jeslynsay............

陈威全。。赞！

2011-02-26T01:43:00.008+08:00

今天陈威全来到了BP参加一个 FGB 的布道会。知道了很兴奋，但却没得去，因为得带学生们去教会的团契和教补习。所以就拜托了Juliana 帮我索取他的签名。

七点时，接到了 Juliana 的电话说，陈威全已经到了，叫我在去补习之前，可以带着CD 过去见见他，向他索取签名。所以我就跟伟盛（我的学生）说：：“你每次在我车上听的那首歌 - ‘再见单身’ 的歌手来到 BP 了。你想去团契之前见见他吗？”

伟盛双眼发亮，不敢相信的看着我，马上点头说要！所以我立刻回家拿 CD。但不知怎么的，就是找不到 CD 的盒子。找了十五分钟，决定放弃了，所以就告诉伟盛说：“算了，我们还是不去了，现在时间已经不够了。你还是直接去团契吧。我也得去教补习了。”

到了 T 路口的时候，左边是往 Lian Hoe Plaza，右边是往教会去。看了看他失望的脸，最后还是心软的开口说：“好吧。我现在只剩有十分钟。到了那边，我们用冲的吧。应该赶得及和陈威全拍照。”

那双眼睛立刻发亮了，甚至还比之前更亮。一到了那边，我们俩还真的是用冲和奔的。到了四楼，才发现陈威全已经在台上练习着。Juliana 说：“怎么不早一点到？”

没办法了，总不能叫陈威全特地下来和伟盛拍照。所以就把相机交给伟盛，叫他去台前拍拍几张他偶像的照片。突然间，陈威全下台了，应该是为了在表演之前把音响调好。那一刻，我可顾不了面子了，就很厚脸皮的推伟盛向前，问了陈威全：“请问你可以和我的学生排张照吗？”

陈威全好像有一点被吓到，我也觉得自己这样做有一点冒昧。但他很快的就答应了。我们的陈伟盛终于和陈威全一起拍到照了！我也近距离的看到陈威全了！

你们看，伟盛是多么的开心！

也许对很多人来说，这一张照片是一张很普通的照片。但伟盛并不是一般的少年。他是一名发展迟缓的少年。从没有自信，不敢开口说话和低着头走路的他，到终于肯抬起头走路和开口的他，这个过程并不简单。这一次可是他第一次和一位他喜爱的歌手合照，所以出到停车场时，他很开心的和我 ‘high five ’了，而且还面带着愉快的笑容和步伐走进了教会。

团契过后，伟盛看到我来时，还很急着的要我把照片拿出来给他的朋友看。而且还很骄傲的指着照片里的陈威全。我们还在那里唱了一小段的 ‘再见单身’。真的看得出他非常非常的开心。

陈威全，谢谢你，不介意我们打扰你，也非常愿意和伟盛拍照。你的一个简单的举动可是感动了我们。。。。也让他乐翻了。。。。。。愿上帝祝福你。。。。

Fun! Food! Fun! Food! in SP & PJ.....

2011-01-01T10:43:00.020+08:00

Before going up to Kedah, San Yi & Ah Tio brought us to have dinner at Room Eighteen in Tropicana City Mall. I have seen this restaurant many times, but never have the interest to step in as I'm really not interested in Chinese food.

But, I guess I have to change my preference a bit coz some of the dishes there were mouth watering!!!

Never have I tasted such crispy and fragrant fried lotus root. Yummy!

The 'sio bak' is the nicest I've ever tasted. Crispy at the top, tender and chewy at the bottom.....

Thank you San Yi & Ah Tio!

Then, thx to our dear Si Yi, we got to eat ROYCE chocolate for dessert...... Wow! The choco just practically melts in our mouths!! And it's RM45 per box of 20 little pieces..... But, it's worth every cent of it........

Picture courtesy of: http://sparklette.net/food/royce-chocolate/

The next morning with my eyes half-open (I slept for only 15 minutes that night), we went straight to LCCT to catch our plane to Alor Setar for dear Lyn's wedding......

Both Joyce & me ready to set off.......

The wedding photos are still with Alvin, so I can only blog about them later on when I get my hands on those photos.

And the resort we stayed in..........CINTA SAYANG RESORT....... I will be blogging about it later on too..... 1 full page dedicated to them for their TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE & INCORRIGIBLE service which makes them look like a VEGETABLE!

After the wedding, Lyn and Heng brought us to this stall near the Sungai Petani bus station where I managed to taste the best peanut drink ever...... Til now, I can still imagine the smell, taste and feeling of this drink lingering in my mouth......

The stall doesn't look appealing, right? But the drink.........

is like HEAVEN! If not for dinner later on, I would have gulped down 3 cups of this........

I also took a bowl of assam laksa as my uni friends from Kedah were always boasting about how good their assam laksa is, compared to those out of Kedah. And i have to say they are right, because the soup is a bit different and tastes nicer than those that I've tasted before in KL. But....... the noodles seem to lack something....... The noodles are more like the Laksa Johor noodles, while I prefer the springy type which tastes more like udon.......

At night, Heng's family brought us to this place which was like paradise hidden in the middle of nowhere ~ Mae Salong.

I'm not able to blog about the food there, coz once again the photos are still with Alvin..... When I get the photos, I will blog about the food, which I can tell you now: They are 5 star food, except for the fried chicken, which is a bit too tough for me to devour........ And yeah, I was also busy helping to babysit Hao Xuan ~ Heng's nephew...... He's extremely adorable!!!

He was a bit apprehensive at first.......

Then....... he goes like that!!!! Smiling & laughing all the time!! Oh.... I miss him so much!!

Back to PJ, it's all about eating again.....& family bonding time...... With my Ah Tio, it's definitely Chinese food again.... (both my Ah Tios seem to just like Chinese food only)......

They are all Chinese food fans........

Well, I'm liking Chinese food more and more with this dish....... Cheese Prawn.......... at Long Feng Chinese Restaurant in Sea Park...

And I had a wonderful time with my 'bao bei's whom I've not seen for a long time..........

Rui Chen is so tall now!! I spent the most time with him when I stayed in PJ for 3 years and he's like me...... we are fans of horror stories!!! So, for his Christmas present, I got him 2 horror story books........ And I'm so proud that he is also the school's representative in Olympiad Maths! 加油Chen!!

Next is Rui Syuen....... the princess of the family.............. My mum loves her so much that whenever I turned my head, I kept seeing her placing food into her plate....... (I'm jealous...) She's so much more obedient now compared to the last time I saw her...... And I'm really impressed that she was gracious enough to let her younger brother have her Christmas present & in the end I ended up giving her 2 presents instead of 1..... 加油 Syuen!

And now is my latest 'bao bei' ~ Chua Rui Siang!!!!

OMG..... he really looks like LEE HOM!! & I really love him so much!!!!! He's so obedient and adorable!! And his favourite phrase is "很贵耶!"

My Mum: 让我看一下这漫画的价钱...... RM11.90 啊"
(Let me see the price of this comic.... It's RM11.90. )

Rui Siang: 很贵耶！
(It's so expensive!)
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Me: 这些兔子好可爱喔！
(These rabbits are so cute!)

Rui Siang: 表姨，为什么你不要买兔子呢？
（Biao Yi, how come you don't want to buy that rabbit?)

Me: ...........................

Rui Siang: 很贵耶！
(It's so expensive!)

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He even came out with a very tickling question?

(Pointing to the sewing machine, he asked my mum: "为什么这个针车没有轮的？"

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The youngest is Rui Feng....... 1st time seeing him.... next to his dad.......... Not much time to bond with him..... coz he did not want to hirau me...... :( He was so busy with his own activities........

Next day, er jie brought us to Subway and I had a BMT........ Oh... why can't someone open a Subway in Batu Pahat? I can eat those sandwiches for lunch every day........!

Picture courtesy of:http://foodie.leojalwa.info/?action=menu&id=&restId=18&locid=1

Then we went 'jalan jalan' with those little ones.............

This one little smart girl, Sher Lyn is my er jie's daughter..........
She was so interested in our family tree that she wanted me to explain the whole tree to her, and surprisingly, she managed to get all the facts in her head after I explained to her for half an hour............. She's definitely a future A student in History.......

These little ones were real real happy on that day!!

And of course I won't miss the chance of going into Borders to get my books during its year end sale......... Again, how come there's no Borders in Batu Pahat? Ai.... frankly speaking, if not for the traffic jams, I would have chosen to stay on in PJ/KL......

Then, we went to the place that the little ones had been looking forward to..... I SCREAM!!!
Yes, it's....... ICE CREAM! Gosh! I was excited too!!

This Black Sesame Ice Cream is a must try!

Then, we also got ermm.... i forgot the name..... it's something like 'Ice Scream on the Rock?? or on the wall??'... Forget it....... the most important thing is that it's YUMMY!!!!

VOILA!!! It's ready for consumption!!

The little ones got theirs too!! See their faces of satisfaction?

Conclusion: FUN!!!

Hi Melaka........ I'm Back After So Long.........

2011-01-01T00:15:00.016+08:00

It has been a long time since I stepped into Melaka. If not for the Robert Deller training, I guess I won't even step there even though it's less than 2 hours drive away from Batu Pahat.

Finding my way through Melaka, I seemed more like a novice, navigating my way using the GPS. It's hard to believe that a few years ago, I was an expert of the roads in Melaka. Yet now, with the help of GPS, I still had to struggle to remember all those supposed to be familiar roads.

Well, in the end, with the help of the GPS, I still managed to check in into Avillion Legacy Hotel....... nice hotel......

Here, I'm not going to talk about my 3-day training because it's going to be tiring enough to have to do a report for the management and I'm really kind of pissed off !!! because the photos I took with Mr. Robert Deller during the course are missing from my camera!!! Uhuhuhuhu......

Never mind, so lets go straight to what happened after the course.........

Iris and I went simply driving around and we happened to see a big JUSCO building waving to us...... So, we stopped and went inside. To our amazement, we saw the beautiful Christmas decorations and we were like WOW~! Many people were taking photos there and of course we definitely would not have just gone off without taking any photos........

Biggest Snowman from Recyclable Bottles - Malaysia Book of Records

After that, we went to Portuguese Settlement as I wanted to go and try the famous mango juice there and also the delicious seafood...... The last time I went there was with Bernard and his friend......... If my memory is still intact, I remember the mango juice stall was not open and all the food stalls were like packed to the brim....... and so in the end, we had to give up and go somewhere else....... This time however, by hook or by crook I swore to myself that I MUST drink the mango juice and eat the crabs there..........

TENG TENG TENG TENG!!!

It was OPEN!!! & 3 more cups were left!!!! LAST 3!!!!! Without hesitation, we 'sapu' everything and was like Phew~ if we were later by another one minute, everything would be gone!

After tasting it, Iris was hooked to it and kept saying how nice it was! By the look of our faces, you should know how nice and refreshing it was!!! SATISFIED!

Then, we were wondering which stall should we try out? We couldn't make up our mind as I remembered someone telling me that it's stall No. 1, or maybe it's 7 or maybe it's 10?? Okay, I gave up and I asked the mango juice seller. She told us that every stall was nice and there was no clear cut answer from her......... ?? In the end, after some persuasion, she told us to try Stall No. 10.

Well, it was not a hoax, the black pepper crab which was DRY was absolutely MARVELLICIOUS!!!!

So was the butter garlic scallop!!

Just one look at our table and you should know how nice they were..........

The next day, together with Yu Wei and Huey Pin, we went to Aunty Lee (recommended by dear Mr. Ang - my former lecturer + good friend) to taste the nyonya food there......

Again, we were really damn lucky..... Another 10 minutes, the restaurant would have been full!! But, we were made to wait for an agonizing 1 hour before we could really taste the food! Business was so good that we had to wait for 1/2 hour before our drinks arrived.........

When the food came to our table, we were all like hungry wolves, gulping down our food like there was no tomorrow.............

Cencalok Omelette

Fried Tauge

Fried Squid

Sambal Terung

Ayam Pongteh

After lunch, Iris and I went jalan-jalan around Jonker Street and the other streets around it.

Although I have been to Melaka so many times, this was the first time I went into Cheng Hoon Teng temple to have a real look. Didn't really take many photos as there was quite a number of people worshiping there and it seemed a bit rude for me to keep snapping away........

While I was walking, this tiger statue gave me a shock and I really jumped one step back upon seeing it. Phew~~~

Seemed like a 'museum' house to me and I thought it was an exhibit...... Til I peeped through the window and realized that there were people watching TV and chit-chatting in it........ It's a real house after all...... Hahaha!

Another one that made it into the Malaysia Book of Records besides the Snowman in Jusco......... Was tempted to take a small bit and try it........ when I realized......... the numbers 2004!!! Now, I'm a bit confused..... How come there's the date there 2010, yet awarded in 2004?? Better don't try it...... I really don't want to get diarrhea.

These 'bread' and 'cakes' in Jonker Street never fail to amaze me every time i see them. Especially the bread, you just feel like sinking your mouth into them!!

Was tricked into taking this photo by Iris Koh. Well, it turned out to be quite nice........ Tempted to buy the hat, but rationale rules over heart! After taking this photo, Iris in a 'rogue' way refused to pose and let me take a photo of her...... By the way, someone was jealous of my 'lovely pose'..........

- Ber nard L ieu fuyohhhh ada gaya ehh. model mana ini ?
  50 minutes ago ·
- Jeslyn Chan eh... eh.... lisa s u tak kenal... aduh!
  47 minutes ago ·
- Bernard Lieu pui pui pui
  46 minutes ago ·
- Jeslyn Chan sibuk u.... msn sana belum answer my question, terus datang sini n pui me..... blah u!
  45 minutes ago ·
- Bernard Lieu ahahhaha amoi blahhhhhhh
  42 minutes ago ·
- Jeslyn Chan isshhh.... tak senang tengok orang cantik dan bergaya....... memang blah...
  40 minutes ago ·

After finishing walking around Jonker Street, we were picked up by Mr. Ang, who brought us to try out this coconut milk shake!! Frankly speaking, I really hate coconut, but this coconut milk shake somewhere in Klebang just made my taste buds say YES! to it! Too bad, my camera went gaga at this time and I was not able to snap a picture of it. Therefore, I googled around and I managed to 'borrow' this picture from www.thekenchia.com. The ice cream on top made it even more perfect!

Picture courtesy of: http://www.thekenchia.com/

Following that, Mr. Ang brought us makan-makan at a food court where we got to eat for FREE, (thx to you Mr Ang) and chat at the same time. After saying goodbye to him, we went shopping some more at Pahlawan, bought the marvellicious mango juice (2 cups each) at Portuguese Settlement AGAIN!, all because Iris was begging me like mad......... and set off home back to Batu Pahat.

Overall, it was fun because I had Iris (who is as sampat as me), accommodation was free, got to taste nice nice food and the weather was damn good! Besides, I got to meet Mr. Ang again!! and also Clarissa & Pauline! Oh yeah, not forgetting, I did not get lost, thanks to my GPS that spoke Afrikana on that day.........

National Day Family Gathering............

2010-09-04T18:59:00.010+08:00

Family dinner gathering is always nice when..........

All are present and back at home....................

Full attendance...... everyone is back!

Me & my beloved sister................

Lyn & Heng

Hon Wee & Jing Xin

My beloved Liu Yi (on the right)

The table is full of familiar voices chattering and laughing together............. And this can only be achieved if the ratio of women outnumber the men...... hahahaha!

In our family, the ladies rule......... yeah!

Only 2 men out of so many people..... Hehe......

The Empress & The Empress Dowager....... with the flag some more at the back....

二格格......

Heng comes out with his funny poses..........

Act cool........

Our dear Ah Ma is happy and not grumpy..........

See.... how happy our Ah Ma is.........

Thanks to our dear Prime Minister Najib Abdul Razak, we the young ones got the chance to buka puasa at Landmark Hotel for free! Yippee! The Empress of our family - Mdm Lee used her RM500 Aidilfitri gift to belanja us to this meal...... Too bad, we did not eat that much...... so we only sapu her off around RM300......

Meanwhile. for the food...... the ratings are as below........

***** means excellent, fit for a king.......
**** means good.......
*** means so so, ok lar, boleh tahan lar......
** means not that nice, eat once ok lar, but not for the second time......
* means horrible, not fit for a human......

Tako Wasabi ***** I love this! My all time favourite!

Shake Shashimi **** Yummy yummy!

Ajitsuke Idako **** Whoopi delicious!

Unagi Kabayaki ***** Super duper delicious!

Agedashi Tofu *** Not really into tofu, it's more for my Ah Ma.......

Fried Hotate ** The coating is too thick...... Looks nice, but quite disappointing after taking a bite.....

Egg Mayo & Tuna Mayo Inari **** All of us love these!

Chawanmushi *** A bit bland.......

Ebi Tempura *** Ok, but not that really special.........

Yasai Tempura *** Like the ebi tempura, it's plain ordinary........

Tako Yaki *** The filling is nice...... but like the fried hotate, the coating is a bit too thick.......

