Funerals....

I can't go to funerals. Coming out of one, I tend to get very upset..... Especially if the deceased is someone young and nice, having a bright future ahead of him / her......

Following on, every meal that I take will make me guilty. Every fun that I have will make me feel even bad. Looking in the mirror every morning, the same question will keep circling in my head: Why am I still here? I am no better than a lot of people in this world. Why does God still keep me here on earth?

The good thing out of funerals are that I tend to push myself further. I tell myself that I can't just rest like I have plenty of years ahead of me. I need to get things going so that even when I'm gone one day, there will be no regrets. Besides that, I tell myself I need to start doing things that I've planned but never get them materialized so far.

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Looking at AM and CH at the funeral, my heart really goes out to them. 白发人送黑发人。。。I can't imagine how my mum will take it if the one lying in the coffin is me or my brother or my sister...... Hope this will never have to happen to her..........

To AM and CH, may God comfort you all during this time and heal your wounds as time passes.

Going back to 'Masyarakat Jahiliah'........

Another life gone due to those stupid idiotic snatch thieves. A happy go lucky young guy, planning to get married next year, lost his life while chasing after a snatch thief who took away with his laptop while he was working on it. Two of that guy's accomplices stabbed him a few times on his side, and it happened that they stabbed into his aorta, that caused him to die.

The government should impose life imprisonment (I'm not a supporter of the death penalty) for those snatch thieves that cause people to die. These cold-blooded animals are inhumane and do not know the value of life. Isn't it ridiculous that nowadays our lives are not even worth the price of a laptop or maybe even a bag.

It has always been said that our lives depend on God. However, nowadays, our lives depend on heartless human beings. If they decide to just snatch away our items and just run off, we are considered lucky. If they decide to give you just a punch on the head, you are considered fortunate.

I shudder to think what would have happened to me if I had decided to give chase to the snatch thief that took away with my bag (full of valuable things and RM500 cash) during my uni days... Anyway, I should be thankful to the thief that he cut off my bag strap and not my hand. I should be grateful that he did not push me into the drain that I was standing next to which was 5 metres deep. I should 'bersyukur' coz he was quick and professional enough to snatch away my bag without me feeling it. Shouldn't I????

What kind of world is this today? I really feel that we the human race are moving backwards towards the 'masyarakat jahiliah' that we learnt in our form 4 history book.

Ai.......

RIP Swee Leong