Malacca Zoo Outing........

Got back my energy after sleeping for 2 consecutive days……. Only woke up to eat lunch with Mum at Secret Recipe on Saturday…………… the rest of the time…… sleeping…..zzz….zzz……..

The Malacca trip was fun, but tired…… Pushing a wheelchair is definitely no easy job. Up the slope, down the slope, past the giraffes and the zebras……. furthermore with Tan Jun Sen giving his military orders…….. Xin Er and I were already dead by the time we reached the exit…… Zhi Ling with Alan in another group were no better than us…….

Jun Sen, as usual too was the boss of the day, giving orders to her maids – Xin Er and I…… Well, he even came out with this silly idea, that next time we go out, he asked Kim not to let his mother come along…… Oh no!!!!! Now, I know that Jun Sen’s mum is really a superwoman, carrying him here and there…….. Even I, who have been working in EIP for so many years, carrying children up and down, can’t compete with his mum! No wonder we were so tired, coz his mum was not with us!!!

In my group, I had Jia Miem, Shey Rou, Wei Lun, Jun Sen, Su Qin and Yuan Kang…… with dear Xin Er to help me!

Wei Lun had a wonderful time paktoing with her girlfren, Shey Rou, stopping from time to time to take photos together…..with the animals too……

Jia Miem, as usual was the light bulb, getting in between that couple……. coz she also like Wei Lun, yet her best fren is Shey Rou………….. Sometimes, I really wonder her motive in getting near Shey Rou……. hahaha!

Meanwhile, Yuan Kang was just entertaining me by pointing and naming the animals……….in real fact, he was not interested in this trip at all….. He doesn’t bother whether the animals are alive or dead…… he only knows that to make me happy, he has to do something to show that he is aware of the animals in the zoo…… hahaha! Not my idea of a “romantic” trip with this handsome “boyfren” of mine!!!

Su Qin as usual went on by herself…… in this sense she's really normal….. Can be seen that she enjoys this trip very much……

After the zoo trip, we went to Jaya Jusco…… At last, I thought…… the time for us to rest in an air con place……

Too bad……….no rest….. I had to help them one by one to line up and buy KFC…….. Dunno whether my magnet is more kuat than Mcdonald or it is KFC’s magnet that is stronger….. Only a few wanted to go to McD with Alan, the rest wanted to eat KFC!!!! Aargh……. Miau Cheng purposely spilt his Coke at the counter……. me holding Jun Sen took a long time queuing up before it was our turn!! Both our legs were nearly crumpled up by the time it was our turn…..Shey Rou and Jia Miem talking so loudly in KFC as if the restaurant is a hawker centre………. Jeffery grabbing every thing edible at his sight, stuffing them into his mouth - even the chicken meat that was chewed and spit out by someone!!……. Wee Keen fighting with me at KFC as I confiscated his VCD, McD toys and purse….. coz he jumped over the McD counter to grab their toys!!!

Shopping with them was also very tiring, as Wee Keen had to be restrained from running off and buying the things that he wanted…… Luckily his purse was with me!!!! Hahahah!!! One thing good was he did listen to our instructions and did not create much trouble. Su Qin gave us a scare when we lost her………….. Kim had to go on an emergency search for her……. Well, five minutes later, she came walking towards me with a DVD that she had bought, not even aware of the hoohah happening becoz of her……

Before going back, I quickly dashed into Coffee Bean and bought a LARGE ice-blended Belgian Chocolate to reward myself!!!!!!

Well, tiring but this trip was really enjoyable……..

Oh yeah, I guess the happiest was Yean Fei and Yi Ming, coz I gave them the chance to pakto together for the whole day with Aunt Kim Han looking after them…… Imagine, these 2 lovebirds holding hands the whole day from the zoo to Jaya Jusco………… Hahaha!




A lesson from animals: which are we? the elephants and zebras which are always in a group? Or the emu and "donno wat type" of cow, which strays away from the group?