Ika Ter / Shioyaki *** The taste is nice, but the cuttlefish is a bit too tough for our teeth......

Tamago Yaki ***** It's superb! The taste, the smell, the texture...... perfect!

Landmark Maki ***** Another of our all time favourite!

Thank you, Gavin & YeanFei.......... 我真的很感动.........

2010-08-16T19:31:00.009+08:00

Having gone through so many Teachers' Day and birthdays throughout my teaching career, it is normal for us in PPIA to end up 'empty-handed' on both these days. Some parents are real nice, really, coz they take the effort to celebrate for us or give us some presents on those days. But to harap our students to do something will be like waiting for the moon to fall from the sky.

We can't possibly be teaching our students to give us things on these days, rite? Sounds like a bit tebal muka. I can't possibly open my mouth and say:".......... tomorrow is Teachers' Day yar.... remember to buy something for me yar......" funny, rite?

Well, it's not that I am greedy - hoping to get something ..... Parents from time to time do give us things and I'm really grateful for that........ BUT, I WANT MY STUDENTS TO DO IT!!! It's the knowledge that my students 会做人 and my work is being appreciated by my students that make me wait and hope that my students will do something on those 2 days (without prompting by my colleagues, and prompting by their parents is also a no, no！).

During EIP time, it's quite impossible to wait for such a day coz they are still small! But in JTC, something should happen, rite? They are young adults already! They can't be expecting to receive all the time....... they should learn to give! We have been teaching them how to be nice to people and appreciate what people have done for them....... Practically, they should show it out in real life happenings!!

Okie, i should be grateful that among the 14 of them, there are at least 2 who knows how to 做人 (by themselves) ...... who never forget us, teachers on both these days........

Yean Fei, thx for ur keropok!!!

Thx Gavin.......! Your cake is the nicest I've ever tasted and your notes of wishes and appreciation are always an encouragement to us, teachers!

To: Alan @ Clift @ Huat

2010-08-01T22:49:00.007+08:00

至给：我工作时的最佳拍档，永远不认自己超过 30 岁的 Alan 大哥，

不知不觉和你在 JTC 合作也已经有超过一年半的时间。。。。
在一起的时间有酸甜苦辣，但总结来说是很快乐的。。。。
每天的我开口闭口嚷着说“万一我走了。。。你要记得。。。”
结果是你先离开。。。。
我真的很舍不得。。。。

没把你留下，反而鼓励你离开是以朋友的身份说的。。。。
以同事的身份其实是不想你离开的。。。。三个字：舍不得。。。。
但前程比较重要嘛。。。。。。
所以还是鼓励你走。。。。。。。

想到接下来工作时没有你的日子，我就要掉泪了。。。。
谢谢你这接近两年的时间一直协助我。。。。
开始一起奋斗从零把 JTC 建起。。。。。
一起面对所有的困难和障碍。。。。
一起笑，一起骂，一起疯，一起发脾气，只差没有一起哭。。。。
一起在晚上喝茶时发泄工作时的不满。。。。。

趁我不在的时候，把 JTC 管理的很好。。。。。。
让我无忧无虑的在外面跑。。。。
趁我忙的时候，你一人扛起了两人的工作。。。。
让我能够在电脑面前消失在打字的世界。。。。。

和我合作并不是一件简单的事。。。。。
脾气不好又臭的我，你都能忍下了。。。。。
相信将来你在外面遇到的风雨，你肯定能够忍受。。。。。

在外面你要加油喔！
我衷心地祝福你成功！
Kambate！！
& Thank you for everything that you have done for JTC & me...............

Near Death Experience........ Relived Again

2010-06-05T01:16:00.003+08:00

The girl who died being burnt alive in her MYvi........has a great impact on me.......

It reminds me of my own experience when I was in my first year of uni........ That sense of helplessness, knowing that you might die in a ball of fire, with people surrounding you and yet no one dares or knows how to help you.

It is really due to the grace of God that I'm still alive today.......

At that time, I was on a taxi going back to KL when the accident happened in the dark at 6:30 a.m in the morning...... It knocked into a tractor which had no lights on and started spinning non-stop on the road..... We were all screaming without knowing what had happened as it was so dark and there were no street lights on that stretch of road. When it stopped, everyone began dashing out of the vehicle, except for me......because my legs were pinned due to the impact of the crash on my side. I could see smoke billowing from the engine and I could hear someone yelling, "Quick...... get away from the car as soon as possible......" I struggled to free myself, but to no avail. I was in a state of panic which made me 'disabled' at that moment, not even having the strength to shout......In my heart, I was crying out to God:"Please save me..... I don't want to die in this way......" I turned my head, trying to see where the rest were. As the sun began to rise, I could see they were all a safe distance away from the taxi which made me even scared.......Smoke was still coming out from the engine and in my heart, I was thinking: I'm dead meat this time.... barbecued style......

Yet I thank God, nothing happened and when the taxi driver and some passers-by were sure that it was safe, they came back to me and helped to pull me out from the wreckage. At that time, I pulled and tugged at my legs so hard that I thought it was going to break....... I remembered telling those people: 'Even if my legs are broken or have to be amputated, you all have to get me out from here....... In the end, I managed to free myself with their help and ended up sobbing like a baby at the side of the road........

Therefore, when I read the news about how this girl died, it affected me so much that I couldn't sleep throughout the night..... Imagine her fear before dying and the feelings of anguish and helplessness even though there were so many passers-by who stopped by trying to help. It pains my heart and the pain is indescribable.......

R.I.P to this girl..........though I might not know who you are........

Addicted to.................

2010-04-17T10:42:00.004+08:00

Seem to be addicted to FB.........too many interesting videos n news n gossip there tempting me to log in every day.

Seem to be addicted to cooking n baking...........with new recipes spinning in my mind every day..........

Seem to be addicted to this person................craving for this person's phone call, wanting to know how everything's going on............

Seem to be addicted to the fishball mihun in Xinpark...........wanting to eat it every day..........

Seem to be addicted to the show 妇产科的女医生。。。。。wanting to watch it every night.........

Seem to be addicted to losing weight............. trying hard to cut down on the kilos.....................

Seem to be addicted to $$$$$............... coz i'v been trying hard not to cancel tuitions, not like last year when i was eager to have them cancelled...............

Seem to be addicted to bus station....................coz i love the drinks n food there............

Seem to be addicted to PPIA..................coz no matter how i still can't bring myself to leave that place.......

Seem to be addicted to Chinese Christian songs................ coz they r really real nicer than the English ones...........

Seem to be addicted to my best fren.................. coz i have to meet her up at least 3-4 times a week, which if not wil make me feel uneasy.........

Seem to be addicted to earrings................. coz i just can't resist buying them whenever i see them.....

Seem to be addicted to.......................... the list goes on.........................................................

放慢脚步何尝不是一件好事。。。。

2010-02-20T05:33:00.002+08:00

你就别给自己太大的压力。。。。
慢慢往上爬有什么不好呢？
你只要耐心，努力，相信有一天你一定能闯出一番的成就。。。。。。。
有些事是不能急的。。。。。。
越急你就越看不到你想要的。。。。。
当你不把它看得太重时，有一天你会突然发现 “Ei，我怎么已经达到了。。。。。。”

放慢脚步何尝不是一件好事。。。。。。。。
你会看得更多，更远。。。。。。。。。。。。

一家人本来就应该是这样子。。。。

2010-02-20T05:24:00.003+08:00

看到阿嬷开始笑，讲话，调皮的应嘴，觉得她一定会长命百岁。。。。
这阵子生病的阿嬷让我们一家人更加的团结。。。。。。
帮忙扶她去洗澡，上床，大小解，换尿布，吃东西。。。。。这一切都让我很佩服我的老妈子。。。。她每天哪来的力气和能耐，帮阿嬷做这些事情。。。。。

看到我老妈子无私的付出，让我更加肯定在以后的日子，不管老妈子出什么事，我都不会遗弃她，也不会把她丢到老人院。。。。。一家人本来就应该是这样子。。。。。有福同享，有难同挡。。。。

绑不住的野马。。。。

2010-02-19T17:58:00.003+08:00

没可能的事情，我通常都很少去理会。。。。
就偏偏这件事不理他却让自己心不安。。。。
只要他得到他想要的东西，我也就满意了。。。
只要他攀得到他想要的高峰，我也就开心了。。。。
就算他离我越来越远。。。。我也无所谓了。。。。
因为这是他一路来在寻找的。。。。。。

曾经有人问过：野马是绑得住的吗？
我的答案是：绑得住，但那只马会非常的不快乐。。。。。

就因为这样，学会了不要对一只野马寄于任何希望。。。。。从远远看着，在该伸出援手的时候扶着一把，知道这只马快乐就好。。。。

5 Things to Learn from Caleb......

2010-01-25T01:27:00.002+08:00

Went to night service. 3rd time after not having gone to church for 2 years……..A change of church…….

Today’s sermon is about Caleb……..

Numbers 13

30 Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, "We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it."
31 But the men who had gone up with him said, "We can't attack those people; they are stronger than we are." 32 And they spread among the Israelites a bad report about the land they had explored. They said, "The land we explored devours those living in it. All the people we saw there are of great size. 33 We saw the Nephilim there (the descendants of Anak come from the Nephilim). We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them."

Numbers 14

1 That night all the people of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. 2 All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, "If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this desert! 3 Why is the LORD bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn't it be better for us to go back to Egypt?" 4 And they said to each other, "We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt."
5 Then Moses and Aaron fell facedown in front of the whole Israelite assembly gathered there. 6 Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh, who were among those who had explored the land, tore their clothes 7 and said to the entire Israelite assembly, "The land we passed through and explored is exceedingly good. 8 If the LORD is pleased with us, he will lead us into that land, a land flowing with milk and honey, and will give it to us. 9 Only do not rebel against the LORD. And do not be afraid of the people of the land, because we will swallow them up. Their protection is gone, but the LORD is with us. Do not be afraid of them."
10 But the whole assembly talked about stoning them. Then the glory of the LORD appeared at the Tent of Meeting to all the Israelites. 11 The LORD said to Moses, "How long will these people treat me with contempt? How long will they refuse to believe in me, in spite of all the miraculous signs I have performed among them? 12 I will strike them down with a plague and destroy them, but I will make you into a nation greater and stronger than they."

There are a few things that we have to learn from Caleb…….

1. Speech – Our speech reflects our life, can build up someone and also can break someone.

Okie, gotta admit that in terms of speech, I still have lots to learn……. My %*@#&$% will still come out when my blood really boils….. I m still using kns, ls (better than saying out the real word…)…….. Can’t get rid of them…. Seems to b part of my life…………..

The breaking someone part…… well, those thou art holier people are the one that break people’s spirit the most…… Will always remember these few parts:

“So long still don wan to go to church ar? The devil is going to get u one of these days…..” – Who’s the devil now? The way this person talks seems to indicate that she’s the devil herself…..

“If you are not going to come, we will have to take out your name from the members list…” – Go ahead, as if this will make me listen to you thou art holier people…This kind of church I also don wan to b part of it……

2. Faith – Gotta have faith in God n trust him even when things look impossible…..

Well, for this, I really have to hand it to God…… He has never failed me………….really…. He really provides…… When my account is dropping at an alarming rate, he gave me back all my financial sources…… When I thought my life really sucks (with all the wrong choices and wrong people around me), when everything seems to be going downhill, when I feel my life is worth nothing…..He pulled me back and gave me back my confidence and hope in life……

3. Perception on Life – 2 different people might be seeing, hearing and experiencing the same things, yet their perception can be so totally different……………. The optimistic one will see it as an opportunity, while the pessimistic one will see it as an adversity…..

This is wat I’ve been working hard on….. and I find that it’s true….. the moment we change our perception, a lot of things change………

4. Capture opportunities

Thinking back, how many opportunities have I lost throughout these past few years…….. What if I…….? always pops up in my mind….The fact is I can’t turn back time now to take a different step…… So, the only thing that I can do now is to not let go of any opportunities that come knocking in my life………..

5. Courage - in living out our faith and showing our love to God……..

2010 - Another new beginning......

2010-01-17T15:13:00.003+08:00

After going through a bad patch in 2008, having a new beginning in 2009 by discarding all the trash of 2008, I am now stepping into 2010 with a renewed hope in everything......

All the bad things in my life has made me more mature, sensible and stronger.... My temper is still hot, yet the temperature has dropped...... I can still be silly at times, yet fast enough to withdraw my steps to avoid falling into another pitfall.... I am still a failure in certain aspects of my life, yet I do not let failure blind my sight to the successful things that I've achieved.

The ME now is thankful for whatever I have now.......

people in my life who have never forsaken me no matter what choices I make in my life journey.....they are always there when i am down, there when i want to share my joy....... and they are there to lift me up when i think that i will never be able to climb up again....

my full time job that makes me happy and useful in life, and my part-time job which keeps me stable financially....

I am still breathing....... which means all is not lost..........

I have a God who loves me and gives me chances in life again and again......

To have achieved a lot in life is one thing, to be contented is another thing.......
I may not have achieved a lot, I may not be fully contented, but I know my life story is still going on...... I hope that when the story ends one day, it will end on a beautiful note......

Sorry, my dear blog....

2010-01-17T15:09:00.002+08:00

So sorry for abandoning you for so long......
For I've been focusing on Facebook, MSN, tuition, work and things so far have been quite smooth-sailing.....
So sorry........
I promise I will come as often as possible, for you are the one sticking with me through thick and thin.....

So sorry again, my dear blog....

Funerals....

2009-10-17T23:19:00.007+08:00

I can't go to funerals. Coming out of one, I tend to get very upset..... Especially if the deceased is someone young and nice, having a bright future ahead of him / her......

Following on, every meal that I take will make me guilty. Every fun that I have will make me feel even bad. Looking in the mirror every morning, the same question will keep circling in my head: Why am I still here? I am no better than a lot of people in this world. Why does God still keep me here on earth?

The good thing out of funerals are that I tend to push myself further. I tell myself that I can't just rest like I have plenty of years ahead of me. I need to get things going so that even when I'm gone one day, there will be no regrets. Besides that, I tell myself I need to start doing things that I've planned but never get them materialized so far.

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Looking at AM and CH at the funeral, my heart really goes out to them. 白发人送黑发人。。。I can't imagine how my mum will take it if the one lying in the coffin is me or my brother or my sister...... Hope this will never have to happen to her..........

To AM and CH, may God comfort you all during this time and heal your wounds as time passes.

Going back to 'Masyarakat Jahiliah'........

2009-10-16T22:46:00.003+08:00

Another life gone due to those stupid idiotic snatch thieves. A happy go lucky young guy, planning to get married next year, lost his life while chasing after a snatch thief who took away with his laptop while he was working on it. Two of that guy's accomplices stabbed him a few times on his side, and it happened that they stabbed into his aorta, that caused him to die.

The government should impose life imprisonment (I'm not a supporter of the death penalty) for those snatch thieves that cause people to die. These cold-blooded animals are inhumane and do not know the value of life. Isn't it ridiculous that nowadays our lives are not even worth the price of a laptop or maybe even a bag.

It has always been said that our lives depend on God. However, nowadays, our lives depend on heartless human beings. If they decide to just snatch away our items and just run off, we are considered lucky. If they decide to give you just a punch on the head, you are considered fortunate.

I shudder to think what would have happened to me if I had decided to give chase to the snatch thief that took away with my bag (full of valuable things and RM500 cash) during my uni days... Anyway, I should be thankful to the thief that he cut off my bag strap and not my hand. I should be grateful that he did not push me into the drain that I was standing next to which was 5 metres deep. I should 'bersyukur' coz he was quick and professional enough to snatch away my bag without me feeling it. Shouldn't I????

What kind of world is this today? I really feel that we the human race are moving backwards towards the 'masyarakat jahiliah' that we learnt in our form 4 history book.

Ai.......

RIP Swee Leong

Just the thing that I need..........

2009-09-21T02:56:00.003+08:00

Just a hint is
what I hope
yet the eyes
never blink
nose and ears
never quiver
lips never part

An assurance
is what I need
yet
the hands
do
not reach out
STOP
the feet
continues
their
own journey
throwing
me
abandoning
me
PLEASE
leaving
me behind
WAIT
struggling
for
stability

An answer
is what I need
yet
silence
takes over
dusk and dawn
stillness
still
till
ill
i
.
.
.
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SLE..... took her away.....

2009-09-21T02:30:00.007+08:00

Another death.....

This time a uni fren of mine.....SLE

There are another 2 more gals I know out there who have this SLE too.... However, I'm glad for them that they are living life ok.

For those who do not know what is SLE, this is it:

SLE (systemic lupus erythomatesus)

Taken from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Systemic_lupus_erythematosus. If you want to know even more, go to this website.

Sample pict: Typical butterfly like rash over the cheeks in SLE patients

Systemic lupus erythematosus is a chronic autoimmune connective tissue disease that can affect any part of the body. As occurs in other autoimmune diseases, the immune system attacks the body’s cells and tissue, resulting in inflammation and tissue damage.

