Saturday, February 20, 2010

放慢脚步何尝不是一件好事。。。。

你就别给自己太大的压力。。。。
慢慢往上爬有什么不好呢?
你只要耐心,努力,相信有一天你一定能闯出一番的成就。。。。。。。
有些事是不能急的。。。。。。
越急你就越看不到你想要的。。。。。
当你不把它看得太重时,有一天你会突然发现 “Ei,我怎么已经达到了。。。。。。”

放慢脚步何尝不是一件好事。。。。。。。。
你会看得更多,更远。。。。。。。。。。。。

一家人本来就应该是这样子。。。。

看到阿嬷开始笑,讲话,调皮的应嘴,觉得她一定会长命百岁。。。。
这阵子生病的阿嬷让我们一家人更加的团结。。。。。。
帮忙扶她去洗澡,上床,大小解,换尿布,吃东西。。。。。这一切都让我很佩服我的老妈子。。。。她每天哪来的力气和能耐,帮阿嬷做这些事情。。。。。

看到我老妈子无私的付出,让我更加肯定在以后的日子,不管老妈子出什么事,我都不会遗弃她,也不会把她丢到老人院。。。。。一家人本来就应该是这样子。。。。。有福同享,有难同挡。。。。

Friday, February 19, 2010

绑不住的野马。。。。

没可能的事情,我通常都很少去理会。。。。
就偏偏这件事不理他却让自己心不安。。。。
只要他得到他想要的东西,我也就满意了。。。
只要他攀得到他想要的高峰,我也就开心了。。。。
就算他离我越来越远。。。。我也无所谓了。。。。
因为这是他一路来在寻找的。。。。。。

曾经有人问过:野马是绑得住的吗?
我的答案是:绑得住,但那只马会非常的不快乐。。。。。

就因为这样,学会了不要对一只野马寄于任何希望。。。。。从远远看着,在该伸出援手的时候扶着一把,知道这只马快乐就好。。。。

Monday, January 25, 2010

5 Things to Learn from Caleb......

Went to night service. 3rd time after not having gone to church for 2 years……..A change of church…….

Today’s sermon is about Caleb……..

Numbers 13

30 Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, "We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it."
31 But the men who had gone up with him said, "We can't attack those people; they are stronger than we are." 32 And they spread among the Israelites a bad report about the land they had explored. They said, "The land we explored devours those living in it. All the people we saw there are of great size. 33 We saw the Nephilim there (the descendants of Anak come from the Nephilim). We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them."


Numbers 14

1 That night all the people of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. 2 All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, "If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this desert! 3 Why is the LORD bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn't it be better for us to go back to Egypt?" 4 And they said to each other, "We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt."
5 Then Moses and Aaron fell facedown in front of the whole Israelite assembly gathered there. 6 Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh, who were among those who had explored the land, tore their clothes 7 and said to the entire Israelite assembly, "The land we passed through and explored is exceedingly good. 8 If the LORD is pleased with us, he will lead us into that land, a land flowing with milk and honey, and will give it to us. 9 Only do not rebel against the LORD. And do not be afraid of the people of the land, because we will swallow them up. Their protection is gone, but the LORD is with us. Do not be afraid of them."
10 But the whole assembly talked about stoning them. Then the glory of the LORD appeared at the Tent of Meeting to all the Israelites. 11 The LORD said to Moses, "How long will these people treat me with contempt? How long will they refuse to believe in me, in spite of all the miraculous signs I have performed among them? 12 I will strike them down with a plague and destroy them, but I will make you into a nation greater and stronger than they."

There are a few things that we have to learn from Caleb…….

1. Speech – Our speech reflects our life, can build up someone and also can break someone.

Okie, gotta admit that in terms of speech, I still have lots to learn……. My %*@#&$% will still come out when my blood really boils….. I m still using kns, ls (better than saying out the real word…)…….. Can’t get rid of them…. Seems to b part of my life…………..


