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PPIA in December

December ........ my holiday................. all given to PPIA..................... together with Alan, Zhi Ling, Xin Er, who all sacrificed their holidays to stick with me through thick and thin....

Then, came Wai Kit with his never ending tricks, followed by 大花 & 小花................
Lunch was always fun together with them......... Then, Kim came back too, making my life even brighter**************together with 花姐...........................

In the end, only then HO HUEY PIN pop out to eat roti canai with us!

No holiday for me this time, but I am glad with my work and everything.....the people around me who have been helping me, supporting me..................Never ever have I felt such satisfied with this job of mine till now. Love every part of it and hope things will turn out better and better.....

Working together is always fun!!

JTC faithful volunteers........

软绵绵的小花

傻得可爱的Zhi Ling


我的得力住手 Xin Er


超能干的 architect 大花

All of us are fans of Macdonald!!!! See how we enjoy the food there!

Kamsahamnida!!

I have actually started another blog on JTC, the place that I am working at now............. Then, decided to scrap it off as I will be confused on which blog to put my photos in.......... So, guess i will jus stick to this blog and post everything here............

For this centre, there are many and endless people to thank:

Great thx to Clarissa and Mun Gune from Malaysian CARE, for without them, we won't be able to have a clearer vision of how to set up and run the centre. They have been teaching me lots of things that I have never learnt in university. Especially Clarissa, her guidance is really amazing..... To me, she's really God-sent...... How I wish I have known her earlier........... I would have learnt more things...............

Mr. Loh has been a great encouragement too. Thx Mr. Loh for having the confidence in me....... You thought I would leave after a short while coming back to EIP after my uni studies..... Too bad, I am staying on to "haunt" you all for at least another 5 more years..............

Kim, thx so much........ You saved me from "hell" to bring me out to this wonderful opening in my life............. No amount of words can express my gratitude to you................ Do you know, your support and your affirmation has been very important to me..................

Alan, thx for taking up the challenge to be my working partner.......... I'm touched that you said yes immediately, though you know very well that you have to sacrifice your hols and your time....... Working with me is gonna be tough work, but yet you are willing to take this step together with me.................... I'm praying that our partnership will not be just a temporary one, but for a long time, at least til we see the first batch out there working and earning "tons" of money! Thanks so much that you have been such a great help lately........ Without you, there are many things that I can't possibly do by myself...........

Aunty Cheng Neo & Lian Neo, thx too for your prayers and advice.......... I'm so glad that JTC is in your prayers.................. & safe in God's hands...............

Mr. Cho, thx for all the biblical advice that you have given me........ It has definitely made me a better person........... more confident of taking up this heavy responsibility...................

Siek Har, thx to you we got so many people willing to sponsor and help out JTC........... I'm really touched that you went all out to persuade your friends around you to help us............

Jason, thx for your hard work together with Alan to shift all the things to JTC. With you around, many things that seem impossible has become possible.......... Can't imagine PPIA without you.......

Thx May Sin that you straightaway agree and are willing to come over on Wednesdays to teach them baking and cooking...............

Thanks to all DTC colleagues for remembering JTC in your weekly prayers.


KAMSAHAMNIDA!!!!

Batu Pahat Japanese Food

Funny, right? look thru the whole internet, could not even find the Japanese restaurant that Kim and I went to that day....... If you type 'japanese food batu pahat' in google, you will only get sushi king, ajisen ramen...................

The funnier thing is I forgot the name of the japanese restaurant that I went to! So, how should i introduce it? Well, just go to this road where Xin Xin is located, the shop that is famous for its ang ku kueh, a few doors away is this unique japanese restaurant, where its food is marvellicious!!!!

The funniest thing is, you might not know where Xin Xin is...... so, look out for that famous funeral parlour in Batu Pahat..... Siang Teng....... opposite it is Wings Cafe, and a few doors away is this Japanese Restaurant!

There's nothing to be funny right, coz you might still not be able to find it, wat more i took the pictures of the food, and not the restaurant......................... Well, blame it on the handsome 'kwailo' that i saw outside the restaurant that night................ Just focusing on him makes me lose my focus!!!!!

Anyway, wait for me to go there another time....... then i will definitely take its photo and post it up here........ Oh yeah, the food is definitely pricier than Sushi King, but let me tell you, sedap sekali, sangat sedap, amat sedap, paling sedap, terlalu sedap!!!!!!!