SLE most often harms the heart, joints, skin, lungs, blood vessels, liver, kidneys, and nervous system. The course of the disease is unpredictable, with periods of illness (called flares) alternating with remissions. The disease occurs nine times more often in women than in men, especially between the ages of 15 and 50, and is more common in those of non-European descent.

SLE is treatable through addressing its symptoms, mainly with corticosteroids and immunosuppressants; there is currently no cure. SLE can be fatal, although with recent medical advances, fatalities are becoming increasingly rare. Survival for people with SLE in the United States, Canada, and Europe is approximately 95% at five years, 90% at 10 years, and 78% at 20 years.

Will remember the time we had.... staying on the same floor.....visiting each other's room......mamak stall together......bitching bout those idiotic seniors........cracking jokes and laughing together........... visiting your condo...... bringing you to hospital......

Fui Yen...... rest in peace.......

It's really small.....

2009-09-21T01:54:00.004+08:00

Things can be quite weird sometimes......

The last 3 referrals that I received since July till now were either my schoolmates' brothers or cousin brother.

The first was MT's brother. I guess I was slow in picking up traces of facts. I did not even see the similarity even after listening to his mum telling me about her pitiful life. The first child was a stillborn...... Then, his 3rd child died in a road accident during his teenage years, followed by my friend, MT who died of cancer. Now, the youngest is a slow learner.

You know.... My daughter should be as big as you if she's still alive. She died of cancer.
I'm so sorry.
How old are you?
I'm born in 1981.
My daughter too. Where did you study last time?
Convent.
Convent? My daughter was there too!
(Then I began to realize that the boy's surname was W.)
Is your daughter MT?
Yeah.......
Oh.... The world is so small......

MT's brother did come and join us for 2 months, but due to certain circumstances he had to stop. It's really a pity though, coz he was such a potential for open employment. Maybe it was because he was MT's brother that I favoured him more, maybe it was his pitiful background so I paid more attention to him. Anyhow, he's not with us anymore. All the best to you, KS!

The second one was M's cousin brother.

This centre is a Christian centre, right?
Yes.
Which church set up this centre?
GGBP.
My sister is there too.
Izzit?
Her name is PL.
Oh, her daughter is M, right? We were once classmates.
Yeah, that's my niece.
Oh..... The world is so small.....

The third one.....

How old are you, teacher?
Born in 1981.
My daughter too. Maybe you know my daughter. She's an accountant.
I don't think I know her.
When she was in sec. school, she studied in Convent.
Convent? Wat's her name?
CP.
Oh.... The world is so small........

It's really small......

But I really hope in the future, I don't see my friends...... in such a manner. Send me anything, but not your children to me..............

Frozen.....

2009-09-11T00:48:00.004+08:00

I'm down, this week....
Really down.....

The feeling of betrayal by someone that you have always helped all along, even though she doesn't deserve it is equal to shit. It's not what this person owes or whether she has been putting in effort to clear them, it's just that whatever she does is just for her own selfish reasons without giving a damn hoot about other people. It's just like she's reaping off another person's life jacket in order to keep herself afloat.

" Trust no one but yourself." I regret not learning this earlier. Well, my uni degree doesn't cover this and I am just plain stupid to allow myself be reaped of of my life jacket. For the next few months, years and my life down the road, never again will I fall into the trap of tears and soppy stories. Anyone can just flood the whole town, but I will never take out my life jacket again.

I'm going to freeze my heart, let it be frozen and make myself stay in cold storage. I'm going to be cold-blooded, inhumane and turn into a zombie with no emotions.

Yes, trust no one but myself.

The Real Patriotism and 1Malaysia

2009-09-01T16:56:00.003+08:00

At last, National Day is over. It is really sickening to hear those hypocritical politicians talking about patriotism and 1Malaysia, regardless of their race or religion. It is even sickening to see some of them waving the national flag, proclaiming their patriotic spirit, while at the same time inciting hatred in certain races towards other races.

Why can't these people see that by inciting hatred in each other, they are actually trying to break the country into pieces. If they are really that patriotic, they should be thinking of ways to unite the whole country instead of causing it to crumble.

If we want to be patriotic, the next election we should be voting for the right politician that promotes unity among races, unity among religion, unity among people of different status. We should let those racial based politicians be sitting out in the cold. It is not about which party we support, but what agenda we are supporting. UMNO, MCA, MIC, PKR, PAS DAP..... all have their racist, 'religionist' and sexist politicians. And at the same time, there are those in these parties who promote peace and understanding and fighting for human rights instead of racial rights. So, to be patriotic, we have to kick those scums out of politics and let the right people take the chair. If one day, our country go into chaos, who should we blame? The answer is OURSELVES, because we vote for the wrong people up.

To be patriotic and promote unity, first we have to start with education. Malays should be willing to give up their Matriculation colleges and take STPM together with the rest. Chinese and Indians should be willing to give up their Chinese and Tamil school system and go back to the Sekolah Kebangsaan. If we can't even give way on this matter, there is no use talking about loving this country and being 1Malaysia.

My advice - there is no 1Malaysia or patriotism in politics. Everything is just a farce. You want 1Malaysia and patriotism? Take a look at those who have special needs children, sick children in the hospital, HIV / AIDS family members, dying family members in the hospice, who are trapped in a flood or collapsed building, or dying in a pandemic. In these cases, you only have all who are in the SAME BOAT, no colour, no race, no religion. It is in times of difficulties, people see beyond their skin colour and the God they are worshipping. Everyone extends a hand to you and comfort comes from all. We help without motives and without hidden agenda. Everyone is bound together in the name of humanity. This is when you have 1Malaysia and patriotism.

To Go or Not to Go / To Be or Not to Be

2009-08-05T20:47:00.004+08:00

So sad......
That 6 year old boy in BP who has H1N1 has died......
The family must really be grieving now..........
Although sad cases happen everywhere, every day and at any time, to have something happening near us can be so devastating.........
Vic, RIP......

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Having the symptoms of H1N1, yet going to work at the same time seems dangerous, selfish and stupid.......
Yet, to follow the Health Ministry's advice of staying at home...............I will have to stay at home for 2 weeks or more..................
Should I go to work or not?
If I really have H1N1 and spread to others, I will really be cursed by people all around.........
Yet if I don't have it, and choose to stay at home, I will be labelled 'opportunistic' and lazy.......
To go or not to go...........
To be or not to be.......

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Dazzling neons lights
Waving their hands to me
Beyond my grasp
Beyond my means
Yet if I try and catch the lights
There might be a chance
For I may survive......

Yet I try to reach out
Treading very carefully
For I know just one wrong step
There might be no turning back......

To go or not to go.............
To be or not to be......

走过的。。有人陪比较好。。。

2009-08-03T23:35:00.005+08:00

病还是没好。。。。。
很辛苦，因为有好多事需要做，但却无能为力。。。。

听说 BP 有位小孩患上了 H1N1，情况危急。。。。
还是我朋友的学生。。。。。。。。。。

这个病真的越来越猖狂。。。。
有时还真怀疑是不是某间 pharmaceutical company 故意制造这细菌，好让他们多捞一笔。。。。
马来西亚已经 8 个人死了。。。。。。
接下来又会是谁呢？

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Kim, Pin & Fa, 谢谢你们为了我特地从日本运进了一只正版 Doraemon。
好喜欢。。。。。。。。我的 Doraemon 礼物都是你们送的。。。。。
看到 Doraemon，就会很自然的想起你们。。。。。。。。。。
很感动。。。。。谢谢。。。。。。。。。
Pin 谢谢你的柠檬蜜糖水。。。。。。
每次生病都得到你的关怀。。。。。。。。让我觉得不会体贴朋友的我非常惭愧。。。。。
Kim，谢谢你带我去看医生。。。。。
身边不需太多的朋友。。。。。两三个真心的就足够了。。。。。。。

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妈妈的爱是最纯，最真。。。。。。
这果然一点都没错。。。。。。。。。
因为我妈就是那么的棒。。。。。。。。

不用自己煮饭，洗衣，做家务的我。。。。。。
比起任何一个人，我是多么的幸福。。。。。。
就连早上水壶的水都是妈妈准备的。。。。。
去哪里找一个这样的妈。。。。。
找不到了。。。。绝种了。。。。。唯独我妈。。。。。。

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不喜欢你那张“走过的”。。。。。
感觉很寂寞，孤独。。。。。。。
把一双脚改成两双，那该有多好。。。。。。。
看到桥尾好像看不到希望。。。。。
有点很悲的感觉。。。。。。。

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An Update of My Latest Will..........

2009-08-02T21:14:00.004+08:00

Jika anda :

Demam

Disertai dengan salah satu:

Sakit Kepala
Sakit Badan
Sesak Nafas
Batuk

Anda Mungkin Menghidapi H1N1

Sounds exactly like me...................
But I hope not................
No energy today......... all sapped away by my illness...............
Hope it's not H1N1................... and yet it's possible..................
Thinking back, I have had many contacts with those who return from overseas................
I HOPE NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The doctor gave me some antibiotics..................
If it's not H1N1, I will be healed soon........................
If it's H1N1, be prepared to attend my funeral soon................
A person like me who has pneumonia before, with weak lungs, with a weak immune system..........
Sounds like a wonderful target for this virus....................

The thought of death seems terrifying......................
Yet I keep thinking of it.........................
I'm actually not worried of dying, just the way of how I would die..............
It is my wish if one day I die, it would be in my sleep without me knowing............Slipping, drifting away...................in peace....................
No horrifying moments.....................

Everytime I'm sick, I start thinking of all these.................... Guess my pneumonia experience in the hospital sparked off this kind of pessimistic thinking.........................

Better write something here for my dear mum, in case I really just go off...................... Need to let her know what I think, coz everytime I bring up this topic, she will just stop me and pretend not to understand what I say...................

Dear Mum,

If I really do go off earlier than you, do not be too sad. Follow what I write here, then I will be able to go in peace:

Please, please donate whatever organs that I have. Do not hesitate because I have already pledged my organs a few years ago. This is the best thing that can happen to me if I really die. (Many do not know that even though they have pledged their organs, their family is still the one to decide and can say no!)
Any money that can be found which is not in my bank account, please pass to Alan. He will know what to do with it. They are not mine................but my dear trainees. Any extra, Alan, please just throw it into the JTC fund.
Do not bury my body..................cremate it..................... I really hate the idea of my body rotting away in the soil. Then, scatter my ashes in the sea, which is my favourite place.......
My favourite collection of CDs - distribute to sis and bro
My favourite collection of books - give it to any organization which wants to start a library for the community
My favourite collection of earrings - keep them as decoration
My piano - pass to sis
My car - pass to bro.
My pc and handphones - for you to use
My exercise machine - pass to bro.
Take RM10,000 from my account and donate straight to PPIA in remembrance of me........
Take another RM2000 and donate it to Malaysian AIDS Council.
Another RM2000 goes to Malaysian CARE.
The rest of the sum from my bank account - find a home that house HIV/AIDS kids and donate to them. Make sure their accounts are transparent before donating to them..........
My insurance payout, EPF distribute among you, sis and bro.

After writing this, I feel better in case I really just go off...................
At least, I know you all will ask my mum to read this before she decides on anything.

加油！

2009-08-01T19:53:00.005+08:00

好忙的一段时间。。。。。
忽略了我这个天地。。。。。
但这一次的忙是快乐的。。。。虽然身体疲惫，但精神却是无比的爽快。。。。。
这一年也已经过了一半，没有一刻是让我觉得我在浪费我的时间。。。。。。
2009 应该是我这一生最有意义的一年。。。。。。
抛开了所有 2008 的不愉快，创造了2009 的愉快。。。。。
这些都要感谢上帝所恩赐的一切。。。。。。。Jeslyn，继续加油喔！

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很感叹，因为这一年虽然是我生活的高峰，但却是你的谷底。。。。。
真的是束手无策。。。。。只能把我的耳朵，时间，精神借给你，其余的你得自己想办法。。。。。
真希望你等待的答案在不久的时候会出现。。。。。
你经历过的我也曾经历过，但你的是“单伤”，而我却是说不出的“双伤”。。。。。
庆幸的是上帝在不到一年的时间就给了我我所等待的答案和解脱。。。。。。
我也开始学会不要质疑上帝的话，而是去服从，顺从。。。。。叛逆有时是要付出代价的。。。。
你寻找了两年，但答案还是没出现。。。。。
我只能说。。。。上帝会在对的时间开一条路给你。。。。。虽然不清楚何时，但却会为你祷告着。。。。。。此刻会到来的。。。。。
到时你也会看到 why you are not an accident, and why your life should be a purpose driven life.....

加油喔！

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你要到台湾留学了。。。。。哲学本来就是你的梦想。。。。。替你开心！
谢谢你让我在大学生涯里看到光芒。。。。
在我最孤独，失落，无助的第一个月。。。。你伸出了双手扶我一把。。。。。
当我觉得我们小组的男生很可恶时，你让我改观。。。。
当我觉得很想放弃直接回家，你的扶持让我继续留下。。。。。
你也许觉得那只是简单和顺便的帮忙而已，但对我而言你那时就好像我的救生圈。。。。

谢谢你让我决定留下在马大。。。。。
谢谢你帮我登记 tutorial。。。。。。
谢谢你上课时和我一起坐。。。。。。让我不觉得寂寞。。。。。
谢谢你和我一起看戏喝茶。。。。。
谢谢你帮我庆祝生日。。。。。。
谢谢你让我有一组那么棒的朋友。。。。。没有你我就不会认识 Ah Lu 和 PingYeen。。。。
谢谢你为我介绍第一份翻译的工作。。。。。
谢谢你让我觉得人生有希望。。。。。。

Thx for everything Yee Chen........ Wish you all the best in your Masters! 加油喔！

4-in-One Coffee

2009-06-21T23:13:00.006+08:00

虽然不知你烦什么，或为了什么心情不好，但我依然会给你我的时间。。。。。就算累了一整天，你的要求我还是一定会答应。。。。。如果这样子会让你心情好些，再辛苦也无所谓。。。。

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不知道你指的是谁，但希望为难的人不是你。。。。。。。很好奇令人为难的又是谁，也有自己的猜测，但却希望自己的猜测是错的。。。。。。。心里其实也有些渴望另一个猜测才是对的。。。。。

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我的建议不知你会不会接受。。。。。。但如果我在你心里有那么一点的重要，我相信你会做。。。。。时间可以证明一切。。。。。。也许事情需要回到原点。。。。。。才会看到终点。。。。。。。

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虽然现在的你很成熟，但你终究还是不明白。。。。。难道我这一个小小的希望都不能成真吗？你这个提议并不是第一次。。。。而是很多次。。。。。。我做不到，也不会为任何人做到。。。。这一步不管发生什么事，我都绝对不会走。。。。。

Sick of Crazy People............

2009-06-19T00:17:00.006+08:00

This world is full of crazy people...... and my life is one of those 被他们这些人围绕着的。。。。。

Dunno whether I'm plain unlucky or just damn so lucky.................

Unlucky because I got 2 crazy neighbours, got a crazy trainee and a crazy parent (of that crazy trainee). Just when my crazy neighbours start to tone down, and my blood pressure starts to go down, come this crazy trainee plus that crazy mother of hers to make my blood pressure shoot up again..........

Lucky because I get to train my patience and next time I'm going to earn big money by writing about my experiences.................. (hopefully by that time I still get to retain my sanity).

Anyway, thanks to that crazy trainee and that crazy mother of hers, I get my interest back in this blog and start writing again...................

Frankly speaking, I have not even one cent of sympathy for them............... Should anything happen to them, I won't even shed a tear for them.................. Thanks to people like them, my heart has harden and never will I simply sympathize with people like them again........

赶紧走出我的生活

让我的日子更好过

因为你门我的心已封锁

为了避免我的心脏变得更软弱

像你们这种人

永远只有‘我我我’

从来没有为别人想过

就算你们跌进油锅

也是你们自己的错

世界上有你们这种人不是福而是祸

Happy Birthday Sis!

2009-04-16T21:23:00.003+08:00

My dearest sis, happy birthday to you!

You are my dearest sis
And will always be
For no one can replace you
For you are so kind and understanding

Always praying for your happiness
Your success in your career
And that everything will go smoothly for you

Billions and millions of dollars will not make me give up on you
Gold and silver cannot tempt me to replace you
For you are the only sis for me, now and forever

Jus wan to tel you how much I love you............................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I shudder to think if Mum did not give birth to you..................
If I am just the only child......................
Then I don't think I will be so happy today...............................

I am really blessed to have a sis like you.................

The Coloured Side...................

2009-04-13T00:45:00.003+08:00

Seriously considering of furthering my studies................
But first, I have to be sure I am able to give up the many so-called important things in my life..............

The dark side - - -
My PPS, my night outings to "latte", my frequent spending trips to Popular, my existing $$$$$, my extra $$$$$, my zzzzzz...... time, my whatever expensive cuisine (coz I won't have much $ left......), my blogging time and many many more.....................................