The breaking someone part…… well, those thou art holier people are the one that break people’s spirit the most…… Will always remember these few parts:

“So long still don wan to go to church ar? The devil is going to get u one of these days…..” – Who’s the devil now? The way this person talks seems to indicate that she’s the devil herself…..

“If you are not going to come, we will have to take out your name from the members list…” – Go ahead, as if this will make me listen to you thou art holier people…This kind of church I also don wan to b part of it……

2. Faith – Gotta have faith in God n trust him even when things look impossible…..

Well, for this, I really have to hand it to God…… He has never failed me………….really…. He really provides…… When my account is dropping at an alarming rate, he gave me back all my financial sources…… When I thought my life really sucks (with all the wrong choices and wrong people around me), when everything seems to be going downhill, when I feel my life is worth nothing…..He pulled me back and gave me back my confidence and hope in life……

3. Perception on Life – 2 different people might be seeing, hearing and experiencing the same things, yet their perception can be so totally different……………. The optimistic one will see it as an opportunity, while the pessimistic one will see it as an adversity…..

This is wat I’ve been working hard on….. and I find that it’s true….. the moment we change our perception, a lot of things change………

4. Capture opportunities

Thinking back, how many opportunities have I lost throughout these past few years…….. What if I…….? always pops up in my mind….The fact is I can’t turn back time now to take a different step…… So, the only thing that I can do now is to not let go of any opportunities that come knocking in my life………..

5. Courage - in living out our faith and showing our love to God……..

Sunday, January 17, 2010

2010 - Another new beginning......

After going through a bad patch in 2008, having a new beginning in 2009 by discarding all the trash of 2008, I am now stepping into 2010 with a renewed hope in everything......

All the bad things in my life has made me more mature, sensible and stronger.... My temper is still hot, yet the temperature has dropped...... I can still be silly at times, yet fast enough to withdraw my steps to avoid falling into another pitfall.... I am still a failure in certain aspects of my life, yet I do not let failure blind my sight to the successful things that I've achieved.

The ME now is thankful for whatever I have now.......

  • people in my life who have never forsaken me no matter what choices I make in my life journey.....they are always there when i am down, there when i want to share my joy....... and they are there to lift me up when i think that i will never be able to climb up again....
  • my full time job that makes me happy and useful in life, and my part-time job which keeps me stable financially....
  • I am still breathing....... which means all is not lost..........
  • I have a God who loves me and gives me chances in life again and again......

To have achieved a lot in life is one thing, to be contented is another thing.......
I may not have achieved a lot, I may not be fully contented, but I know my life story is still going on...... I hope that when the story ends one day, it will end on a beautiful note......

Sorry, my dear blog....

So sorry for abandoning you for so long......
For I've been focusing on Facebook, MSN, tuition, work and things so far have been quite smooth-sailing.....
So sorry........
I promise I will come as often as possible, for you are the one sticking with me through thick and thin.....

So sorry again, my dear blog....

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Funerals....

I can't go to funerals. Coming out of one, I tend to get very upset..... Especially if the deceased is someone young and nice, having a bright future ahead of him / her......

Following on, every meal that I take will make me guilty. Every fun that I have will make me feel even bad. Looking in the mirror every morning, the same question will keep circling in my head: Why am I still here? I am no better than a lot of people in this world. Why does God still keep me here on earth?

The good thing out of funerals are that I tend to push myself further. I tell myself that I can't just rest like I have plenty of years ahead of me. I need to get things going so that even when I'm gone one day, there will be no regrets. Besides that, I tell myself I need to start doing things that I've planned but never get them materialized so far.

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Looking at AM and CH at the funeral, my heart really goes out to them. 白发人送黑发人。。。I can't imagine how my mum will take it if the one lying in the coffin is me or my brother or my sister...... Hope this will never have to happen to her..........

To AM and CH, may God comfort you all during this time and heal your wounds as time passes.