I was also very happy, coz :
- God answered our prayers and gave us such good weather and also took good care of us
- I got to know Wee Keen more and understand him
- I managed to shed off some grams of this body of mine by pushing Jun Sen and the wheelchair
- Yuan Kang learnt to mix in a group and behave normally
- I got to see how normal my JTC trainees are when they go out…….
- I got to see more of Wai Kit’s magic tricks on the bus!
- I had a nice chit chat with Aunt Kim Han and Saw Lee on the bus
- Aunt Kim Han told me that she wants to volunteer the whole day once a week, instead of just one hour……..
- dear Xin Er was with me
- Yean Fei and Yi Ming had such a sweet day together
- Yean Fei learnt to move around the bus without fearing that he will fall
- Tian Xin & Ting Chien were very well-behaved that day
- all staff were very united to make this trip a success
- of many many more things that happen on that day…………………………..

Kamsahamnida to all staff, volunteers, parents and the trainees!!!!
Thx Kim for organising this trip!!!

Countdown to Malacca Zoo!!

I'm going to Malacca Zoo!!!
Can't sleep, can't wait to hop into the bus with my JTC and DTC trainees........
Looking forward to the trip coz it will be fun with:

• Wai Kit and his interesting magic shows, forever making me puzzled on how his coin can end up in my tightly clenched hand? Waiting to see when he will make the coin turn up in my underwear....hahahah!!!
• 忠发 and his autistic actions.................... making people wondering whether he is a PPIA trainer or trainee.....................
• Kim and her loud booming voice................... waiting to see who will be the first one to "kena" from her in the zoo.................... our trainees or the monkeys???
• Xin Er "paktoing" with Jun Sen.................................. who knows after this trip, Jun Sen might be touched by her and might not want Huey Pin anymore........................ hahaha!!!!
• little tiny Zhi Ling pushing Soon Ang's wheelchair................................ in the end a miracle might happen, with Soon Ang pushing Zhi Ling in the wheelchair, with a monkey on her lap!!!
• Wee Keen going to meet his "family" in the zoo..................talking to them in his animal language................................. and scolding people with his "family members" name..............still waiting for him to scold Aunty Lian Neo.
• Me "paktoing" with Yuan Kang with so many 电灯泡 following after me................. Argh...............

6 hours countdown from now................................................. 5.59..5.58...5.57.....5.56....... Zzzzzzzz.......................

失望。。。。

有时你讲话可以很伤人。。。。。
不要以为你是这样想，别人就会如你想象般那样。。。。。
怀疑一个人的人格并没有错。。。。。。。但怀疑起一个不会对你撒谎的人的人格，就真的令我太失望。。。。。。
你的心里就是把这个人想成这样吗？
原来你就是用这样的眼光去看这个人： 一个不会对你撒谎的人。。。。。。

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你今天说一套，明天做一套。。。。。。
你后天又回去前一套，大后天又跳去另一套。。。。。
我越来越不知道你心里想什么了。。。。
原本的执着去哪了？
原本的热忱去哪了？
原本的目标去哪了？
原本的你去哪了？
为什么总觉得离你越来越遥远了？

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你又不知跑到哪了。。。。。
一阵子还很常的潜入我的生活。。。。
看到好的东西会通知我一声。。。。
听到好的歌会想要播放给我听。。。。
你那些抽象的讯息是有意思的吗？
你那些抽象的画面是有含义的吗？
我也被你弄乱了。。。。。。
就让我继续活在这抽象的世界吧。。。。。。

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World AIDS Day...............

World AIDS Day is coming soon...... 1st December of every year.

Lets wear the RED RIBBON to show our support for PLWHA (People Living With HIV / AIDS)!!!

More and more people are being infected with HIV / AIDS every minute of the day.

Yet, not many dare to come out and say "I HAVE HIV / AIDS"..........

Instead, saying "I have cancer.... I have tuberculosis......... I have diabetes........" is easier than confessing that one has the HIV virus or AIDS.