On the bright side,
I don't have to worry about:

a husband with no one to cook for him (in any case, I don't even know how to cook a pot of rice!)
a kid with no mummy to read stories to (frankly speaking, I'm not interested in happily forever after fairy tales!)
a parent to take care of (it's my mum who's the one taking care of me all the while anyway!)
leaving a maid behind who will seduce my man behind my back (I can't afford a maid anyhow, & there's no man anyway!)

On the gray side,

If I really decide to further my studies, I'm going to ask PPIA to sponsor me. Then, I will go into a lifelong agreement with them:

I, Jeslyn Chan Ye Hwee take you PPIA to be my partner to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.

On the rainbow side,

After getting the money and finishing my studies, I will start praying:

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank you for blessing me with the chance to further my studies. Here I pray that with your divine intervention, please do send to me a rich knight in shining armour to repay the debts of this damsel in distress and rescue her from the bondage of being indebted to this organization.

In Jesus Name I pray, Amen.

Let the apples be................

2009-04-13T00:16:00.004+08:00

Clearing my phone list in my hp this morn................. Came across a name :Tay Swee Heng............
One of the nice guys that I got to know in the uni. Staying in the same residential college with so many ****ing guys, he was one of the few that knew how to respect us of the opposite sex, without being hypocritical.

Texted him, though I was prepared that he might have changed his number...................

Ha! Not even 5 minutes I got a reply. It was him! Oh yeah, he still remembered me! Glad to know he's doing well in his hometown in Malacca, helping his father out in his business. Really hope that this guy will be successful in his life, coz he is really one of the most decent guys out there left in this world.

Not long ago, I also came across an online article, where I saw another senior of mine operating a pharmacy in Malacca too. Another pretty nice guy, whom I managed to keep tumpanging his car during my years in uni. Happy for him too that he is now successful................... Kambate!

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-----Let the bad apples be rotten, let the mediocre ones be eaten, but let the good ones be treasured................-----

Zia......Sowelu.....

2009-04-12T23:01:00.005+08:00

For those of you interested in Japanese and Korean songs, try listening to these 2 albums..............

Zia (Korean) and Sowelu's (Japanese) voices are amazing and the songs are really, really nice......................

I have been listening to their songs, especially Zia's non-stop this week.................

There is not even 1 song that I don't like in this album........................

All are A-rated, and if this album reaches our Malaysia shore, I will definitely go and get one, even if it is going to cost more than RM100...............

The songs in this album:

01 Yet

02 Feel Like Exploding

03 Love Point

04 (feat. Jang Geunee)

05 Crazy With Love

06 Breaking Up With a Text

07 Words I Can’t Send

08 Yet Piano Ver

09 Crazy With Love Piano Ver

Sowelu is another under-rated singer in Japan, compared to other more popular female singers there........ However, her songs are really nice, including those that she attempts in English........ Try listening to it, and you will understand why I prefer to go for her songs, instead of Ayumi Hamasaki..........................

Somebody Said A Prayer...........

2009-04-12T22:24:00.006+08:00

This song is by Billy Ray Cyrus, in his Back To Tennessee album, and though I don't quite like the melody at first, the words are very touching to the soul and it just hits you right on the head, reminding you how a simple prayer for someone can change things and events. Listening to it a few more times, I began to love the melody too................. Guess I was influenced by the lyrics.

Sometimes when things turn bad, we begin to question God why. But how many times do we really go on our knees to pray........................ Something for us to ponder about................

Anyone interested can go to youtube and watch the video........ It's touching........, especially the part where the little son began to pray for the whole family...................
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48U6TRKzMIs&feature=related

Somebody Said A Prayer

Just a single mom
Raising up the kids
Little Tommy's seven now
And her daughter Justine just turned ten
Pinching every cent
Laughing and loving and content
You would never think
A couple years ago
She almost let her job
Her kids, her mind, her life go up in smoke
Right there on the edge
Right before the fall

Chorus:
Somebody said a prayer
Somebody had some faith
Somebody finally hit their knees
And asked for help for heavens sake
Somebody finally found
Someone who really cares
Somebody said a prayer

He was seventeen
And his heart was broke
The middle of the night
A bottle full of pills
And a goodbye note
Sitting on his bed
But then he bowed his head
Now I see him every week
And every now and then
He talks about that night
And the peace that came over him
Talk about a sign
Can I get an amen
Well there were tears on his face
He said look what happened lord

Chorus:
Somebody said a prayer
Somebody had some faith
Somebody finally hit their knees
And asked for help for heavens sake
Somebody finally found
Someone who really cares
Somebody said a prayer

Can I get an amen
Ohhhhhhhh
Can I get an amen
Ohhhhhhhhhh
Somebody
Somebody said a prayer
Somebody said a prayer
Somebody
Somebody said a prayer

Sorry......sincerely

2009-04-12T22:15:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry that I shared out your story with them. I really did not know that you would mind it so much. I thought that you would not mind as you have shared it before.

Thousands of apologies from me and I won't repeat the same mistake again.

Sincerely from your best friend.

Respecting their dignity..........

2009-04-10T13:51:00.004+08:00

Some of you might realize that many photos related to PPIA have disappeared from my blog..... Yeah, I have taken them off.

Learnt a lesson on respecting the dignity of special needs people.................
So, to practise what I have learnt from my KL and Singapore counterparts, I have taken my 1st step..................

2nd step...... anyone who visits will not be allowed to take any photos of our trainees, only shots of them doing their activities, not their faces...........

Well, to those of you who have pasted them on your blog too, pls do cooperate by taking them off...... Your cooperation will be kindly appreciated..........

Lets learn to respect the dignity of these special needs people!

I have taken my first step, have you?

不是大学生的。。。。

2009-04-06T01:05:00.005+08:00

虽然是个大学生，也察觉出大学生和非大学生思想的差别。。。。
虽然得承认大学文凭是个快速公路，也非常值钱。。。。
虽然曾经已踏上大学生涯的路。。。。
虽然曾经有实力因没文凭，而没被认可。。。薪水也比别人少得可怜。。。。

但依然。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能做大事。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能闯出一片蓝天。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能做出正面的改革。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能做得非常出众。。。。
坚持相信不是大学生的也能比大学生更加成功。。。。。

我已经没办法证明。。。。
因为我当时没机会。。。。最终被有文凭的人压死了。。。。
因为我最终还是上了大学。。。。。。
就等你去证明吧。。。。。。。。

不后悔的日记

2009-04-01T22:44:00.003+08:00

不要后悔走过的小巷
不要后悔攀过的高山
不要后悔跌进的谷底
不要后悔越过的森林

生命的笔画虽然不多
但生命的故事范围却是如此的宽阔
填不完的日记期待着主人的来临
为翻阅不完的一页
刻上丑陋的字体
也添上美丽的字迹
留下最刻苦铭心的回忆

生命。。。。

2009-04-01T22:28:00.002+08:00

生命只有那么一条路
没有得后退
没有得U-转

生命只有将会
没有如果能重来，
没有假设再来一次

生命只有继续
要不然就终止
没有得暂停

生没得选择
命却是抉择

Wonderful............

2009-03-01T23:39:00.006+08:00

Went shopping with mum today............. Syok, man.... spent until more than RM600.00. Anyway, got a love gift of RM300 this year, so can spend, spend, spend....... Of course, compare to people who have 1 month or few months of bonus, this is nothing........., but to me it is a surprise bonus!!! Had a wonderful time with mum, but she was more on being my escort......... haha! I was the one trying, buying, trying, buying............

Yesterday night dreamt of my dear dad.............. the whole dream was so real, we were holidaying on an island.............. eating ice-cream, walking on the bridge................ talking to strangers....................... WEll, dad, do come into my dreams more often.................... REally miss you so much..........................

Mum's birthday coming soon..................... 2 more days......................... going to be 63.................. anyway she looks like only 55.....................................

March is here.................... What have I done in 2009? Plenty................... & I'm really glad with what I have done..................... 2009 is definitely a good year for me.................... Hope this continues............. A new change, a new beginning, a new hope, a new life...................... Love it 2009..........

Jia Miem's 15th Birthday

2009-02-22T13:38:00.007+08:00

16th January........... Jia Miem turned 15 on that day.......... Seeing this girl growing since she joined EIP when she was 6, I am very happy to see her turning into a confident and independent girl...........

Her parents kindly prepared fried mee, bi kueh & soon kueh for her party, and all of her friends chipped in to buy a birthday cake for her.................. She was really happy that day, beaming non-stop.......................

Well, don't ever look down on her.................. She cooks maggi mee herself, cooks rice for the whole family, sweeps and mops the floor independently........... and can do many many more things.

She knows how to fill in her personal details in a form, count money, tell you the time, read simple story books, weigh things using a weighing scale, tie her own shoelaces and run 400m in 3 minutes and 30 seconds....................

She helps her mother at the liang teh (herbal tea) stall, washing 4 cups in a go with 1 hand only......... She knows how to serve customers, get ready the liang teh for them and she is a great eater too! Her parents dote on her and will buy any food that she likes for her to eat..........

She is also an avid fan of horror movies.......... She can watch them without closing her eyes at all......., she is braver than me! She is a fan of 周杰伦 (Jay Chou) and can sing quite a number of his songs............

She is very popular with the guys in the centre too........ hehe....... more popular than me...... Gavin is always making sure that she is never short of anything......... taking care of her needs...... Hiap Kai really likes her and blushes whenever we talk about her..........

She is a wonderful girl and has given many surprises to her family........

Ten years ago, her mum said that she was stupid, not being able to read or write..........

SHE PROVED HER WRONG!

Six years ago, her mum did not believe that she would be able to handle her menses properly.......

SHE PROVED HER WRONG!

Five years ago, her mum did not believe that she would be able to cook................

SHE PROVED HER WRONG!

A few months ago, her mum did not believe that she would be able to understand what is BGR (boy girl relationship) in her whole life............

SHE PROVED HER WRONG!

Now, her mum does not believe that she would be able to find a permanent job to earn money for herself.........................

SHE IS GOING TO PROVE HER WRONG AGAIN!

yES, jIA mIEM, wE kNOW yOU cAN!

Out from Hibernation........

2009-02-14T22:47:00.004+08:00

I seem to have just come out from hibernation.....

Winter time..... I was lazy to even open my own blog........

Spring..........Came to have a look, but only penned a few words........

Summer is here.............I'm back!

See the signboard? My new "kitchen"........................ Any donations...... any contributions......any time to spare........feel free to come and find me!

Bad publicity.......................................Hahaha!

新年的第一个自言自语。。。。。。

2009-01-17T17:36:00.004+08:00

新的一年又到了。。。又要面对新的挑战。。。。
有些人说，新的一年不是很好，因为又老了。。。。
但我却觉得新的一年真好。。。。因为能够抛掉一切的不好，重新出发。。。。。

做过的错误，不会再重犯，
失去的机会，不会再放过，
珍惜的一切，不会再松手，
讨厌的一切，不会再多看。

To me, everyday is a new start.................... a new beginning.................. a new chance............
The future is uncertain..............unpredictable...................unimaginable......................
The past is history..........................artefact.......................antique.........................
The "present" is what you want it to be......................................

“友”你们真好。。。。

2009-01-17T11:27:00.007+08:00

好久没来了。。。

能为你们两位庆祝生日，的却很开心。。。。。。虽然迟了一点，但却是真心的祝福。。。不擅长记得日期的我，总是过了，才会记起。。。。。这点就要身边的你们包容了。。。。。

那晚的晚餐确实非常难忘。。。。五个人这么一聚，还在一个已经没人的餐厅了。。。真的是特别又有趣。。。愿我们的友情能继续维持下去。。。。不管以后发生什么事，或者有可能这段友谊在未来的某一天会变质，但现在的友谊我一定会珍惜，也是最美的。。。。。

该读书的也回到自己的岗位做好自己的本份了。。。。

谢谢你们俩那么热心和努力的协助我们。。。。你们几乎整个假期都献给了JTC。希望你们会继续维持着这一份热情。。。。很期待在下一个假期能够看到你们。。。。。

I Love My Earrings!

2008-12-25T18:52:00.003+08:00

PPIA in December

2008-12-25T16:27:00.015+08:00

December ........ my holiday................. all given to PPIA..................... together with Alan, Zhi Ling, Xin Er, who all sacrificed their holidays to stick with me through thick and thin....

Then, came Wai Kit with his never ending tricks, followed by 大花 & 小花................
Lunch was always fun together with them......... Then, Kim came back too, making my life even brighter**************together with 花姐...........................

In the end, only then HO HUEY PIN pop out to eat roti canai with us!

No holiday for me this time, but I am glad with my work and everything.....the people around me who have been helping me, supporting me..................Never ever have I felt such satisfied with this job of mine till now. Love every part of it and hope things will turn out better and better.....

Working together is always fun!!

JTC faithful volunteers........

软绵绵的小花

傻得可爱的Zhi Ling

我的得力住手 Xin Er

超能干的 architect 大花

All of us are fans of Macdonald!!!! See how we enjoy the food there!

Kamsahamnida!!

2008-12-05T00:04:00.002+08:00

I have actually started another blog on JTC, the place that I am working at now............. Then, decided to scrap it off as I will be confused on which blog to put my photos in.......... So, guess i will jus stick to this blog and post everything here............

For this centre, there are many and endless people to thank:

Great thx to Clarissa and Mun Gune from Malaysian CARE, for without them, we won't be able to have a clearer vision of how to set up and run the centre. They have been teaching me lots of things that I have never learnt in university. Especially Clarissa, her guidance is really amazing..... To me, she's really God-sent...... How I wish I have known her earlier........... I would have learnt more things...............

Mr. Loh has been a great encouragement too. Thx Mr. Loh for having the confidence in me....... You thought I would leave after a short while coming back to EIP after my uni studies..... Too bad, I am staying on to "haunt" you all for at least another 5 more years..............

Kim, thx so much........ You saved me from "hell" to bring me out to this wonderful opening in my life............. No amount of words can express my gratitude to you................ Do you know, your support and your affirmation has been very important to me..................

Alan, thx for taking up the challenge to be my working partner.......... I'm touched that you said yes immediately, though you know very well that you have to sacrifice your hols and your time....... Working with me is gonna be tough work, but yet you are willing to take this step together with me.................... I'm praying that our partnership will not be just a temporary one, but for a long time, at least til we see the first batch out there working and earning "tons" of money! Thanks so much that you have been such a great help lately........ Without you, there are many things that I can't possibly do by myself...........

Aunty Cheng Neo & Lian Neo, thx too for your prayers and advice.......... I'm so glad that JTC is in your prayers.................. & safe in God's hands...............

Mr. Cho, thx for all the biblical advice that you have given me........ It has definitely made me a better person........... more confident of taking up this heavy responsibility...................

Siek Har, thx to you we got so many people willing to sponsor and help out JTC........... I'm really touched that you went all out to persuade your friends around you to help us............

Jason, thx for your hard work together with Alan to shift all the things to JTC. With you around, many things that seem impossible has become possible.......... Can't imagine PPIA without you.......

Thx May Sin that you straightaway agree and are willing to come over on Wednesdays to teach them baking and cooking...............

Thanks to all DTC colleagues for remembering JTC in your weekly prayers.

KAMSAHAMNIDA!!!!

Batu Pahat Japanese Food

2008-12-02T00:53:00.006+08:00

Funny, right? look thru the whole internet, could not even find the Japanese restaurant that Kim and I went to that day....... If you type 'japanese food batu pahat' in google, you will only get sushi king, ajisen ramen...................

The funnier thing is I forgot the name of the japanese restaurant that I went to! So, how should i introduce it? Well, just go to this road where Xin Xin is located, the shop that is famous for its ang ku kueh, a few doors away is this unique japanese restaurant, where its food is marvellicious!!!!

The funniest thing is, you might not know where Xin Xin is...... so, look out for that famous funeral parlour in Batu Pahat..... Siang Teng....... opposite it is Wings Cafe, and a few doors away is this Japanese Restaurant!

There's nothing to be funny right, coz you might still not be able to find it, wat more i took the pictures of the food, and not the restaurant......................... Well, blame it on the handsome 'kwailo' that i saw outside the restaurant that night................ Just focusing on him makes me lose my focus!!!!!

Anyway, wait for me to go there another time....... then i will definitely take its photo and post it up here........ Oh yeah, the food is definitely pricier than Sushi King, but let me tell you, sedap sekali, sangat sedap, amat sedap, paling sedap, terlalu sedap!!!!!!!

Going into this restaurant makes me decide to give up on Sushi King and be truly faithful to this!

Wasabi Octopus...........worth it! ****

Salmon Temaki............very, very worth it!******

Fish Roe....... quite nice! ***

Pumpkin Croquette................very worth it! *****

scallops................ very, very worth it! ******

tempura............ worth it! ****

Malacca Zoo Outing........