Going into this restaurant makes me decide to give up on Sushi King and be truly faithful to this!

Wasabi Octopus...........worth it! ****

Salmon Temaki............very, very worth it!******

Fish Roe....... quite nice! ***

Pumpkin Croquette................very worth it! *****

scallops................ very, very worth it! ******

tempura............ worth it! ****

Malacca Zoo Outing........

Got back my energy after sleeping for 2 consecutive days……. Only woke up to eat lunch with Mum at Secret Recipe on Saturday…………… the rest of the time…… sleeping…..zzz….zzz……..

The Malacca trip was fun, but tired…… Pushing a wheelchair is definitely no easy job. Up the slope, down the slope, past the giraffes and the zebras……. furthermore with Tan Jun Sen giving his military orders…….. Xin Er and I were already dead by the time we reached the exit…… Zhi Ling with Alan in another group were no better than us…….

Jun Sen, as usual too was the boss of the day, giving orders to her maids – Xin Er and I…… Well, he even came out with this silly idea, that next time we go out, he asked Kim not to let his mother come along…… Oh no!!!!! Now, I know that Jun Sen’s mum is really a superwoman, carrying him here and there…….. Even I, who have been working in EIP for so many years, carrying children up and down, can’t compete with his mum! No wonder we were so tired, coz his mum was not with us!!!

In my group, I had Jia Miem, Shey Rou, Wei Lun, Jun Sen, Su Qin and Yuan Kang…… with dear Xin Er to help me!

Wei Lun had a wonderful time paktoing with her girlfren, Shey Rou, stopping from time to time to take photos together…..with the animals too……

Jia Miem, as usual was the light bulb, getting in between that couple……. coz she also like Wei Lun, yet her best fren is Shey Rou………….. Sometimes, I really wonder her motive in getting near Shey Rou……. hahaha!

Meanwhile, Yuan Kang was just entertaining me by pointing and naming the animals……….in real fact, he was not interested in this trip at all….. He doesn’t bother whether the animals are alive or dead…… he only knows that to make me happy, he has to do something to show that he is aware of the animals in the zoo…… hahaha! Not my idea of a “romantic” trip with this handsome “boyfren” of mine!!!

Su Qin as usual went on by herself…… in this sense she's really normal….. Can be seen that she enjoys this trip very much……

After the zoo trip, we went to Jaya Jusco…… At last, I thought…… the time for us to rest in an air con place……

Too bad……….no rest….. I had to help them one by one to line up and buy KFC…….. Dunno whether my magnet is more kuat than Mcdonald or it is KFC’s magnet that is stronger….. Only a few wanted to go to McD with Alan, the rest wanted to eat KFC!!!! Aargh……. Miau Cheng purposely spilt his Coke at the counter……. me holding Jun Sen took a long time queuing up before it was our turn!! Both our legs were nearly crumpled up by the time it was our turn…..Shey Rou and Jia Miem talking so loudly in KFC as if the restaurant is a hawker centre………. Jeffery grabbing every thing edible at his sight, stuffing them into his mouth - even the chicken meat that was chewed and spit out by someone!!……. Wee Keen fighting with me at KFC as I confiscated his VCD, McD toys and purse….. coz he jumped over the McD counter to grab their toys!!!

Shopping with them was also very tiring, as Wee Keen had to be restrained from running off and buying the things that he wanted…… Luckily his purse was with me!!!! Hahahah!!! One thing good was he did listen to our instructions and did not create much trouble. Su Qin gave us a scare when we lost her………….. Kim had to go on an emergency search for her……. Well, five minutes later, she came walking towards me with a DVD that she had bought, not even aware of the hoohah happening becoz of her……

Before going back, I quickly dashed into Coffee Bean and bought a LARGE ice-blended Belgian Chocolate to reward myself!!!!!!

Well, tiring but this trip was really enjoyable……..

Oh yeah, I guess the happiest was Yean Fei and Yi Ming, coz I gave them the chance to pakto together for the whole day with Aunt Kim Han looking after them…… Imagine, these 2 lovebirds holding hands the whole day from the zoo to Jaya Jusco………… Hahaha!




A lesson from animals: which are we? the elephants and zebras which are always in a group? Or the emu and "donno wat type" of cow, which strays away from the group?