Why is that so?

This is because of the stigma and prejudice that one will face if they stand out and confess that they are a PLWHA (People Living with HIV / AIDS)..........

Imagine......

• people avoiding you
• people criticizing and scolding you
• people looking at you as if you are the virus itself
• spouse leaving you
• doctors and nurses handling you as if you are an "untouchable"
• dentists saying "NO" to you
• hawkers not letting you use their utensils
• your employer sacks you
• no one wants to eat at the same table with you
• no one is willing to hug you when you are sad
• no one is willing to shake your hands
• no one wants to swim in the same pool as you
• your lover not willing to walk down the aisle with you, the moment the truth is revealed
• no one willing to clean your body when you die
• and many many more even chilling situations..............................

PLWHA can be our spouse, children, parents, siblings, relatives, friends and others who are close to us......

It can also be ME!

Before we discriminate PLWHA, think first...... do we want all those things happening to us?

The answer is of course NO! So, why don't we treat them with respect and dignity?

HIV /AIDS might come to us one day too................ Remember, we might be faithful to our partner, but our partner might be the one transmitting the virus to us! We might think that the one night stand that we experienced before is just a single mistake and nothing will happen..... We might think that our lover / spouse will never be a victim of HIV / AIDS..... We might think that we won't be so unlucky......... We might become the next victim without us knowing! There is no certainty in this world today.

Therefore, lets change the perspective we view PLWHA........................ for who knows we might be one of them one day.........................

Lets embrace PLWHA around us with love and care, just like how we treat our own family members and friends...........

Get to know more about HIV / AIDS so that we have the right info about it, instead of misunderstanding it. This will open our eyes and help us to become a better person in this world...................

Below are some facts obtained from the Malaysian AIDS Council website..... which I hope will help change the perspective of YOU who reads my blog................

What is HIV?
Human Immunodeficiency Virus. It is a retrovirus that attacks the immune system.

• HIV only affects human beings.
• Its presence can be detected through an HIV antibody test.
• HIV is highly concentrated in blood, semen and vaginal fluid but is present in very low concentrations in saliva and tears.
• Outside the human body, the virus is weak.
• HIV is the virus that causes AIDS.

What is AIDS?
Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome.

Acquired = It is not inherited.

Immune Deficiency = a weakened immune system that is unable to resist oncoming diseases.

Syndrome = signs and symptoms of an illness.

AIDS is the condition whereby HIV has destroyed a person's immune system, such that it is unable to defend the body from opportunistic diseases.

How does HIV break down the immune system?
CD4 cells are a type of white blood cell.

Upon entering the human body, HIV will attack CD4 cells and destroy them. The viruses then use infected CD4 cells to produce more HIV viruses. These new viruses invade other CD4 cells, causing the body's immune system to slowly deteriorate. As a result, the body's immune system is weakened and cannot fight against oncoming infections.

You don't know who has HIV
Anyone can be infected with HIV. It is not who you are, but more so what you do that puts you at risk of an HIV infection. HIV carriers may look and feel healthy but at the same time, they are able to transmit the virus to others. It is not possible to identify an HIV-positive person based on how they look on the outside. Prevention is, by far, still the best method for avoiding HIV infection.

Is there a cure?
AIDS cannot be cured. Once you are infected with HIV, you will stay infected for the rest of your life.

There is a range of medications known as antiretroviral drugs that suppresses the virus's ability to replicate itself. As a result, there are less chances of HIV infecting other CD4 cells. These drugs, however, are not a cure for AIDS.

How is HIV transmitted?
3 main modes:

• Unprotected, penetrative sex with an infected person
• Exchange of infected blood, for example sharing infected needles and syringes, blood transfusion or organ transplant
• Mother to child transmission during pregnancy, delivery or breastfeeding, which presents a 30 percent risk but can be lowered to less than 10 percent with the use of a medication called AZT

How is HIV NOT transmitted?
Social contacts such as hugging
Sharing food and drinks
Studying or working together
Sharing public facilities such as public phones, swimming pools or public toilets
Sharing beds or home equipment
Mosquito bites

Jun Sen has a Blog!!!!

