure shoot up again..........
Lucky because I get to train my patience and next time I'm going to earn big money by writing about my experiences.................. (hopefully by that time I still get to retain my sanity).
Anyway, thanks to that crazy trainee and that crazy mother of hers, I get my interest back in this blog and start writing again...................
Frankly speaking, I have not even one cent of sympathy for them............... Should anything happen to them, I won't even shed a tear for them.................. Thanks to people like them, my heart has harden and never will I simply sympathize with people like them again........
赶紧走出我的生活
让我的日子更好过
因为你门我的心已封锁
为了避免我的心脏变得更软弱
像你们这种人
永远只有‘我我我’
从来没有为别人想过
就算你们跌进油锅
也是你们自己的错
世界上有你们这种人不是福而是祸
Monday, April 13, 2009
The Coloured Side...................
Seriously considering of furthering my studies................
But first, I have to be sure I am able to give up the many so-called important things in my life..............
The dark side - - -
My PPS, my night outings to "latte", my frequent spending trips to Popular, my existing $$$$$, my extra $$$$$, my zzzzzz...... time, my whatever expensive cuisine (coz I won't have much $ left......), my blogging time and many many more.....................................
On the bright side,
I don't have to worry about:
But first, I have to be sure I am able to give up the many so-called important things in my life..............
The dark side - - -
My PPS, my night outings to "latte", my frequent spending trips to Popular, my existing $$$$$, my extra $$$$$, my zzzzzz...... time, my whatever expensive cuisine (coz I won't have much $ left......), my blogging time and many many more.....................................
On the bright side,
I don't have to worry about:
- a husband with no one to cook for him (in any case, I don't even know how to cook a pot of rice!)
- a kid with no mummy to read stories to (frankly speaking, I'm not interested in happily forever after fairy tales!)
- a parent to take care of (it's my mum who's the one taking care of me all the while anyway!)
- leaving a maid behind who will seduce my man behind my back (I can't afford a maid anyhow, & there's no man anyway!)
On the gray side,
If I really decide to further my studies, I'm going to ask PPIA to sponsor me. Then, I will go into a lifelong agreement with them:
I, Jeslyn Chan Ye Hwee take you PPIA to be my partner to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.
On the rainbow side,
After getting the money and finishing my studies, I will start praying:
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank you for blessing me with the chance to further my studies. Here I pray that with your divine intervention, please do send to me a rich knight in shining armour to repay the debts of this damsel in distress and rescue her from the bondage of being indebted to this organization.
In Jesus Name I pray, Amen.
Let the apples be................
Clearing my phone list in my hp this morn................. Came across a name :Tay Swee Heng............
One of the nice guys that I got to know in the uni. Staying in the same residential college with so many ****ing guys, he was one of the few that knew how to respect us of the opposite sex, without being hypocritical.
Texted him, though I was prepared that he might have changed his number...................
Ha! Not even 5 minutes I got a reply. It was him! Oh yeah, he still remembered me! Glad to know he's doing well in his hometown in Malacca, helping his father out in his business. Really hope that this guy will be successful in his life, coz he is really one of the most decent guys out there left in this world.
Not long ago, I also came across an online article, where I saw another senior of mine operating a pharmacy in Malacca too. Another pretty nice guy, whom I managed to keep tumpanging his car during my years in uni. Happy for him too that he is now successful................... Kambate!
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-----Let the bad apples be rotten, let the mediocre ones be eaten, but let the good ones be treasured................-----
One of the nice guys that I got to know in the uni. Staying in the same residential college with so many ****ing guys, he was one of the few that knew how to respect us of the opposite sex, without being hypocritical.
Texted him, though I was prepared that he might have changed his number...................
Ha! Not even 5 minutes I got a reply. It was him! Oh yeah, he still remembered me! Glad to know he's doing well in his hometown in Malacca, helping his father out in his business. Really hope that this guy will be successful in his life, coz he is really one of the most decent guys out there left in this world.
Not long ago, I also came across an online article, where I saw another senior of mine operating a pharmacy in Malacca too. Another pretty nice guy, whom I managed to keep tumpanging his car during my years in uni. Happy for him too that he is now successful................... Kambate!
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-----Let the bad apples be rotten, let the mediocre ones be eaten, but let the good ones be treasured................-----
Friday, April 10, 2009
Respecting their dignity..........
Some of you might realize that many photos related to PPIA have disappeared from my blog..... Yeah, I have taken them off.
Learnt a lesson on respecting the dignity of special needs people.................
So, to practise what I have learnt from my KL and Singapore counterparts, I have taken my 1st step..................
2nd step...... anyone who visits will not be allowed to take any photos of our trainees, only shots of them doing their activities, not their faces...........
Well, to those of you who have pasted them on your blog too, pls do cooperate by taking them off...... Your cooperation will be kindly appreciated..........
Lets learn to respect the dignity of these special needs people!
I have taken my first step, have you?
Learnt a lesson on respecting the dignity of special needs people.................
So, to practise what I have learnt from my KL and Singapore counterparts, I have taken my 1st step..................
2nd step...... anyone who visits will not be allowed to take any photos of our trainees, only shots of them doing their activities, not their faces...........
Well, to those of you who have pasted them on your blog too, pls do cooperate by taking them off...... Your cooperation will be kindly appreciated..........
Lets learn to respect the dignity of these special needs people!
I have taken my first step, have you?
Monday, April 6, 2009
不是大学生的。。。。
虽然是个大学生，也察觉出大学生和非大学生思想的差别。。。。
虽然得承认大学文凭是个快速公路，也非常值钱。。。。
虽然曾经已踏上大学生涯的路。。。。
虽然曾经有实力因没文凭，而没被认可。。。薪水也比别人少得可怜。。。。
但依然。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能做大事。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能闯出一片蓝天。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能做出正面的改革。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能做得非常出众。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能比大学生更加成功。。。。。
我已经没办法证明。。。。
因为我当时没机会。。。。最终被有文凭的人压死了。。。。
因为我最终还是上了大学。。。。。。
就等你去证明吧。。。。。。。。
虽然得承认大学文凭是个快速公路，也非常值钱。。。。
虽然曾经已踏上大学生涯的路。。。。
虽然曾经有实力因没文凭，而没被认可。。。薪水也比别人少得可怜。。。。
但依然。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能做大事。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能闯出一片蓝天。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能做出正面的改革。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能做得非常出众。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能比大学生更加成功。。。。。
我已经没办法证明。。。。
因为我当时没机会。。。。最终被有文凭的人压死了。。。。
因为我最终还是上了大学。。。。。。
就等你去证明吧。。。。。。。。
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