2008-11-30T23:21:00.014+08:00

Got back my energy after sleeping for 2 consecutive days……. Only woke up to eat lunch with Mum at Secret Recipe on Saturday…………… the rest of the time…… sleeping…..zzz….zzz……..

The Malacca trip was fun, but tired…… Pushing a wheelchair is definitely no easy job. Up the slope, down the slope, past the giraffes and the zebras……. furthermore with Tan Jun Sen giving his military orders…….. Xin Er and I were already dead by the time we reached the exit…… Zhi Ling with Alan in another group were no better than us…….

Jun Sen, as usual too was the boss of the day, giving orders to her maids – Xin Er and I…… Well, he even came out with this silly idea, that next time we go out, he asked Kim not to let his mother come along…… Oh no!!!!! Now, I know that Jun Sen’s mum is really a superwoman, carrying him here and there…….. Even I, who have been working in EIP for so many years, carrying children up and down, can’t compete with his mum! No wonder we were so tired, coz his mum was not with us!!!

In my group, I had Jia Miem, Shey Rou, Wei Lun, Jun Sen, Su Qin and Yuan Kang…… with dear Xin Er to help me!

Wei Lun had a wonderful time paktoing with her girlfren, Shey Rou, stopping from time to time to take photos together…..with the animals too……

Jia Miem, as usual was the light bulb, getting in between that couple……. coz she also like Wei Lun, yet her best fren is Shey Rou………….. Sometimes, I really wonder her motive in getting near Shey Rou……. hahaha!

Meanwhile, Yuan Kang was just entertaining me by pointing and naming the animals……….in real fact, he was not interested in this trip at all….. He doesn’t bother whether the animals are alive or dead…… he only knows that to make me happy, he has to do something to show that he is aware of the animals in the zoo…… hahaha! Not my idea of a “romantic” trip with this handsome “boyfren” of mine!!!

Su Qin as usual went on by herself…… in this sense she's really normal….. Can be seen that she enjoys this trip very much……

After the zoo trip, we went to Jaya Jusco…… At last, I thought…… the time for us to rest in an air con place……

Too bad……….no rest….. I had to help them one by one to line up and buy KFC…….. Dunno whether my magnet is more kuat than Mcdonald or it is KFC’s magnet that is stronger….. Only a few wanted to go to McD with Alan, the rest wanted to eat KFC!!!! Aargh……. Miau Cheng purposely spilt his Coke at the counter……. me holding Jun Sen took a long time queuing up before it was our turn!! Both our legs were nearly crumpled up by the time it was our turn…..Shey Rou and Jia Miem talking so loudly in KFC as if the restaurant is a hawker centre………. Jeffery grabbing every thing edible at his sight, stuffing them into his mouth - even the chicken meat that was chewed and spit out by someone!!……. Wee Keen fighting with me at KFC as I confiscated his VCD, McD toys and purse….. coz he jumped over the McD counter to grab their toys!!!

Shopping with them was also very tiring, as Wee Keen had to be restrained from running off and buying the things that he wanted…… Luckily his purse was with me!!!! Hahahah!!! One thing good was he did listen to our instructions and did not create much trouble. Su Qin gave us a scare when we lost her………….. Kim had to go on an emergency search for her……. Well, five minutes later, she came walking towards me with a DVD that she had bought, not even aware of the hoohah happening becoz of her……

Before going back, I quickly dashed into Coffee Bean and bought a LARGE ice-blended Belgian Chocolate to reward myself!!!!!!

Well, tiring but this trip was really enjoyable……..

Oh yeah, I guess the happiest was Yean Fei and Yi Ming, coz I gave them the chance to pakto together for the whole day with Aunt Kim Han looking after them…… Imagine, these 2 lovebirds holding hands the whole day from the zoo to Jaya Jusco………… Hahaha!

A lesson from animals: which are we? the elephants and zebras which are always in a group? Or the emu and "donno wat type" of cow, which strays away from the group?

I was also very happy, coz :
- God answered our prayers and gave us such good weather and also took good care of us
- I got to know Wee Keen more and understand him
- I managed to shed off some grams of this body of mine by pushing Jun Sen and the wheelchair
- Yuan Kang learnt to mix in a group and behave normally
- I got to see how normal my JTC trainees are when they go out…….
- I got to see more of Wai Kit’s magic tricks on the bus!
- I had a nice chit chat with Aunt Kim Han and Saw Lee on the bus
- Aunt Kim Han told me that she wants to volunteer the whole day once a week, instead of just one hour……..
- dear Xin Er was with me
- Yean Fei and Yi Ming had such a sweet day together
- Yean Fei learnt to move around the bus without fearing that he will fall
- Tian Xin & Ting Chien were very well-behaved that day
- all staff were very united to make this trip a success
- of many many more things that happen on that day…………………………..

Kamsahamnida to all staff, volunteers, parents and the trainees!!!!
Thx Kim for organising this trip!!!

Countdown to Malacca Zoo!!

2008-11-28T00:24:00.004+08:00

I'm going to Malacca Zoo!!!
Can't sleep, can't wait to hop into the bus with my JTC and DTC trainees........
Looking forward to the trip coz it will be fun with:

Wai Kit and his interesting magic shows, forever making me puzzled on how his coin can end up in my tightly clenched hand? Waiting to see when he will make the coin turn up in my underwear....hahahah!!!
忠发 and his autistic actions.................... making people wondering whether he is a PPIA trainer or trainee.....................
Kim and her loud booming voice................... waiting to see who will be the first one to "kena" from her in the zoo.................... our trainees or the monkeys???
Xin Er "paktoing" with Jun Sen.................................. who knows after this trip, Jun Sen might be touched by her and might not want Huey Pin anymore........................ hahaha!!!!
little tiny Zhi Ling pushing Soon Ang's wheelchair................................ in the end a miracle might happen, with Soon Ang pushing Zhi Ling in the wheelchair, with a monkey on her lap!!!
Wee Keen going to meet his "family" in the zoo..................talking to them in his animal language................................. and scolding people with his "family members" name..............still waiting for him to scold Aunty Lian Neo.
Me "paktoing" with Yuan Kang with so many 电灯泡 following after me................. Argh...............

6 hours countdown from now................................................. 5.59..5.58...5.57.....5.56....... Zzzzzzzz.......................

失望。。。。

2008-11-20T01:48:00.004+08:00

有时你讲话可以很伤人。。。。。
不要以为你是这样想，别人就会如你想象般那样。。。。。
怀疑一个人的人格并没有错。。。。。。。但怀疑起一个不会对你撒谎的人的人格，就真的令我太失望。。。。。。
你的心里就是把这个人想成这样吗？
原来你就是用这样的眼光去看这个人：一个不会对你撒谎的人。。。。。。

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你今天说一套，明天做一套。。。。。。
你后天又回去前一套，大后天又跳去另一套。。。。。
我越来越不知道你心里想什么了。。。。
原本的执着去哪了？
原本的热忱去哪了？
原本的目标去哪了？
原本的你去哪了？
为什么总觉得离你越来越遥远了？

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你又不知跑到哪了。。。。。
一阵子还很常的潜入我的生活。。。。
看到好的东西会通知我一声。。。。
听到好的歌会想要播放给我听。。。。
你那些抽象的讯息是有意思的吗？
你那些抽象的画面是有含义的吗？
我也被你弄乱了。。。。。。
就让我继续活在这抽象的世界吧。。。。。。

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World AIDS Day...............

2008-11-18T22:14:00.005+08:00

World AIDS Day is coming soon...... 1st December of every year.

Lets wear the RED RIBBON to show our support for PLWHA (People Living With HIV / AIDS)!!!

More and more people are being infected with HIV / AIDS every minute of the day.

Yet, not many dare to come out and say "I HAVE HIV / AIDS"..........

Instead, saying "I have cancer.... I have tuberculosis......... I have diabetes........" is easier than confessing that one has the HIV virus or AIDS.

Why is that so?

This is because of the stigma and prejudice that one will face if they stand out and confess that they are a PLWHA (People Living with HIV / AIDS)..........

Imagine......

people avoiding you
people criticizing and scolding you
people looking at you as if you are the virus itself
spouse leaving you
doctors and nurses handling you as if you are an "untouchable"
dentists saying "NO" to you
hawkers not letting you use their utensils
your employer sacks you
no one wants to eat at the same table with you
no one is willing to hug you when you are sad
no one is willing to shake your hands
no one wants to swim in the same pool as you
your lover not willing to walk down the aisle with you, the moment the truth is revealed
no one willing to clean your body when you die
and many many more even chilling situations..............................

PLWHA can be our spouse, children, parents, siblings, relatives, friends and others who are close to us......

It can also be ME!

Before we discriminate PLWHA, think first...... do we want all those things happening to us?

The answer is of course NO! So, why don't we treat them with respect and dignity?

HIV /AIDS might come to us one day too................ Remember, we might be faithful to our partner, but our partner might be the one transmitting the virus to us! We might think that the one night stand that we experienced before is just a single mistake and nothing will happen..... We might think that our lover / spouse will never be a victim of HIV / AIDS..... We might think that we won't be so unlucky......... We might become the next victim without us knowing! There is no certainty in this world today.

Therefore, lets change the perspective we view PLWHA........................ for who knows we might be one of them one day.........................

Lets embrace PLWHA around us with love and care, just like how we treat our own family members and friends...........

Get to know more about HIV / AIDS so that we have the right info about it, instead of misunderstanding it. This will open our eyes and help us to become a better person in this world...................

Below are some facts obtained from the Malaysian AIDS Council website..... which I hope will help change the perspective of YOU who reads my blog................

What is HIV?
Human Immunodeficiency Virus. It is a retrovirus that attacks the immune system.

HIV only affects human beings.
Its presence can be detected through an HIV antibody test.
HIV is highly concentrated in blood, semen and vaginal fluid but is present in very low concentrations in saliva and tears.
Outside the human body, the virus is weak.
HIV is the virus that causes AIDS.

What is AIDS?
Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome.

Acquired = It is not inherited.

Immune Deficiency = a weakened immune system that is unable to resist oncoming diseases.

Syndrome = signs and symptoms of an illness.

AIDS is the condition whereby HIV has destroyed a person's immune system, such that it is unable to defend the body from opportunistic diseases.

How does HIV break down the immune system?
CD4 cells are a type of white blood cell.

Upon entering the human body, HIV will attack CD4 cells and destroy them. The viruses then use infected CD4 cells to produce more HIV viruses. These new viruses invade other CD4 cells, causing the body's immune system to slowly deteriorate. As a result, the body's immune system is weakened and cannot fight against oncoming infections.

You don't know who has HIV
Anyone can be infected with HIV. It is not who you are, but more so what you do that puts you at risk of an HIV infection. HIV carriers may look and feel healthy but at the same time, they are able to transmit the virus to others. It is not possible to identify an HIV-positive person based on how they look on the outside. Prevention is, by far, still the best method for avoiding HIV infection.

Is there a cure?
AIDS cannot be cured. Once you are infected with HIV, you will stay infected for the rest of your life.

There is a range of medications known as antiretroviral drugs that suppresses the virus's ability to replicate itself. As a result, there are less chances of HIV infecting other CD4 cells. These drugs, however, are not a cure for AIDS.

How is HIV transmitted?
3 main modes:

Unprotected, penetrative sex with an infected person
Exchange of infected blood, for example sharing infected needles and syringes, blood transfusion or organ transplant
Mother to child transmission during pregnancy, delivery or breastfeeding, which presents a 30 percent risk but can be lowered to less than 10 percent with the use of a medication called AZT

How is HIV NOT transmitted?
Social contacts such as hugging
Sharing food and drinks
Studying or working together
Sharing public facilities such as public phones, swimming pools or public toilets
Sharing beds or home equipment
Mosquito bites

Jun Sen has a Blog!!!!

2008-11-16T15:34:00.008+08:00

Our dear Tan Jun Sen has just started his blog. He enthusiastically wrote his first three entries and inserted that big head photo of his in his blog..........

A cerebral palsy boy, yet so normal in his thinking. Went to school for not even 1 year, but studied in PPIA for so many years...... Cannot read Chinese, but can read Malay and English..... Can't speak fluently, but when it comes to Hokkien, he's so damn fluent..... Can't walk by himself, but when we hold him, he can even run................!

Just to brag... I am his "sifu"........... So, gotta make sure he continues writing..........

To give him support, go to his blog and have a look at his very original language.......

http://jonsonppia.blogspot.com/

Do leave a comment or two there to give him your support. This boy will be so touched until tears come rolling down his cheeks. If you can't understand his language, then don't enter his world...... Go back and revise your English first.....If you understand, then congrats!!! Welcome to his world!!!!

Go, go, go Jun Sen!

PPIA Telematch Day.......

2008-11-15T12:08:00.004+08:00

这一次的 Telematch Day 大家都带着满袋的礼物和饱饱的肚子回家。虽然只是一场小型活动，但大家都玩得非常开心。Kiwanis 也非常好的赞助我们的午餐。。。。。

Xiaodoudou's Spirit.........

2008-11-09T21:36:00.005+08:00

Read a blog http://xiaodoudou.blogspot.com/, recommended by my dearest brother in his blog. It's about this cancer girl who was so optimistic, yet knew that she had no more than 2 years to live. Imagine getting this news:

Quoted from xiaodoudou's blog:

After the chemo, I went to see Dr See again. I needed to know where all these treatments are leading me to.
Me: What are the chances of my recovery?
Dr: Out of a hundred, about fifty will get to go into remission.
Me: Then how long does these fifty get to survive?
Dr: The cancer comes back after a few months after they go into remission, the survival span is around 1-2 years.
Me: That means I only have 1-2 years? I will not get to live past 30 years old? I'm only 25.
Dr: (Nods her head with tears in her eyes.)
Me: Then how will I die?
Dr: Most will eventually suffer from kidney failure from the fluid build-up then go into a coma and die.
Me: Even dialysis will not help?
Dr: (Nods her head with tears in her eyes.)

There was nothing I could ask anymore. All I could do was cry and that's what I do on and off since last night till now. My family is 100% supportive and Dear came over to lie beside me and watch me fall asleep before she went home. I am thankful for everything I have. However, the thought of having such a short time to live and probably having to tolerate chemo during long periods of whatever life I have just scares me so much. I thought the most beautiful part of my life just started, me and Dear finally managed to get together again. We have the financial ability to get a flat, live together and build a wonderful future, go travelling and see the world in each other's eyes. I wanted to take good care of my parents and give my mummy the best years an old lady can ever get. Now all these crumbles and seem so impossible.

Damn it...... the moment I start reading it, I started crying non-stop. What more, I read it from the end to the beginning. The crematorium comes first, the death, the sufferings, then only the beginning when she started her chemo treatment.........

Well, at least what she wished for in her life came true during her periods of suffering from cancer.

Quoted from xiaodoudou's blog:

I used to pray for weight loss, mummy to be gentle, papa to quit gambling, meimei to be sweet, a love whom I know is for sure, friends who stick by me and whom I can always count on. All these which once seemed almost impossible to realise altogether at once, came true. What more can a girl ask for?

After finishing, I thought to myself, if I am down with cancer, what will I do? Well, this is not something impossible, breast cancer runs in my family, and I have had a big lump removed before........ I have always been thinking of this possibility................. Who knows, I might be diagnosed tomoro to be having cancer...... maybe even last stage cancer..........

Well, if I really get cancer, I'm gotta to be more optimistic than this gal (say easy, do hard).

1. I won't go for chemo, and just live the remaining days of my life the way i want.

2. I wan to continue to work, just like usual, living normally, not letting the cancer dominate my life.

3. I wil stop all my part-time work and enjoy myself playing my fav. computer games, reading my fav. books, watching my fav. shows.................. every evening and night........

4. I wil eat, without bothering I will be fat or not.........regardless of the price.......regardless of the sugar level..........regardless of the cholesterol level................

5. I wil bring my mum travelling to places I hav wanted to go, but still haven't gone.....Club Med, Pulau Redang, Sabah, Sarawak, Bali, Korea..........(I'm not greedy.....I don't ask for too expensive or too far places.........only the realistic ones within my budget....)

6. Spend my mum's money shopping.... buying all the things i wan...........then tell her i will pay her back after I'm dead, thru my life insurance payout where my dearest mum is the beneficiary........... See, who says you can't benefit from your own life insurance?

7. I'm going to have Japanese food in my menu every day. Jus love it. Never got tired of eating salmon, sushi, udon, grilled eel, scallops, octopus, chawanmushi, soft shell crab and my beloved raw OYSTERS!!!!!

8. I'm going to continue write my blog and fill it with nice memories..................

9. I'm going to really start writing a book and get it published...............Who knows I may be famous after my death...............

10. I'm going to tel my family to remember donating my organs (whatever that are not affected by cancer cells to the people in this world who need it for their survival.....)

11. I'm going to write to 林宇中，张栋梁，窦智孔，品冠，潘玮柏 to visit me before I die........It's going to be a win-win situation: I get to see the real person, they get free publicity.............

12. I'm going to plan my own funeral, and make my family promise that they will follow it........ no funeral service, no burial - cremation only.