I was also very happy, coz :
- God answered our prayers and gave us such good weather and also took good care of us
- I got to know Wee Keen more and understand him
- I managed to shed off some grams of this body of mine by pushing Jun Sen and the wheelchair
- Yuan Kang learnt to mix in a group and behave normally
- I got to see how normal my JTC trainees are when they go out…….
- I got to see more of Wai Kit’s magic tricks on the bus!
- I had a nice chit chat with Aunt Kim Han and Saw Lee on the bus
- Aunt Kim Han told me that she wants to volunteer the whole day once a week, instead of just one hour……..
- dear Xin Er was with me
- Yean Fei and Yi Ming had such a sweet day together
- Yean Fei learnt to move around the bus without fearing that he will fall
- Tian Xin & Ting Chien were very well-behaved that day
- all staff were very united to make this trip a success
- of many many more things that happen on that day…………………………..

Kamsahamnida to all staff, volunteers, parents and the trainees!!!!
Thx Kim for organising this trip!!!

Countdown to Malacca Zoo!!

I'm going to Malacca Zoo!!!
Can't sleep, can't wait to hop into the bus with my JTC and DTC trainees........
Looking forward to the trip coz it will be fun with:

• Wai Kit and his interesting magic shows, forever making me puzzled on how his coin can end up in my tightly clenched hand? Waiting to see when he will make the coin turn up in my underwear....hahahah!!!
• 忠发 and his autistic actions.................... making people wondering whether he is a PPIA trainer or trainee.....................
• Kim and her loud booming voice................... waiting to see who will be the first one to "kena" from her in the zoo.................... our trainees or the monkeys???
• Xin Er "paktoing" with Jun Sen.................................. who knows after this trip, Jun Sen might be touched by her and might not want Huey Pin anymore........................ hahaha!!!!
• little tiny Zhi Ling pushing Soon Ang's wheelchair................................ in the end a miracle might happen, with Soon Ang pushing Zhi Ling in the wheelchair, with a monkey on her lap!!!
• Wee Keen going to meet his "family" in the zoo..................talking to them in his animal language................................. and scolding people with his "family members" name..............still waiting for him to scold Aunty Lian Neo.
• Me "paktoing" with Yuan Kang with so many 电灯泡 following after me................. Argh...............

6 hours countdown from now................................................. 5.59..5.58...5.57.....5.56....... Zzzzzzzz.......................

失望。。。。

有时你讲话可以很伤人。。。。。
不要以为你是这样想，别人就会如你想象般那样。。。。。
怀疑一个人的人格并没有错。。。。。。。但怀疑起一个不会对你撒谎的人的人格，就真的令我太失望。。。。。。
你的心里就是把这个人想成这样吗？
原来你就是用这样的眼光去看这个人： 一个不会对你撒谎的人。。。。。。

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你今天说一套，明天做一套。。。。。。
你后天又回去前一套，大后天又跳去另一套。。。。。
我越来越不知道你心里想什么了。。。。
原本的执着去哪了？
原本的热忱去哪了？
原本的目标去哪了？
原本的你去哪了？
为什么总觉得离你越来越遥远了？

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你又不知跑到哪了。。。。。
一阵子还很常的潜入我的生活。。。。
看到好的东西会通知我一声。。。。
听到好的歌会想要播放给我听。。。。
你那些抽象的讯息是有意思的吗？
你那些抽象的画面是有含义的吗？
我也被你弄乱了。。。。。。
就让我继续活在这抽象的世界吧。。。。。。

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World AIDS Day...............

World AIDS Day is coming soon...... 1st December of every year.

Lets wear the RED RIBBON to show our support for PLWHA (People Living With HIV / AIDS)!!!

More and more people are being infected with HIV / AIDS every minute of the day.

Yet, not many dare to come out and say "I HAVE HIV / AIDS"..........

Instead, saying "I have cancer.... I have tuberculosis......... I have diabetes........" is easier than confessing that one has the HIV virus or AIDS.

Why is that so?

This is because of the stigma and prejudice that one will face if they stand out and confess that they are a PLWHA (People Living with HIV / AIDS)..........

Imagine......

• people avoiding you
• people criticizing and scolding you
• people looking at you as if you are the virus itself
• spouse leaving you
• doctors and nurses handling you as if you are an "untouchable"
• dentists saying "NO" to you
• hawkers not letting you use their utensils
• your employer sacks you
• no one wants to eat at the same table with you
• no one is willing to hug you when you are sad
• no one is willing to shake your hands
• no one wants to swim in the same pool as you
• your lover not willing to walk down the aisle with you, the moment the truth is revealed
• no one willing to clean your body when you die
• and many many more even chilling situations..............................