Our dear Tan Jun Sen has just started his blog. He enthusiastically wrote his first three entries and inserted that big head photo of his in his blog..........

A cerebral palsy boy, yet so normal in his thinking. Went to school for not even 1 year, but studied in PPIA for so many years...... Cannot read Chinese, but can read Malay and English..... Can't speak fluently, but when it comes to Hokkien, he's so damn fluent..... Can't walk by himself, but when we hold him, he can even run................!

Just to brag... I am his "sifu"........... So, gotta make sure he continues writing..........

To give him support, go to his blog and have a look at his very original language.......

http://jonsonppia.blogspot.com/

Do leave a comment or two there to give him your support. This boy will be so touched until tears come rolling down his cheeks. If you can't understand his language, then don't enter his world...... Go back and revise your English first.....If you understand, then congrats!!! Welcome to his world!!!!

Go, go, go Jun Sen!

PPIA Telematch Day.......

这一次的 Telematch Day 大家都带着满袋的礼物和饱饱的肚子回家。虽然只是一场小型活动，但大家都玩得非常开心。Kiwanis 也非常好的赞助我们的午餐。。。。。

Xiaodoudou's Spirit.........

Read a blog http://xiaodoudou.blogspot.com/, recommended by my dearest brother in his blog. It's about this cancer girl who was so optimistic, yet knew that she had no more than 2 years to live. Imagine getting this news:

Quoted from xiaodoudou's blog:

After the chemo, I went to see Dr See again. I needed to know where all these treatments are leading me to.
Me: What are the chances of my recovery?
Dr: Out of a hundred, about fifty will get to go into remission.
Me: Then how long does these fifty get to survive?
Dr: The cancer comes back after a few months after they go into remission, the survival span is around 1-2 years.
Me: That means I only have 1-2 years? I will not get to live past 30 years old? I'm only 25.
Dr: (Nods her head with tears in her eyes.)
Me: Then how will I die?
Dr: Most will eventually suffer from kidney failure from the fluid build-up then go into a coma and die.
Me: Even dialysis will not help?
Dr: (Nods her head with tears in her eyes.)

There was nothing I could ask anymore. All I could do was cry and that's what I do on and off since last night till now. My family is 100% supportive and Dear came over to lie beside me and watch me fall asleep before she went home. I am thankful for everything I have. However, the thought of having such a short time to live and probably having to tolerate chemo during long periods of whatever life I have just scares me so much. I thought the most beautiful part of my life just started, me and Dear finally managed to get together again. We have the financial ability to get a flat, live together and build a wonderful future, go travelling and see the world in each other's eyes. I wanted to take good care of my parents and give my mummy the best years an old lady can ever get. Now all these crumbles and seem so impossible.

Damn it...... the moment I start reading it, I started crying non-stop. What more, I read it from the end to the beginning. The crematorium comes first, the death, the sufferings, then only the beginning when she started her chemo treatment.........

Well, at least what she wished for in her life came true during her periods of suffering from cancer.

Quoted from xiaodoudou's blog:

I used to pray for weight loss, mummy to be gentle, papa to quit gambling, meimei to be sweet, a love whom I know is for sure, friends who stick by me and whom I can always count on. All these which once seemed almost impossible to realise altogether at once, came true. What more can a girl ask for?

After finishing, I thought to myself, if I am down with cancer, what will I do? Well, this is not something impossible, breast cancer runs in my family, and I have had a big lump removed before........ I have always been thinking of this possibility................. Who knows, I might be diagnosed tomoro to be having cancer...... maybe even last stage cancer..........

Well, if I really get cancer, I'm gotta to be more optimistic than this gal (say easy, do hard).