13. I'm going to sleep now....................coz no matter whether I'm going to live or die......sleep is still the most important thing in my life.................. Ciao!

祝你们生日快乐。。。。。

2008-11-09T00:44:00.006+08:00

JunSen，我都还没开过生日 party, 你都已经在酒楼做大寿了！还请了这么多人。你要加油喔！快快自己走路，以后我就可以帮你找工作了。。。。这是我为你许下的生日许愿。。。

BoonChien，希望过了这生日，你会多懂事一些。。。

不要再自残自己了。。。

你虽然很聪明，但聪明有时会被聪明误。。。。。

YiMing，看到你开心，我也很开心。。。

不知为什么，就特别很疼你。。。。

希望明年的你不要那么神经兮兮的了。。。。

好好表现自己，让看不起你的人大跌眼镜。。。。。

YiCheng，你又大一岁了。。。。

固执的你，总是让妈妈很为难，所以送一首周董的歌给你。。。

听妈妈的话

别让她受伤

想快快长大

才能保护她

Beautiful Theng.......Beautiful Wedding

2008-11-08T22:58:00.010+08:00

Felix & Fiona

Standing: Alice, Theng, MengMeng, SeeLing

Sitting: AiNgee, me, ShuEe, ShuEe's Sis

me & my good fren, Theng!

SuSan & Theng

Theng's Family..................................Theng & Us

Theng & Sis...................................Waiting

Ready...... and here he comes!

Together................................

I have been "lost" for a month...........

Too busy....... no time to think of writing blog.........

Well, but I'm happy to be busy this time, becoz I'm bz doing the work that I like.........

Anyway, it has been a month since Theng got married, and I haven't put up her wedding photos up here. So sorry, my dear fren......

Well, we got to know each other since Standard One, been good frens on and off til we finish Form 5.......... When we were in Form 4 & 5, thx to her my secondary school days are full of nice memories. A kind, nice and considerate fren. Til today, she has never failed to contact me whenever she's back in BP. Thx Theng.... and sorry too becoz I'm forever so selfish, not contacting anyone. That's how I kept losing contact with everyone. Well, thx to you, our friendship is stil intact.

I'm really happy for you that you have found the love of your life.......... I pray that your marriage will be a happy and blissful one. You deserve a nice husband, a nice career, a nice life...... as you are really such a nice person............. God bless you and Felix! Love you Theng!!

十年没见你了。。。。。是你吗？

2008-10-04T22:33:00.004+08:00

十年。。。。十年了。。。。今晚再次遇到你，整颗心还是很紧张。。。。。不敢肯定是不是你。。。。。因为十年了。。。。你脸在我脑海里的记忆已经模糊了。。。。只敢瞄瞄看看一下是不是你，却又害怕被人发现。。。。。也须不是你。。。。也须我们曾在街上碰过面，但都已经不认得彼此了。。。。。。

不懂现在的你怎样了。。。拍拖了？结婚了？有孩子了？事业有成了？对我没有印象了？其实一直都有想过问问一下身边的人你怎样了。。。。。但没有一次鼓得起勇气问。。。。。。每当想开口，嘴巴就哑了。。。。。。。

因为你，我的人生观点改变很大。。。。。。因为你。。。。。直到今天我没办法真正相信一个人。。。。。。因为你。。。。影响了我做一些糊涂的选择。。。。。。。因为你。。。。。唉。。。。。。

你唯一的一张照片，我不知是否丢了，撕了，还是藏在哪一本相簿里。。。。。你亲自做的卡，我不知扔了，烧了还是藏在哪一个抽屉里。。。。。。。。

无论怎样。。。。。十年来。。。祈祷时都会记得你。。。。
接到消息你进到大学时，替你开心，祷告你能够顺利完成学业，因为我认识你时，你的学业并不是很好。。。。。。
听说你毕业了，回到 BP 做工了，为你祷告你能够找到一份好的工，赚多多的钱，因为我认识你时，你已经是很努力的在打拼赚自己的零用钱。。。。。
听说你拍拖了，替你开心，希望你找到的是一个会真正爱你和珍惜你的女子，而不是喜欢上你那俊俏的脸孔而已的女子。。。。
听说你胖了，没有之前的瘦，不稀奇，因为认识你时你本来就很厉害吃，所以为你祷告你依然健健康康的。。。。。。
接下来。。。。没勇气问你的事了。。。。。也就这样没有你的消息了。。。。。。
但还是依然没忘记你。。。。。祷告时很自动地会为你祈祷。。。。。。
没恨你。。。。没怪你。。。。。没怨你。。。。。。
我对你仅有的要求是。。。。你一定要过的好，过的快乐，过的幸福。。。。。。。。

Your Photos......My Inspiration and Comfort

2008-10-02T03:03:00.009+08:00

These are my friend, Bernard's photos.......
His photos are very meaningful and they really provide inspiration to me in my life.......
Like his photos very much and hope to share with everyone......
Guess it will inspire you all too........

P/s: Bernard, kamsahamnida! Thanks for your permission, and kindly allow me to put in my interpretation on how your photos inspire me............ They have been a comfort to me.................

Bernard's version: Many times we keep rushing on something and negligent those thing or persons around us. Maybe sometimes we should slow down a bit, slow down a bit to care those peoples around us, say hi or hello. i believe some peoples wish to say hi and hello again to some buddy but never have the chance again. So why rushing ? as for me, my choice is, i take my time to value those around me.

My version: Life is really fast moving that sometimes we can't see clearly what we want......

At certain times too, we just blindly follow whoever that is in front of us. This can lead us to making wrong choices, and going too fast can cause us to make decisions that we might regret later in life.

This whole year, from January to August, I seem to be making wrong decisions in many aspects....... Hence, life was not smooth-sailing for me.......... Guess I went too fast and did not really see what I wanted.....Regretted some choices, yet I'm proud of myself that I chose to move on, instead of pondering about the past...........Hence, the confident me today, coz I chose to confront everything in my life, regardless of good or bad......Guess God saw that and turned everything from bad to good for me right now......Hope that this will continue..........

Bernard's version (1): This question pop up usually when a person standing in the middle of Y or T junction. Some path seems straight and smooth but some are not. Is that mean, choosing those smooth and straight path will reach the destination earlier and easier ? or is there a possibility that those paths which are bumpy and winding will happen to be a short cut ? there are too many doubts and question marks when people standing at those junction. Some times I am wandering, is it just me or other people facing this kind of problem. Anyway just a thought or maybe I am thinking too much. After all hope you all like this shot.

Bernard's version (2): Life is a matter of making choices and decisions. Sometimes some road that we choose has no turning back. we never know what we might encounter along the way. It's either we move on bravely or we pulse until we clear our doubts before we make a move, but in the end life goes on. Friends move on bravely and don't regret for what we have chose.

My version: There are many paths to choose in our life. No matter, the path is smooth or not, we never know what lies ahead in the end...... The smooth one might turn out to be the best, but it can also turn out to be the worse. The rough one can be quite as bad or may even turn out to be the best! Hence, what we can do is just to choose one, be determined and carry on with our choice, coz sometimes there is no turning back in life. Walk ahead and don't keep thinking about the 'road not taken'...........

I chose some paths that I thought was good in the beginning, and yet a few turned out to be bad...... Until today, I have never chosen a path that's bad at the beginning, hence I will never know what the bad road leads to in the end........ No courage to pick the bad road, for i'm not one who understands 先苦后甜 (bitter followed by sweetness)........ Hope that one day I will understand that...............

The Road Not Taken

By Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood,

and I— I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Bernard's version: Many times, there are long and hard journey ahead us which we felt tired and frustrated to move on, but we never know along the way we might found light ( friends ) even we are surrounded by darkness ( obstacles ). Try to look around and help those who need it and shine other's life up. Just like the sunshine.

My version: There is always a light at the end of a path, which is our hope in life that keeps us going on. The light might looks very near, but yet it seems so far............... It seems impossible to reach, yet if we keep on persevering, we might just capture it. However, do not procastinate, for time and tide waits for no man. Darkness might just come anytime..........

I hope for the light, I look out for the light..........Yet I seem not being able to catch the light. i choose to persevere, even though I know life sometimes can be unfair........ Not everything that we persevere will turn out to be good in the end........However, i still choose to persevere, for there is still a chance that i might just reach the light.......I have been wasting too much time in my 27 years of life.......I'm not going to repeat this mistake again for the next 27 and another 27 years of my life.......

Bernard's version: In the process of growing up we might face lot's of difficulties, why ? it's because too many first time for us, no experience. but in the end if we want to survive, we need to come out from comfort zone and face the world, only then we might be able to bear fruits

My version: Life is all about growing up........Some people might not survive the first stage, and still remain immature...... Some might go on to the next stage, learning to bloom......... However, only a few will really bloom and turn mature....... Which stage are we right now?

For 26 years, I have been in the first stage......... Now, I can proudly say that I'm in the second stage......I'm learning to bloom, the right way to bloom........Learning from my past mistakes, from the people around me, from incidents impacting me........hoping that one day I will bloom ......Then, I can gladly say that I have bloomed to my fullest.............

Bernard's version: Even though the road ahead may seems to be hard, bumpy, winding and sometimes even need our faith to move another step, but don't give up, don't hesitate to step forward.

My version: Looking at this road to leading to the 'sky', I learn to appreciate what God has done for me...... I learn to appreciate God's greatness and the hope of eternal life that He has given to me........ God's way is never smooth and straight........ His way is narrow and crooked........ Yet His way is the only way that promises us the way leading to heaven......... I'm glad that I chose to believe in Him....... Have you?

JiaSheng。。。。停梦吧！

2008-10-02T00:30:00.004+08:00

每天发梦的 JiaSheng 16岁了！！！！
为他许下了三个愿望：

第一，不要再发梦了。。。。醒醒吧！
第二，不要再做梦了。。。。清醒吧！
第三，不要再梦游了。。。。起来吧！

旧的非去不可。。。。。。新的才会来

2008-10-02T00:16:00.002+08:00

I'm getting a new start for myself。。。。。to add value, add value, add value to myself and to my life。。。 (Kim, you know what that means right? Haha!)

After a year of ups and downs, I'm glad that my life is still smooth-sailing。。。。in fact it is getting better day by day!

Hence, I'm getting rid of old things in my life and bringing in new things。。。。

The first thing that I got rid off was my Sony Ericsson K800i Cybershot phone。。。。。and all the bad memories, of cozlah, good ones must preserve, haha!
Replacing it is a new Sony Ericsson C902 Cybershot phone。。。。。。。for nicer memories in the future。。。。。。no more bad ones!!!!

The second thing was my jeans handbags – the blue one and the green one! Got a big and bright yellow one to replace them!!!!! I don wan dark colours in my life anymore。。。come, come, come, all the bright colours and shine up my life!

Third thing, my job! Haha! I managed to come out of one that made me miserable for 3 years (all becoz of one person), and go out to a new one that promises me a bright bright future full of hope!

Fourth thing, I discarded certain people from my life (all aspects)。。。。。my emotional baggage。。。。no more am I going to be affected by them anymore。。。。。。no use pondering or even reminiscing about them, trying to please them and giving in to all their needs and requests。。。。。it’s a waste of time!!! Have to treasure those that treasure me for who I am 。。。。。。

Next, no more all Chinese in my blog。。。。。。。
A new start also means a new way of writing, haha!
Style cannot change, change language lah!
(Got to change, coz many ppl around me complaining they dunno how to read Chinese)

No. 6, Looking back in my wardrobe, my goodness, I have been wearing the same clothes for one year。。。。I have not been topping up my clothes for so long!!!! That’s not me!!! Got to go on a shopping spree。。。。。。。not forgetting new shoes too。。。。。

No. 7, My pc is full of nonsense files。。。。。。 Got to clear them up, delete, delete, delete。。。。。 those that are not relevant anymore must go。。。。。 retain only the important ones。。。

No. 8, Get rid of all the rubbish in my house, making space for new items that I plan to buy。。。。。hehehe!

No. 9, Quickly finish all outstanding chores and no more procrastinating。。。。。No more owing people unfinished chores。。。。。 then I’m going to start doing things that I like to do, but have always not have the chance and time to do。。。。。。

No. 10。。。。 Still figuring out how to get enough money to get rid of my old Myvi and switch it to a brand new Honda City。。。。。。Impossible, so hold on until I get a rich husband, hahaha! Any takers? Hehehe!

自己来。。。。。Steamboat 烧烤

2008-10-01T14:33:00.000+08:00

After badminton, the five of us - GekBoon, Kim, ZhongFa, HueyPin & me went to '自己来 ' to eat our dinner. First time there, nice place。。。。。Just that when we walked out, we were all very smelly due to the smoke from the pan。。。。。。Love the bamboo clams, scallop, prawns, beef marinated with curry powder, the tomyam soup and many other types of food! The most special one is our Mr. ZhongFa's fried oyster with egg! It was really marvellicious!!!!

The way we cook is really messy and 'terrible'。。。。。

Our chef busy making fried oyster with egg for us to eat。。。

All of us busy eating。。。。no time to talk。。。

Eating is not about the place, but the people around you。。。。。

Even if the place is right, but the people not right, it won't be fun。。。。

Even if the place is wrong, but the people right, it will still be fun。。。。

If both the place and people are right, it is PERFECT!!!

Planning my next trip to this place already。。。。。。

马家五大宝贝。。。。。。

2008-10-01T14:00:00.000+08:00

The latest addition: Chow Sheryl

No. 4: Chua Rui Xiang。。。。。。。No. 3: Chow Sher Lyn

No. 2: Chua Rui Syuen。。。。。。。No.1: Chua Rui Chen

They are all from the Ma family, yet they don't carry the surname Ma。。。。。???????

Becoz my uncle and aunt are their maternal grandparents!

They don't have sons, only 2 daughters。。。。。but they still have 5 grandchildren very close to them!

So, don't think that only sons have value, daughters have their value too。。。。。。

These 5 children are the ones bringing joy and laughter to the family。。。。。

Not forgetting。。。。。the 6th one is on its way!

A Little Dim Sum Place。。to。。Manhattan Fish Market

2008-10-01T11:45:00.000+08:00

This 'A Little Dim Sum Place' in SS2 has one of the nicest dim sums I have ever eaten. Their dim sums are all so unique and delicious。。。。。If you happen to be at SS2, Petaling Jaya, remember to stop there and fill your stomach。。。。。。。Yeah, and we stopped there before going to Sam's wedding dinner, haha!

this bun with egg yolk paste is marvellicious! the egg tarts are just ok, but that green thing behind is also filled with the same egg yolk paste and its skin is made of bitter gourd! but the funny thing is, it is sweet and not bitter at all。。。。。。。

on the left is banango prawn fritter - yeah! banana, mango and prawn all in one!

on the right is lily scallop roll that is wrapped with beancurd sheet

both are mouth-watering!!!

the 'lomaikai' and mushroom lettuce roll are also nice。。。。

this 'shrimp cage' is also worth trying!

Before going back to BP, 大姨，Ah Tio, 六姨 and the three of us went for lunch at Manhattan Fish Market near The Curve. Actually wanted to go to Marsche, but becoz of the Ramadan month, nothing interesting for lunch there。。。。。Well, let me tell you, Manhattan was worth the money!

We ordered 2 sets of these fried mushrooms, coz everyone loves it! & there are 3 types of sauces for you to choose to eat with your food。。。。。

let the waiter show you how they 'burn up' the fish on this giant manhattan seafood platter!

the calamari fettucine is also nice。。。。。while the crispy fried whitebait (a kind of small white fish) must be mixed with the coleslaw underneath to make it delicious!

Sam and his Destinee。。。。

2008-10-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

cousins who have not seen each other for more than 7 years。。。。except for Sam!

toasting ceremony。。。。。。。

our wantan mee 姑丈 and 姑妈 and their two daughters，Fong and Fen

our 姑妈。。。the difference? we are close with the left and strangers with the right。。。。

us with our beloved AhFong 姐姐 & his son and husband who looks like 品冠

Lyn, me & AunLi。。。。。。。。。。 both my 姑姐 and AunLi's father

with 姑姐, my dad's younger sister and her son SamOw。。。。。。。。。。。

Went to KL, not really KL, it's PJ & Puchong。。。。。to attend my beloved cousin brother's wedding。。。。。。。who always keeps in constant contact with us, and never makes us feel left out when we went back to Taiping when my dad was still alive。。。。。。。who keeps cracking silly jokes to make us laugh and can talk to us on the phone for more than half an hour。。。。。。。。。who sings karaoke together with my bro and sis in jb。。。。。。。。。

Saw many of my father's side relatives whom I've not seen for dunno how many years。。。。。。

Was never really close to them except for my 姑妈's family - the one carrying on the family business of selling wantan mee。。。。。。and Sam is his son。。。。。。。。

Very 'kekok' talking to them。。。。they themselves also feeling 'kekok' coz they themselves also seldom contact each other。。。。。。。

Glad for my cousin - Sam, who has been getting married for 3 years after 'paktoing' for so so many years。。。。。。。。haha!