PLWHA can be our spouse, children, parents, siblings, relatives, friends and others who are close to us......

It can also be ME!

Before we discriminate PLWHA, think first...... do we want all those things happening to us?

The answer is of course NO! So, why don't we treat them with respect and dignity?

HIV /AIDS might come to us one day too................ Remember, we might be faithful to our partner, but our partner might be the one transmitting the virus to us! We might think that the one night stand that we experienced before is just a single mistake and nothing will happen..... We might think that our lover / spouse will never be a victim of HIV / AIDS..... We might think that we won't be so unlucky......... We might become the next victim without us knowing! There is no certainty in this world today.

Therefore, lets change the perspective we view PLWHA........................ for who knows we might be one of them one day.........................

Lets embrace PLWHA around us with love and care, just like how we treat our own family members and friends...........

Get to know more about HIV / AIDS so that we have the right info about it, instead of misunderstanding it. This will open our eyes and help us to become a better person in this world...................

Below are some facts obtained from the Malaysian AIDS Council website..... which I hope will help change the perspective of YOU who reads my blog................

What is HIV?
Human Immunodeficiency Virus. It is a retrovirus that attacks the immune system.

• HIV only affects human beings.
• Its presence can be detected through an HIV antibody test.
• HIV is highly concentrated in blood, semen and vaginal fluid but is present in very low concentrations in saliva and tears.
• Outside the human body, the virus is weak.
• HIV is the virus that causes AIDS.

What is AIDS?
Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome.

Acquired = It is not inherited.

Immune Deficiency = a weakened immune system that is unable to resist oncoming diseases.

Syndrome = signs and symptoms of an illness.

AIDS is the condition whereby HIV has destroyed a person's immune system, such that it is unable to defend the body from opportunistic diseases.

How does HIV break down the immune system?
CD4 cells are a type of white blood cell.

Upon entering the human body, HIV will attack CD4 cells and destroy them. The viruses then use infected CD4 cells to produce more HIV viruses. These new viruses invade other CD4 cells, causing the body's immune system to slowly deteriorate. As a result, the body's immune system is weakened and cannot fight against oncoming infections.

You don't know who has HIV
Anyone can be infected with HIV. It is not who you are, but more so what you do that puts you at risk of an HIV infection. HIV carriers may look and feel healthy but at the same time, they are able to transmit the virus to others. It is not possible to identify an HIV-positive person based on how they look on the outside. Prevention is, by far, still the best method for avoiding HIV infection.

Is there a cure?
AIDS cannot be cured. Once you are infected with HIV, you will stay infected for the rest of your life.

There is a range of medications known as antiretroviral drugs that suppresses the virus's ability to replicate itself. As a result, there are less chances of HIV infecting other CD4 cells. These drugs, however, are not a cure for AIDS.

How is HIV transmitted?
3 main modes:

• Unprotected, penetrative sex with an infected person
• Exchange of infected blood, for example sharing infected needles and syringes, blood transfusion or organ transplant
• Mother to child transmission during pregnancy, delivery or breastfeeding, which presents a 30 percent risk but can be lowered to less than 10 percent with the use of a medication called AZT

How is HIV NOT transmitted?
Social contacts such as hugging
Sharing food and drinks
Studying or working together
Sharing public facilities such as public phones, swimming pools or public toilets
Sharing beds or home equipment
Mosquito bites

Jun Sen has a Blog!!!!

Our dear Tan Jun Sen has just started his blog. He enthusiastically wrote his first three entries and inserted that big head photo of his in his blog..........

A cerebral palsy boy, yet so normal in his thinking. Went to school for not even 1 year, but studied in PPIA for so many years...... Cannot read Chinese, but can read Malay and English..... Can't speak fluently, but when it comes to Hokkien, he's so damn fluent..... Can't walk by himself, but when we hold him, he can even run................!

Just to brag... I am his "sifu"........... So, gotta make sure he continues writing..........

To give him support, go to his blog and have a look at his very original language.......

http://jonsonppia.blogspot.com/

Do leave a comment or two there to give him your support. This boy will be so touched until tears come rolling down his cheeks. If you can't understand his language, then don't enter his world...... Go back and revise your English first.....If you understand, then congrats!!! Welcome to his world!!!!

Go, go, go Jun Sen!

PPIA Telematch Day.......