1. I won't go for chemo, and just live the remaining days of my life the way i want.

2. I wan to continue to work, just like usual, living normally, not letting the cancer dominate my life.

3. I wil stop all my part-time work and enjoy myself playing my fav. computer games, reading my fav. books, watching my fav. shows.................. every evening and night........

4. I wil eat, without bothering I will be fat or not.........regardless of the price.......regardless of the sugar level..........regardless of the cholesterol level................

5. I wil bring my mum travelling to places I hav wanted to go, but still haven't gone.....Club Med, Pulau Redang, Sabah, Sarawak, Bali, Korea..........(I'm not greedy.....I don't ask for too expensive or too far places.........only the realistic ones within my budget....)

6. Spend my mum's money shopping.... buying all the things i wan...........then tell her i will pay her back after I'm dead, thru my life insurance payout where my dearest mum is the beneficiary........... See, who says you can't benefit from your own life insurance?

7. I'm going to have Japanese food in my menu every day. Jus love it. Never got tired of eating salmon, sushi, udon, grilled eel, scallops, octopus, chawanmushi, soft shell crab and my beloved raw OYSTERS!!!!!

8. I'm going to continue write my blog and fill it with nice memories..................

9. I'm going to really start writing a book and get it published...............Who knows I may be famous after my death...............

10. I'm going to tel my family to remember donating my organs (whatever that are not affected by cancer cells to the people in this world who need it for their survival.....)

11. I'm going to write to 林宇中，张栋梁，窦智孔，品冠，潘玮柏 to visit me before I die........It's going to be a win-win situation: I get to see the real person, they get free publicity.............

12. I'm going to plan my own funeral, and make my family promise that they will follow it........ no funeral service, no burial - cremation only.

13. I'm going to sleep now....................coz no matter whether I'm going to live or die......sleep is still the most important thing in my life.................. Ciao!

祝你们生日快乐。。。。。

JunSen，我都还没开过生日 party, 你都已经在酒楼做大寿了！还请了这么多人。你要加油喔！快快自己走路，以后我就可以帮你找工作了。。。。这是我为你许下的生日许愿。。。

BoonChien，希望过了这生日，你会多懂事一些。。。

不要再自残自己了。。。

你虽然很聪明，但聪明有时会被聪明误。。。。。

YiMing，看到你开心，我也很开心。。。

不知为什么，就特别很疼你。。。。

希望明年的你不要那么神经兮兮的了。。。。

好好表现自己，让看不起你的人大跌眼镜。。。。。

YiCheng，你又大一岁了。。。。

固执的你，总是让妈妈很为难，所以送一首周董的歌给你。。。

听妈妈的话

别让她受伤

想快快长大

才能保护她

Beautiful Theng.......Beautiful Wedding

Felix & Fiona

Standing: Alice, Theng, MengMeng, SeeLing

Sitting: AiNgee, me, ShuEe, ShuEe's Sis


me & my good fren, Theng!

SuSan & Theng

Theng's Family..................................Theng & Us


Theng & Sis...................................Waiting


Ready...... and here he comes!


Together................................

I have been "lost" for a month...........

Too busy....... no time to think of writing blog.........

Well, but I'm happy to be busy this time, becoz I'm bz doing the work that I like.........

Anyway, it has been a month since Theng got married, and I haven't put up her wedding photos up here. So sorry, my dear fren......

Well, we got to know each other since Standard One, been good frens on and off til we finish Form 5.......... When we were in Form 4 & 5, thx to her my secondary school days are full of nice memories. A kind, nice and considerate fren. Til today, she has never failed to contact me whenever she's back in BP. Thx Theng.... and sorry too becoz I'm forever so selfish, not contacting anyone. That's how I kept losing contact with everyone. Well, thx to you, our friendship is stil intact.

I'm really happy for you that you have found the love of your life.......... I pray that your marriage will be a happy and blissful one. You deserve a nice husband, a nice career, a nice life...... as you are really such a nice person............. God bless you and Felix! Love you Theng!!