'pakto' first
get register
went to Taiwan for honeymoon after register
took wedding photos
got married with dinner
go to Cambodia for honeymoon after marriage
go back to Taiping for another wedding dinner

Well, he said that with everything spread out, he won't be facing financial problems and lack or rush of time。。。。good idea! can try out!

btw, Sam and Destinee：Wish the both of you lots of blessings for your marriage!!!!

Marmite 大餐。。。。

2008-09-30T01:46:00.000+08:00

太好吃的 Marmite 大餐！

那天，Kim 不知从哪拿到了2 罐免费的 Marmite。。。。。
我们便决定到 Keller 去吃粥。。。。。
热腾腾的粥放着多多的 Marmite。。。。。太美味了！

古灵精怪的我们也要求了小老板用我们剩下的 Marmite 去编出一些菜肴给我们吃。。。。。。
小老板也爽快地答应了。。。。。
结果是。。。。。。

非常非常好吃的 Marmite 咕噜肉！

接着是可口的 Marmite 炒菜胆。。。。。

后来还来了一盘免费的 Marmite 蘑菇 jagung 白豆腐！

吃完了，还有忠发的把戏。。。

每一道都那么垂涎三尺。。。。。。。

忠发可有口福了。。。。因为他和我们在一起。。。。。
不幸的是慧彬。。。。。每次老板请吃，她都一定有事情。。。。
唉。。。。。。

谢谢了 Keller！
配合我们无厘头的要求。。。。。
还一直请我们吃免费的菜肴！
我们会永远支持你们的！！

Happy Birthday ChinHang！！

2008-09-30T00:18:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday ChinHang!
第一次在 DTC 过生日，非常爽吧！
每个老师都那么爱你。。。。。
这种爱真的是找不到了。。。。。
最年轻的你来到这里非常对。。。。。
因为这里的每一个活动都那么适合你。。。。。
看到你开心，我也替你开心。。。。。
希望接下来，在 Kim 的 “恐赫”下，你会有前所未有的进步。。。。。
愿主保佑你， ChinHang！

领悟。。。。。

2008-09-24T18:44:00.000+08:00

最近领悟了很多东西。。。。。。

人心若变了，是件很难挽回的事情。。。。。。。。
不是每件我们努力过的事情，都会有相等的回报。。。。。。
该放的时候就该放，不要一直愚蠢的留恋。。。。。。。。
对有些人心寒时，就不必再存着任何希望。。。。。。
若不要做一件事，就不要勉强；若选择了做，就不要怨。。。。。。
有些人看似非常热爱奉献，但举止动作却告诉你是完全相反的。。。。
做人什么都能变，唯独原则不能变；若原则变了，人心也会跟着变。。。。。。
上帝从我们手上拿走一样宝贵的东西，必定会换给我们另外一个更好的东西。。。。。。
上帝让一件不好的事情发生，也会接着让一件更好的事情发生。。。。。。。
上帝让我们伤心落泪，必定也会让我们从新欢笑，而且比之前更加开心。。。。。。。。

好友，你领悟了吗？做人最重要要做回真实的自己。若真实的你变了，一切也会跟着变。能够接受你的人，你现在的一切才是真正的朋友。。。。。活着不是为了讨好别人，而是做到自己本身最好的一面。。。。。友情是一件很自然的过程，唯独通过自然的方式才会交到知心的朋友。勉强的方式也只会换来勉强的友谊。。。。。。这是不会长久的。。。。。如果心是真，是正，上帝会知道，也会替你开一条更好的路。。。。。

振作吧，好友！

2008-09-21T04:07:00.000+08:00

好友。。。
看到你落泪，你知道我有多么的心疼吗?
年纪轻轻的你竟然要面对着这样子的挫折。。。。。
为你祈祷：你所面对的这一切将会为未来的你带来更多的祝福。。。。
有些事也许现在我们不明白，但上帝自然有祂的安排。。。。。
每一件事情都有它的理由。。。。。。
我们一起等着，看看上帝到底为你安排了些什么。。。。。

如今的我已经帮不到你。。。。。
但我的耳朵，肩膀随时都能借给你。。。。。
记住喔！就算全世界遗弃了你，你还有家人，爱人，还有我们这些猪朋狗友为你打气着。。。。。。
还有一群可爱的大天使们，等着你和他们一起乐。。。。

我们一起来期待着未来的美。。。。。因为未来就是希望。。。。。。

阳光总在风雨后
雨后必定有彩虹。。。。。

加油，朋友！
振作，朋友！

听听看这首歌，因为每当我失落时，这首歌总会扶我，拉我一把。。。。。让我从新振作。。。。。

阳光总在风雨后
词曲：陈佳明
歌手：许美静

http://www.520music.com/play/137785.htm

人生路上甜苦和喜忧
愿与你分担所有
难免曾经跌倒和等候
要勇敢的抬头
谁愿常躲在避风的港口
宁有波涛汹涌的自由
愿是你心中灯塔的守候
在迷雾中让你看透
阳光总在风雨后
乌云上有睛空
珍惜所有的感动
每一份希望在你手中
阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹
风风雨雨都接受
我一直会在你的左右

Mr Ang Teck Hin。。。。。

2008-09-21T03:17:00.000+08:00

Went bird watching with Mr Ang today.......
Ang Teck Hin.....
My beloved special education lecturer:

who is talented, clever and interesting
who teaches me lots of things that I will never learn from elsewhere.
who encourages me to go further in this field
who gives me much precious advice
who jokes and praises me a lot, and yet says that i am very 'suaku'
who has travelled to so many countries
who has even worked in Saudi Arabia in the dog unit of the kastam department
who has a son who is a state badminton champion
who is so forever charming and fun

Glad to see him after not seeing him for 6-7 years.......

Still the same old Mr Ang.......

Went to eat Ah See wantan mee first, so that in case we find no birds, he's happy with the mee. Haha!
Went to Parit Lapis, too bad no birds.....They have gone out for their breakfast.......
Went to Punggor........ too bad it was high tide. Couldn't really see any birds.

So sueh!!!

Next was Hutan Lipur Bukit Perdana........ first bird that we saw was a barbet! A rare bird! Then, we managed to see another few more birds. Too bad I missed out on the woodpecker.......
Couldn't figure out how come he managed to spot those birds that are so hard to spot...... & how come when he had pointed out to me, I still couldn't see it!
Thanks to his binoculars and telescope, for the first time in my life, I realized that bird-watching is indeed amazing! The birds are nothing when we see it from far. When the telescope comes into use, the birds became so so so................................. different and beautiful! We can even see the most minute detailed part of the birds!

Went for lunch at Tea Station. Took mamak mee...... Delicious! Satisfy his stomach again first in case our luck runs out!

Then, we went to Parit Lapis again....... Saw 12 adjutants! Never knew they were endangered species! Haha! Luckily the birds were there........ If not I will be thrown into the nearest longkang there by him! Took many photos and one of them is down there......with my name on it! Coz I was the one who brought him there! There were many more even more beautiful ones, but not given to me...... Ai..... Guess, he needs them to do his report for the World Bird Council or organization or whatever lah..... i forgot the name........ Copyrighted? Should be lah.....

Tried our luck again at Punggor....... No luck, went back home.....................

Thx Mr Ang for everything! Hope to meet you again soon!

孔明灯。。。。。

2008-09-21T02:55:00.000+08:00

吃完了 AiNgee & SzeYang 的 dinner 过后，回家途中看到了在天上美丽的孔明灯。。。。。

Theng 和我随着孔明灯起飞的地点找着。。。。。。终于被我们找到了。。。。。

原来是一间庙正在庆祝中秋节。。。。。。

Kepoh 和 suaku 的我们一起参与了热闹。。。。

庙里的那些人看到我们对孔明灯那么有兴趣，就放了多几个给我们看。。。。。。

从来没有看过孔明灯的我们，还真的是傻了眼。。。。。

那晚的场景真的很漂亮。。。。。

真的是毕生难忘。。。。。。

Congrats AiNgee & SzeYang!

2008-09-21T02:24:00.000+08:00

(From left to right)

HuiYing, Lilian, me, Theng, AiNgee, SzeYang, MengLi, Tina, Meng

9月14日参加了 AiNgee 的婚礼。。。。。非常温馨。。。。

12年在一起的他们终于结婚了。。。。。

替他们感到非常开心。。。。。因为 AiNgee 是我中学时其中一位最要好的朋友。。。。。

心地善良又聪明的她配上彬彬有礼和非常有智慧的 SzeYang，真的是天生一对龙凤配。。。。

Congrats AiNgee & SzeYang! May God bless the both of you!!!

在那场婚礼也遇到了不少朋友。。。。。。

很少参加 gathering 的我，终于有机会 meet up with them。。。。。

也认识了 AiNgee 的两位外国朋友。。。。Jason and Mina。。。。。

看到很多熟悉的脸孔，但健忘的我已经忘了他们是谁。。。。。应该都是中学时遇过的人吧。。。。。

我的健忘症好像越来越严重了。。。。。。。

(From left to right)
Up: Tina, MengLi, LiLian
Down: Mina, Jason, Theng, me, Meng

(From left to right)
Meng, Ee, me, Lilian, Tina, Theng, MengLi, HuiSuan

HuiYing & me。。。。。。。。。。。。。ShuEe & me

Thx to Suan & Meng for the photos!

Thx MALAYSIAN CARE!!!

2008-09-14T16:05:00.000+08:00

Jus came back from KL.........This trip was a wonderful exposure trip for me! After being dry for so many years, it was a wonderful 'refreshment' for me. This trip really opened my eyes and I learned many new things which I hope I will be able to implement back in my job in BP.

Thanks Clarissa and MG! It was such a pleasure having this chance to learn from you all. You all opened my eyes to so many things and gave me a new perspective of what our job is all about. Thanks for both your encouragement and willingness to help us in the setting up of the JTC. Having stayed in this field for more than six years, other than Mr. Ang, both of you are the second and third person who has really helped me in progressing........... Thanx again!

Thanks Jee Ching for sharing your experiences with us..........
Thanks Soo Han for your bread.........
Thanks Leong for driving us all around KL...........
Thanks Hon Sieng for your willingness to help us enquire about the Special Olympics.......
Thanks Christine for your encouragement..........

Thank you MALAYSIAN CARE!!!!

庆幸的。。。。。

2008-09-14T15:25:00.000+08:00

我的好友。。。。。

那天生平第一次和你吵是我永远忘不了的一天。。。。。

当晚的我哭了不少，也不知道哭到何时才倒下去睡。。。。。
当晚的我不知有多么的害怕，这么多年来培养出的友谊就这样完了。。。。
当晚的我多么的后悔和你这样的吵。。。。。。。
当晚的我多么的恨自己摧毁了一个自以为不可能毁灭的友谊。。。。。

当晚的我。。。。。恨死了那个人。。。。。因为我们竟然为了那个人而吵。。。。。
当晚的我。。。。。充满了恨意。。。。。也告诉自己如果这段友谊毁了。。。。。我绝对不会让那个人有好日子过。。。。
当晚的我，真想拿起一把刀，把那个人捅死了算了。。。。。

庆幸的。。。。经过这一场。。。。我们的友谊更加坚固了。。。。。
庆幸的。。。。经过这一场。。。。我们比之前还更坦白了。。。。。

庆幸的。。。。那个可恶的人。。。没被我“杀”死。。。。。

今年。。。。几次的考验都是因为那个人。。。。
第一个考验，我失去了一个我生命中很重要的人，但上帝添了另外两个在我生命中现在很重要的人。。。。。
第二个考验，我失去了我最挚爱的“厨房”，但上帝给了我一份比之前更加好百倍的新“厨房”。。。。。。
第三个考验，我活下来了。。。。。没失去什么。。。。得到的反而是更好的。。。。。。。

看来这中秋节应该送那个人几粒月饼，感激她让我的生命那么的多姿多彩。。。。让现在的我活的更加好，更加有意义。。。

应该对她说：KAMSAHAMNIDA！YOU GAVE ME A BETTER LIFE THAN BEFORE!!!!!!
IT'S BECOZ WHATEVER BAD THINGS THAT YOU DID TO ME HAS COME BACK TO ME IN THE FORM OF BLESSINGS!!!! GOD BLESS YOU。。。

JTC Summit 一日游。。。。

2008-09-06T06:10:00.001+08:00

开学前，和JTC 的 trainees 到了Summit 打 bowling 和看了一部戏 - 钱不够用2。这也是 WeiCheng, YongChong 和 YiHeng 最后一次和 JTC 的 trainees 一起疯狂的玩乐。。。。我们在 bowling alley 和戏院外闹了不少把戏和笑话。。。。。。而且还很疯狂的玩。。。。拍了不少照片留念。。。。。

WeiCheng，很开心能认识你，也很“感激”你把我丢下烂泥中，也很“感恩”你和 YiHeng 把我丢到 bowling 的 lane 里面去。。。。下次我不会那么笨了。。。。。。等你回来时，我应该也变得很聪明了。。。。不会再被你欺负了！（等你回来时，再告诉我钱重不重要吧。。。。很好奇，因为当年的我，想法是和你一样的，但经过了这么多年，想法，看法都变了。。。。。很想知道以后的你是否还是坚持着同样的看法。。。。。）还有喔。。。。等你回来当我们的 Special Olympic coach。。。。。。。

YongChong，看到静静的你，默默的付出着，让我很感动。。。。谢谢你和你那班朋友都那么的热心帮助着这一群 trainees。希望看到以后的你已经是一位成功的哲学家。。。。。。。也很希望以后的你更加有自信！

Tipu Kanan Tipu Kiri

Bowling Alley。。。。。。。

四位年轻人。。。。加油吧！希望下次有机会合作。。。。。。。

无畏的追求。。。。笨！

2008-09-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

我简直就是个白痴。人家全部都不要了的东西，我干嘛去管。。。。大家都放掉的东西，我干嘛去追。。。。。同样是曾经一起坚持过，努力过，付出过的。。。。。现在都改变了。。。。。坚持没有了。。。。。努力也不用了。。。。。付出是曾经的历史了。。。。。结论：这是一个无畏的追求。。。。再追求下去就是笨！是时间放弃了。。。。

Kukup。。。。我的第一次。。。。

2008-09-03T20:54:00.001+08:00

这个假期过得非常爽。。。。。陪了 JTC 的学生去一趟 Kukup，吃得饱，玩得好。。。。还打麻将打到非常爽。。。。。

Kukup。。。。。。我们来了！！

午餐时间干一杯。。。。一人一杯茶。。。。感情不会散。。。。

坐着船，吹海风。。。。。。好像上了冒牌的 Titanic。。。。。

我第一次到 Kelong 耶。。。。。。

早上吹吹海风拍拍照。。。。。。放松一下心情。。。。。

回之前，和麻将对手拍个照。。。。。

PPIA 慈善晚宴 2008

2008-08-31T10:52:00.001+08:00

PPIA Fund Raising Charity Dinner 的照片出炉了！！！！

两个月辛苦的付出终算有回报了！！表演成功，得到大家的赞扬，赢得大家的掌声，看到孩子们开心的表情，父母们满足的笑容，老师们和筹委员松一口气的心情，一切都是值得的。。。。。。。

一个月多的练习，四次的彩排，我们就这样上去了。。。。。。。。。

第一次彩排，一切都很乱。。。。。当时的我是到处骂人。。。。回到家吃不下，睡不下。。。。怀疑自己是不是野心太大了，准备一个那么大的演出。。。。。

第二次彩排，好很多很多。。。。。骂人减少了，心情也比较放松了。。。。。终于吃得下，睡得比较好。。。。。也开始安心一些了。。。。。

第三次彩排，可以笑哈哈了。。。。一切都蛮顺利。。。。反省的骂自己：就算对自己没信心，也要对上帝和那一群默默耕耘的同事们有信心啊。。。。。。

第四次彩排，信心增加了。。。。。看到上帝的手在操控着一切。。。。。也放心因为孩子们都习惯了。。。。也乖了，没什么闹事了。。。。

非常感激全部和我合作的老师和义工们，尤其是。。。

Jason 和 ChiewHui 在海底世界里所做的每一个道具。。。
Euna 和 YuWei 在服装表演里所设计的每一件服装。。。。。
Aunty CheeHwa 和 Aunty SawLee 为我们所缝的每一件衣服。。。。
忠发和他的朋友熬夜赶工割出来的音乐。。。。。
HueyPin，FongPeng，SiekHar，MaySin，Christine 和 Shanti 勇敢地站上台。。。。
GeokHwa，Saras，Catherine 和 ChinYen 在后台顾着我们不容易顾的孩子。。。。
最重要的是买面包的 SiewKim。。。没有你的支持，鼓励。。。我也没勇气做下去。。。
所有大大小小的义工们！

Kamsahamnida！！！！

彩排时的热闹气氛。。。。。。

震撼人心的扇子舞。。。。。。。。

神奇的海底世界。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

可爱天真的 Fish Dance。。。。。

动人的 Jellyfish Dance。。。。。。。。。。。。。

快乐的 Party Dance。。。。。。。。。。。。

JTC 的。。。。。。让爱走动。。。。。。

最时尚的Fashion Show.........