这一次的 Telematch Day 大家都带着满袋的礼物和饱饱的肚子回家。虽然只是一场小型活动，但大家都玩得非常开心。Kiwanis 也非常好的赞助我们的午餐。。。。。

Xiaodoudou's Spirit.........

Read a blog http://xiaodoudou.blogspot.com/, recommended by my dearest brother in his blog. It's about this cancer girl who was so optimistic, yet knew that she had no more than 2 years to live. Imagine getting this news:

Quoted from xiaodoudou's blog:

After the chemo, I went to see Dr See again. I needed to know where all these treatments are leading me to.
Me: What are the chances of my recovery?
Dr: Out of a hundred, about fifty will get to go into remission.
Me: Then how long does these fifty get to survive?
Dr: The cancer comes back after a few months after they go into remission, the survival span is around 1-2 years.
Me: That means I only have 1-2 years? I will not get to live past 30 years old? I'm only 25.
Dr: (Nods her head with tears in her eyes.)
Me: Then how will I die?
Dr: Most will eventually suffer from kidney failure from the fluid build-up then go into a coma and die.
Me: Even dialysis will not help?
Dr: (Nods her head with tears in her eyes.)

There was nothing I could ask anymore. All I could do was cry and that's what I do on and off since last night till now. My family is 100% supportive and Dear came over to lie beside me and watch me fall asleep before she went home. I am thankful for everything I have. However, the thought of having such a short time to live and probably having to tolerate chemo during long periods of whatever life I have just scares me so much. I thought the most beautiful part of my life just started, me and Dear finally managed to get together again. We have the financial ability to get a flat, live together and build a wonderful future, go travelling and see the world in each other's eyes. I wanted to take good care of my parents and give my mummy the best years an old lady can ever get. Now all these crumbles and seem so impossible.

Damn it...... the moment I start reading it, I started crying non-stop. What more, I read it from the end to the beginning. The crematorium comes first, the death, the sufferings, then only the beginning when she started her chemo treatment.........

Well, at least what she wished for in her life came true during her periods of suffering from cancer.

Quoted from xiaodoudou's blog:

I used to pray for weight loss, mummy to be gentle, papa to quit gambling, meimei to be sweet, a love whom I know is for sure, friends who stick by me and whom I can always count on. All these which once seemed almost impossible to realise altogether at once, came true. What more can a girl ask for?

After finishing, I thought to myself, if I am down with cancer, what will I do? Well, this is not something impossible, breast cancer runs in my family, and I have had a big lump removed before........ I have always been thinking of this possibility................. Who knows, I might be diagnosed tomoro to be having cancer...... maybe even last stage cancer..........

Well, if I really get cancer, I'm gotta to be more optimistic than this gal (say easy, do hard).

1. I won't go for chemo, and just live the remaining days of my life the way i want.

2. I wan to continue to work, just like usual, living normally, not letting the cancer dominate my life.

3. I wil stop all my part-time work and enjoy myself playing my fav. computer games, reading my fav. books, watching my fav. shows.................. every evening and night........

4. I wil eat, without bothering I will be fat or not.........regardless of the price.......regardless of the sugar level..........regardless of the cholesterol level................

5. I wil bring my mum travelling to places I hav wanted to go, but still haven't gone.....Club Med, Pulau Redang, Sabah, Sarawak, Bali, Korea..........(I'm not greedy.....I don't ask for too expensive or too far places.........only the realistic ones within my budget....)

6. Spend my mum's money shopping.... buying all the things i wan...........then tell her i will pay her back after I'm dead, thru my life insurance payout where my dearest mum is the beneficiary........... See, who says you can't benefit from your own life insurance?

7. I'm going to have Japanese food in my menu every day. Jus love it. Never got tired of eating salmon, sushi, udon, grilled eel, scallops, octopus, chawanmushi, soft shell crab and my beloved raw OYSTERS!!!!!

8. I'm going to continue write my blog and fill it with nice memories..................

9. I'm going to really start writing a book and get it published...............Who knows I may be famous after my death...............

10. I'm going to tel my family to remember donating my organs (whatever that are not affected by cancer cells to the people in this world who need it for their survival.....)

11. I'm going to write to 林宇中，张栋梁，窦智孔，品冠，潘玮柏 to visit me before I die........It's going to be a win-win situation: I get to see the real person, they get free publicity.............

12. I'm going to plan my own funeral, and make my family promise that they will follow it........ no funeral service, no burial - cremation only.

13. I'm going to sleep now....................coz no matter whether I'm going to live or die......sleep is still the most important thing in my life.................. Ciao!

祝你们生日快乐。。。。。

JunSen，我都还没开过生日 party, 你都已经在酒楼做大寿了！还请了这么多人。你要加油喔！快快自己走路，以后我就可以帮你找工作了。。。。这是我为你许下的生日许愿。。。

BoonChien，希望过了这生日，你会多懂事一些。。。

不要再自残自己了。。。

你虽然很聪明，但聪明有时会被聪明误。。。。。

YiMing，看到你开心，我也很开心。。。

不知为什么，就特别很疼你。。。。

希望明年的你不要那么神经兮兮的了。。。。

好好表现自己，让看不起你的人大跌眼镜。。。。。

YiCheng，你又大一岁了。。。。

固执的你，总是让妈妈很为难，所以送一首周董的歌给你。。。

听妈妈的话

别让她受伤

想快快长大

才能保护她

Beautiful Theng.......Beautiful Wedding

Felix & Fiona

Standing: Alice, Theng, MengMeng, SeeLing

Sitting: AiNgee, me, ShuEe, ShuEe's Sis


me & my good fren, Theng!

SuSan & Theng

Theng's Family..................................Theng & Us


Theng & Sis...................................Waiting


Ready...... and here he comes!


Together................................

I have been "lost" for a month...........

Too busy....... no time to think of writing blog.........

Well, but I'm happy to be busy this time, becoz I'm bz doing the work that I like.........

Anyway, it has been a month since Theng got married, and I haven't put up her wedding photos up here. So sorry, my dear fren......

Well, we got to know each other since Standard One, been good frens on and off til we finish Form 5.......... When we were in Form 4 & 5, thx to her my secondary school days are full of nice memories. A kind, nice and considerate fren. Til today, she has never failed to contact me whenever she's back in BP. Thx Theng.... and sorry too becoz I'm forever so selfish, not contacting anyone. That's how I kept losing contact with everyone. Well, thx to you, our friendship is stil intact.

I'm really happy for you that you have found the love of your life.......... I pray that your marriage will be a happy and blissful one. You deserve a nice husband, a nice career, a nice life...... as you are really such a nice person............. God bless you and Felix! Love you Theng!!

十年没见你了。。。。。是你吗？

十年。。。。十年了。。。。今晚再次遇到你，整颗心还是很紧张。。。。。不敢肯定是不是你。。。。。因为十年了。。。。你脸在我脑海里的记忆已经模糊了。。。。只敢瞄瞄看看一下是不是你，却又害怕被人发现。。。。。也须不是你。。。。也须我们曾在街上碰过面，但都已经不认得彼此了。。。。。。

不懂现在的你怎样了。。。拍拖了？结婚了？有孩子了？事业有成了？对我没有印象了？其实一直都有想过问问一下身边的人你怎样了。。。。。但没有一次鼓得起勇气问。。。。。。每当想开口，嘴巴就哑了。。。。。。。

因为你，我的人生观点改变很大。。。。。。因为你。。。。。直到今天我没办法真正相信一个人。。。。。。因为你。。。。影响了我做一些糊涂的选择。。。。。。。因为你。。。。。唉。。。。。。

你唯一的一张照片，我不知是否丢了，撕了，还是藏在哪一本相簿里。。。。。你亲自做的卡，我不知扔了，烧了还是藏在哪一个抽屉里。。。。。。。。

无论怎样。。。。。十年来。。。祈祷时都会记得你。。。。
接到消息你进到大学时，替你开心，祷告你能够顺利完成学业，因为我认识你时，你的学业并不是很好。。。。。。
听说你毕业了，回到 BP 做工了，为你祷告你能够找到一份好的工，赚多多的钱，因为我认识你时，你已经是很努力的在打拼赚自己的零用钱。。。。。
听说你拍拖了，替你开心，希望你找到的是一个会真正爱你和珍惜你的女子，而不是喜欢上你那俊俏的脸孔而已的女子。。。。
听说你胖了，没有之前的瘦，不稀奇，因为认识你时你本来就很厉害吃，所以为你祷告你依然健健康康的。。。。。。
接下来。。。。没勇气问你的事了。。。。。也就这样没有你的消息了。。。。。。
但还是依然没忘记你。。。。。祷告时很自动地会为你祈祷。。。。。。
没恨你。。。。没怪你。。。。。没怨你。。。。。。
我对你仅有的要求是。。。。你一定要过的好，过的快乐，过的幸福。。。。。。。。

Your Photos......My Inspiration and Comfort

These are my friend, Bernard's photos.......
His photos are very meaningful and they really provide inspiration to me in my life.......
Like his photos very much and hope to share with everyone......
Guess it will inspire you all too........

P/s: Bernard, kamsahamnida! Thanks for your permission, and kindly allow me to put in my interpretation on how your photos inspire me............ They have been a comfort to me.................

Bernard's version: Many times we keep rushing on something and negligent those thing or persons around us. Maybe sometimes we should slow down a bit, slow down a bit to care those peoples around us, say hi or hello. i believe some peoples wish to say hi and hello again to some buddy but never have the chance again. So why rushing ? as for me, my choice is, i take my time to value those around me.

My version: Life is really fast moving that sometimes we can't see clearly what we want......

At certain times too, we just blindly follow whoever that is in front of us. This can lead us to making wrong choices, and going too fast can cause us to make decisions that we might regret later in life.

This whole year, from January to August, I seem to be making wrong decisions in many aspects....... Hence, life was not smooth-sailing for me.......... Guess I went too fast and did not really see what I wanted.....Regretted some choices, yet I'm proud of myself that I chose to move on, instead of pondering about the past...........Hence, the confident me today, coz I chose to confront everything in my life, regardless of good or bad......Guess God saw that and turned everything from bad to good for me right now......Hope that this will continue..........

Bernard's version (1): This question pop up usually when a person standing in the middle of Y or T junction. Some path seems straight and smooth but some are not. Is that mean, choosing those smooth and straight path will reach the destination earlier and easier ? or is there a possibility that those paths which are bumpy and winding will happen to be a short cut ? there are too many doubts and question marks when people standing at those junction. Some times I am wandering, is it just me or other people facing this kind of problem. Anyway just a thought or maybe I am thinking too much. After all hope you all like this shot.

Bernard's version (2): Life is a matter of making choices and decisions. Sometimes some road that we choose has no turning back. we never know what we might encounter along the way. It's either we move on bravely or we pulse until we clear our doubts before we make a move, but in the end life goes on. Friends move on bravely and don't regret for what we have chose.

My version: There are many paths to choose in our life. No matter, the path is smooth or not, we never know what lies ahead in the end...... The smooth one might turn out to be the best, but it can also turn out to be the worse. The rough one can be quite as bad or may even turn out to be the best! Hence, what we can do is just to choose one, be determined and carry on with our choice, coz sometimes there is no turning back in life. Walk ahead and don't keep thinking about the 'road not taken'...........

I chose some paths that I thought was good in the beginning, and yet a few turned out to be bad...... Until today, I have never chosen a path that's bad at the beginning, hence I will never know what the bad road leads to in the end........ No courage to pick the bad road, for i'm not one who understands 先苦后甜 (bitter followed by sweetness)........ Hope that one day I will understand that...............

The Road Not Taken

By Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood,

and I— I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Bernard's version: Many times, there are long and hard journey ahead us which we felt tired and frustrated to move on, but we never know along the way we might found light ( friends ) even we are surrounded by darkness ( obstacles ). Try to look around and help those who need it and shine other's life up. Just like the sunshine.

My version: There is always a light at the end of a path, which is our hope in life that keeps us going on. The light might looks very near, but yet it seems so far............... It seems impossible to reach, yet if we keep on persevering, we might just capture it. However, do not procastinate, for time and tide waits for no man. Darkness might just come anytime..........

I hope for the light, I look out for the light..........Yet I seem not being able to catch the light. i choose to persevere, even though I know life sometimes can be unfair........ Not everything that we persevere will turn out to be good in the end........However, i still choose to persevere, for there is still a chance that i might just reach the light.......I have been wasting too much time in my 27 years of life.......I'm not going to repeat this mistake again for the next 27 and another 27 years of my life.......

Bernard's version: In the process of growing up we might face lot's of difficulties, why ? it's because too many first time for us, no experience. but in the end if we want to survive, we need to come out from comfort zone and face the world, only then we might be able to bear fruits

My version: Life is all about growing up........Some people might not survive the first stage, and still remain immature...... Some might go on to the next stage, learning to bloom......... However, only a few will really bloom and turn mature....... Which stage are we right now?

For 26 years, I have been in the first stage......... Now, I can proudly say that I'm in the second stage......I'm learning to bloom, the right way to bloom........Learning from my past mistakes, from the people around me, from incidents impacting me........hoping that one day I will bloom ......Then, I can gladly say that I have bloomed to my fullest.............

Bernard's version: Even though the road ahead may seems to be hard, bumpy, winding and sometimes even need our faith to move another step, but don't give up, don't hesitate to step forward.

My version: Looking at this road to leading to the 'sky', I learn to appreciate what God has done for me...... I learn to appreciate God's greatness and the hope of eternal life that He has given to me........ God's way is never smooth and straight........ His way is narrow and crooked........ Yet His way is the only way that promises us the way leading to heaven......... I'm glad that I chose to believe in Him....... Have you?

JiaSheng。。。。 停梦吧！

每天发梦的 JiaSheng 16岁了！！！！
为他许下了三个愿望：

• 第一，不要再发梦了。。。。醒醒吧！
• 第二，不要再做梦了。。。。清醒吧！
• 第三，不要再梦游了。。。。起来吧！

旧的非去不可。。。。。。新的才会来

I'm getting a new start for myself。。。。。to add value, add value, add value to myself and to my life。。。 (Kim, you know what that means right? Haha!)

After a year of ups and downs, I'm glad that my life is still smooth-sailing。。。。in fact it is getting better day by day!

Hence, I'm getting rid of old things in my life and bringing in new things。。。。

The first thing that I got rid off was my Sony Ericsson K800i Cybershot phone。。。。。and all the bad memories, of cozlah, good ones must preserve, haha!
Replacing it is a new Sony Ericsson C902 Cybershot phone。。。。。。。for nicer memories in the future。。。。。。no more bad ones!!!!

The second thing was my jeans handbags – the blue one and the green one! Got a big and bright yellow one to replace them!!!!! I don wan dark colours in my life anymore。。。come, come, come, all the bright colours and shine up my life!

Third thing, my job! Haha! I managed to come out of one that made me miserable for 3 years (all becoz of one person), and go out to a new one that promises me a bright bright future full of hope!

Fourth thing, I discarded certain people from my life (all aspects)。。。。。my emotional baggage。。。。no more am I going to be affected by them anymore。。。。。。no use pondering or even reminiscing about them, trying to please them and giving in to all their needs and requests。。。。。it’s a waste of time!!! Have to treasure those that treasure me for who I am 。。。。。。

Next, no more all Chinese in my blog。。。。。。。
A new start also means a new way of writing, haha!
Style cannot change, change language lah!
(Got to change, coz many ppl around me complaining they dunno how to read Chinese)

No. 6, Looking back in my wardrobe, my goodness, I have been wearing the same clothes for one year。。。。I have not been topping up my clothes for so long!!!! That’s not me!!! Got to go on a shopping spree。。。。。。。not forgetting new shoes too。。。。。

No. 7, My pc is full of nonsense files。。。。。。 Got to clear them up, delete, delete, delete。。。。。 those that are not relevant anymore must go。。。。。 retain only the important ones。。。

No. 8, Get rid of all the rubbish in my house, making space for new items that I plan to buy。。。。。hehehe!

No. 9, Quickly finish all outstanding chores and no more procrastinating。。。。。No more owing people unfinished chores。。。。。 then I’m going to start doing things that I like to do, but have always not have the chance and time to do。。。。。。

No. 10。。。。 Still figuring out how to get enough money to get rid of my old Myvi and switch it to a brand new Honda City。。。。。。Impossible, so hold on until I get a rich husband, hahaha! Any takers? Hehehe!

自己来。。。。。Steamboat 烧烤

After badminton, the five of us - GekBoon, Kim, ZhongFa, HueyPin & me went to '自己来 ' to eat our dinner. First time there, nice place。。。。。Just that when we walked out, we were all very smelly due to the smoke from the pan。。。。。。Love the bamboo clams, scallop, prawns, beef marinated with curry powder, the tomyam soup and many other types of food! The most special one is our Mr. ZhongFa's fried oyster with egg! It was really marvellicious!!!!

The way we cook is really messy and 'terrible'。。。。。

Our chef busy making fried oyster with egg for us to eat。。。



All of us busy eating。。。。no time to talk。。。

Eating is not about the place, but the people around you。。。。。

Even if the place is right, but the people not right, it won't be fun。。。。

Even if the place is wrong, but the people right, it will still be fun。。。。

If both the place and people are right, it is PERFECT!!!

Planning my next trip to this place already。。。。。。