我们都是指挥家。。。。。。。。。

MissTai 的唱工一流。。YunTian的舞工更加一流。。。。

让爱走动。。。。。。美丽的结尾。。。。。。。。。

管理层。。。。。。和马来同胞也一起参与热闹。。。。。

祷告。。。为了中心和孩子们。。。。

DTC BP Mall 一日游。。。。

2008-08-31T00:13:00.001+08:00

假期前。。。。。带了DTC 的孩子们到了 BP Mall。。。。又打保龄球，又吃 London Café。。。。多爽啊！第一班的孩子们好带多了。。。。。充满笑声，充满欢乐。。。。。

相反的，第二班的学生超难带，结果只想着早一点回中心。。。自己和Fong Peng都被Celine 和 Chin Hang 弄得团团转。。。。结果我们俩的午餐都没办法吃。唉。。。。。。。结果连一张照片都没办法拍。。。。。。

PPIA 一阵子前。。。。

2008-08-30T23:41:00.001+08:00

休息够了。。。。该回来写部落格了。。。。
一次过把电话里的照片输入电脑，也要一次过把全部放上部落格。。。。

一阵子前。。。。可爱的北极熊送上了Biore Pore Pack 给了我们的几个大汉。而且效果还蛮不错的！一开始挣扎的他们，最后乖乖的让我们粘上去，但在挣扎过程中浪费了两片。。。。。哈哈哈！

一阵子前。。。。孩子们也到了 BP Mall 参加 Kiwanis 所主办的填色比赛。。。。。为他们开心，兴奋因为多数都有得奖。。。。。

冠军：Gavin Tan
亚军：Seah Jing Ze
季军：Teo Wee Keen
优异奖：Chiam Su Qin，Tan Wei Sheng，Ng Yean Fei，

Chan Ke Xin，Kek Ting Chien

我们都是一体的。。。。。

2008-08-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

1 Corinthians 12:4-6, 12-26

4 There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit distributes them. 5 There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. 6 There are different kinds of working, but in all of them and in everyone it is the same God at work.

12 Just as a body, though one, has many parts, but all its many parts form one body, so it is with Christ. 13 For we were all baptized by [c] one Spirit so as to form one body—whether Jews or Gentiles, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink. 14 Even so the body is not made up of one part but of many.
15 Now if the foot should say, "Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 16 And if the ear should say, "Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18 But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19 If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20 As it is, there are many parts, but one body.
21 The eye cannot say to the hand, "I don't need you!" And the head cannot say to the feet, "I don't need you!" 22 On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23 and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, 24 while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has put the body together, giving greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25 so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26 If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.

歌林多前书 12:4-6, 12-26

12:4
恩赐原有分别、圣灵却是一位。
12:5
职事也有分别、主却是一位。
12:6
功用也有分别、　神却是一位、在众人里面运行一切的事。

12:12
就如身子是一个、却有许多肢体、而且肢体虽多、仍是一个身子．基督也是这样。
12:13
我们不拘是犹太人、是希利尼人、是为奴的、是自主的、都从一位圣灵受洗、成了一个身体．饮于一位圣灵。
12:14
身子原不是一个肢体、乃是许多肢体。
12:15
设若脚说、我不是手、所以不属乎身子．他不能因此就不属乎身子。
12:16
设若耳说、我不是眼、所以不属乎身子．他也不能因此就不属乎身子。
12:17
若全身是眼、从那里听声呢．若全身是耳、从那里闻味呢。
12:18
但如今　神随自己的意思、把肢体俱各安排在身上了。
12:19
若都是一个肢体、身子在哪里呢。
12:20
但如今肢体是多的、身子却是一个。
12:21
眼不能对手说、我用不着你．头也不能对脚说、我用不着你。
12:22
不但如此、身上肢体人以为软弱的、更是不可少的．
12:23
身上肢体、我们看为不体面的、越发给他加上体面．不俊美的、越发得着俊美．
12:24
我们俊美的肢体、自然用不着装饰．但　神配搭这身子、把加倍的体面给那有缺欠的肢体．
12:25
免得身上分门别类．总要肢体彼此相顾。
12:26
若一个肢体受苦、所有的肢体就一同受苦．若一个肢体得荣耀、所有的肢体就一同快乐。

在 PPIA 工作，从以前自以为是的我，开始学会谦虚，停下脚步看看别人的优点，而不只是单单看人家的缺点。。。。。。自己也会反省，看到自己的缺点，其实也不比别人少。。。。。一路这样走着，也成长了不少。

以前一直以为会教书就是好老师，不会教的都算不好。。。。。但经历了许多，发现到这种想法是错的，因为工作不包括教书罢了。。。。

第一个真正让我领悟到这点的是阿姨。当她说她想要离开时，因为承受不了教 language 的压力，我发现一个好老师并不是一定要会教书，而也是能够在别的方面贡献。。。努力想办法让她留下，因为如果没有她，没人有她那能力帮我们找 sponsor 赞助我们的一些节目。没有她，break time 不会那么快就有杯子和碟子放好了。EIP 也不会那么整齐和条条有理。。。。。。

谢谢你阿姨，不管什么事，我每次开口要求帮忙，你都很少说 no. 而且上次 Sunday School 如果没你帮忙找 sponsor，我们所剩的钱肯定 cover 不过我们的开销。。。。。

第二个让我领悟到这点的是 Chiew Hui。她也是另外一个教 language 教到很有压力的。。。。但她也不能走，因为没有她，就没人在后线撑着了。。。。习惯在前线打战的我和 Yu Wei，不能少了那些在后线撑着的人。因为没有他们，就没人去捉住那些难搞的学生。在前线的我们也没有办法顺利地把一个活动带领的好。。。。。

谢谢你 Chiew Hui。。。我永远都会记住你每次总是帮我们捉那些我们不喜欢捉的学生，减轻了我们很多的负担。这次的 Underwater World 表演如果没有你，就不会有那么美丽的鱼儿。。。。。。

接下来，当我开始领悟时，每一个合作伙伴的好都开始看到一清二楚。。。。说实在的，有时做工还是会有抱怨和埋怨，但当我们学习看每一个人的好时，工作就不会那么辛苦。所以我越来越喜欢圣经里面歌林多前书第12 章的话语，因为描述得非常好。。。。。

再加上 Sunday School 和这一次慈善晚宴的筹备过程，让我更看到PPIA 每一个人都是上帝放在那有原因的。。。。

没有 Yu Wei，教书和策划方面就少了一个人才，就没人带动气氛，没人注射活力的强针。

谢谢你 Yu Wei 准备那两只舞蹈和 Fashion show。。。。。也谢谢你一路陪伴我做我最好的工作伙伴和撑着 Sunday School。。。。。。

没有 Euna，就不会知道什么叫勤奋，也不会有那么多艺术方面的新 idea。细腻的她总是会把事情做到最好。

谢谢你 Euna 总是抽出那么多宝贵的时间和我一起 Overtime，而且一路来不离不弃的协助我在每一个方面。。。。。

没有 Huey Pin 和忠发，就没人陪我留下来工作。而且自从有了他们，PPIA 从来不会缺少 volunteer。

谢谢 Huey Pin 和忠发你们的贴心和关心。你们总是让我很感动。你知道吗，每当你们俩留下来陪我赶工，甚至不惜花掉你们午餐的时间，我的感动已经是那一种说不出口的了。。。。也谢谢你们每次在我最需要时，找出一大堆 volunteer 来帮我们。。。。。

没有 Christine 和 Saras, 难搞的学生就没人管得到。。。。。。

没有 Chin Yen，管理方面也就没人去理会。report 也不会有人去打。。。。。

没有 Lorraine，就没人带孩子上厕所。这工作说起来容易，但却是最多人不愿意做的。。。。。而且扛孩子最多的也是她。。。。。。。。

去了 DTC 过后，更加学会了珍惜每一个身边的同工伙伴。。。。。。

没有 Siew Kim，就没有人带领 DTC，让今天的 DTC 风平浪静，一切顺利。

谢谢你 Kim 给我足够的信心和教导我用另外一个角度看事情。今天的我，如果让你看到有进步，功劳最大就是你。。。

没有 Jason，很多 equipment 的东西就做不成了。慈善晚宴的海底世界也不用实行了。

谢谢你 Jason，让我能放下一百颗心去做这一个 Underwater World 的表演。。。。。。You are really the backbone of this project。。。。。。。

没有 Fong Peng，孩子们就没人管了，尤其是那些难搞和行动不方便的学生。

谢谢你 Fong Peng，你总是那么自动自发和努力的做，让我看到了超级感动和感激。我终于明白为什么 Kim 会说不能少了你这个好帮手。。。。。

没有 Catherine，DTC 就不会那么干净和条条有理。

谢谢你 Catherine, 每次那么耐心的等我出门才锁门，而且如果我忘了拿东西，你还很耐心地替我重开门，又锁门。。。。。

没有 Ah Har 和 May Sin，学生们也少了两位好妈妈。

谢谢你们两位，在我生命里带来很多欢笑。。。。。也不介意听从我这位小女孩吩咐你们做事情。。。。

没有你们，就没有 PPIA。。。。。。。。

没有你们，就没有今天反省的我。。。。。

没有你们，就没有今天成长的我。。。。。

还在学习的我有时还是会那么自以为是、脾气暴躁、出口伤人、咄咄逼人、呼三唤四。。。。但容许我学习，因为这样我才能变成一个更好的人。。。。。。

我们都是一体的。。。。。

同一套。。。。

2008-08-10T12:37:00.000+08:00

一天一天的逼近，让我的压力一天比一天多。。。。。
会成功吗？
会顺利吗？
但愿如此。。。。。。

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你有时讲的是这一套，过后又是另外一套。。。。。都不知道你要的是什么？我想你应该也开始不清楚自己要做什么了吧。。。。。。。但我又凭什么讲你呢？因为我自己也是这样的人。。。。。

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做直销的人果然就是直销。。。不管有多么的不一样，十年如一日的说法还是一样的：

我们不是为了要赚钱的。我们是知道这个产品好，用了好，所以要和大家分享。好的东西当然要分享嘛！我们当初也是很讨厌直销的。但其他的产品是为了要赚钱，我们这个不一样！而且介绍多了，公司自然就会给奖励的。

拜托嘛！这还不是都一样。每一个直销产品，不管什么品牌，都是同一个说法，听了都腻。。。。。如果没有钱赚，谁那么努力去招人啊。。。。。。我如果没钱赚，也没那么伟大去教免费补习啦！哈哈哈！

做得到吗？？？

2008-08-10T12:24:00.000+08:00

超重了！！！！！
不行了，这次一定要减肥了！！！
再不行动的话，很快就要变成沈殿霞了。。。。。

今天起来的我。下定决心一定要做好这几件事。。。。

一定要减肥直到 55kg。。。。。
勤劳一点洗脸涂 Mask，让脸滑一点。。。。。。
早一点睡，让自己精神一点。。。。。
勤劳一点吃 Herbalife，不要再让伤风攻击我。。。。。
勤劳一点吃 EPO，不要让自己来经时，痛得死去活来。。。。。。
把东西迅速做完，让自己有额外的时间做自己喜欢做的事。。。。。。我已经好久好久没学韩文。。。。彩水彩画。。。。。
快快把支票进银行，不要让我的钱白白流失。。。。。
提早准备和改好补习的作业，不要临时抱耶稣脚。。。。。。。
努力一点祷告看圣经。。。。。。

做得到吗？我也不知道。。。。谁要和我打赌呢？也许我会比较有冲劲。。。。。。

满足感。。。。。

2008-08-07T00:33:00.000+08:00

乐乐，教着你读书是一件很快乐的事。。。。看着你从零开始到现在的你，替你开心，也为你骄傲。。。。。你是一个幸福的孩子，因为你妈妈了解你的问题，没有逼你上那些无聊的补习班，也没听别人的话把你送去华小。如果此时此刻你是在华小，在那一种充满压力的情况下，你肯定不会像现在那么热爱读书。。。在这一中没有压力的情况下，你迅速的前进应该是你妈妈最对的选择。。。。。。也是最大的安慰。。。。。。。

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你们六个真的是好努力。。。。任我骂，任我拉，任我推，任我喊。。。。。还是依然那么努力的跳。希望你们的舞蹈能打动人心，也会为自己的信心加分。。。。。

Ke Li，你跳得最美也进步的最快。你的认真是你最大的优点。。。。。
Shey Rou，虽然你很 blur，但是你很庆幸因为有 Wei Lun 带着你。你的乐观态度将会为你的未来带来更多的好事。。。。。
Yi Ming，虽然你很 “神经”，但看得出你为了这个舞蹈，很努力的扮“正经”，所以我还是选了你，留着你，因为你肯听话。。。。。。。。
Wei Lun，谢谢你做大哥，带领着他们，把最好的呈现给大家。。。。。。。
Wei Sheng，为了这个舞蹈，你刷掉了你的害臊，勇敢的牵着 Ke Li 的手，带着她旋转。你真的很棒！
Jin Wei，虽然你是最差的那一个，但你也是最努力的跟着大队走。一句话：下次有舞蹈，我还是会选你。。。。。。

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Yuan Kang，我的心被你牵着走了。。。。看你怕我生气的样子，就觉得很好笑。。。。。看你做什么都会来问我时，觉得很感动。。。。明年，你肯定跟着我了。。。。。绝对不会让你自身自灭。。。。。

我要鸡力，不要鸭力。。。。。

2008-08-01T03:13:00.000+08:00

读英校的你还可真会编。。。。。

不要压力，就不要吃鸭，
改成吃鸡，就会有激励。

哈哈哈！

我要鸡力，
我不要鸭力！

希望你们都好。。。。

2008-08-01T02:34:00.000+08:00

想到素彬，也会想到以前大学时一群朋友的好。。。。

HuiPing, YinNam, MeiJing, KokKun...........

Bernard, YeeChen, PingYeen, AhLu, Quah, Ang, Anusya...........

Farmasi, JunChyuan, ChitThong................

AiQing, FuiYen, SweeHeng, Farrah, YewSing, SweeHua............

Diana, YongWei, QiaoShan & Others...............

希望你们全部都好。。。。。。。

素彬。。。是你吗？

2008-08-01T02:23:00.001+08:00

你要我猜你是谁。。。。
是素彬吧。。。。。。。
应该对吧。。。。。。。
好想你喔。。。。。。。

不管是不是你，还是要让你知道在我心里，你是我生命中其中一个最要好的朋友。。。。。。

谢谢你在大学时为我做的一切。。。。。。。。。
谢谢你忍受着我的臭脾气。。。。。。。。。。。
谢谢你不管任何事，你都站在我这边。。。。。。
谢谢你在我没交通时，用摩多载着我。。。。。。
谢谢你在我沮丧时，安慰着我。。。。。。。。。
谢谢你在我快乐时，陪着我一起分享。。。。。。
谢谢你一切的一切。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
谢谢你做我的朋友。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

你在 Kapit，我在 Batu Pahat。。。。因为忙，我们都少联络了。。。。。。希望有一天，又能再次见面，像以前那样聊个不停。。。。。

好友，要幸福喔。。。。。。。。。。

Soon Ang，我们都是一样的。。。。

2008-08-01T02:16:00.001+08:00

我们都是一样的。。。。。。。
同天生日。。。。。。。。。。

同样有人帮我们庆祝。。。。。

同样有蛋糕吃。。。。。。。。

同样爱唱歌。。。。。。。。。

同样是肖鸡的。。。。。。。。

同样在 DTC。。。。。。。。

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOON ANG!

GOD BLESS YOU!

春天花会开。。。。

2008-08-01T00:39:00.000+08:00

老师的小花园。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

花姐。。。你的叶子还真的茁壮成长。。。。。。

你还可真兴致勃勃的种花。。。。怪不得跟花姐那么好。。。。。相信如果你认识 Gek Boon，你们也将会成为志同道合的好朋友。。。。。。

我呢。。。。。要学种菜了，因为可以省钱，又有得吃。花。。。会欣赏，但不会花那么多心思去种，因为不能赚钱。哈哈哈！

活着真好。。。。。。

2008-07-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

今天早上起来，发现自己还活着。。。。。活着真好。。。。

拿了一天半的病假，拖着累的身体回去做工。。。。。。。活着还是很好。。。。。。

你们俩也病了。。。。没声音了。。。但能活着还是很好。。。。。。。

累了。。。。要睡了。。。。。。明天一定要醒来，因为。。。。活着还是很好。。。。。。

如果我死了。。。。

2008-07-28T17:11:00.000+08:00

倒了。。。终于倒了。。。。就连 Clarinase & Panadol 都救不了我了。用这两种药熬了超过两个星期，正常的过着生活，现在还是倒了。。。。。

很辛苦，喘不过气。。。。好像当年入院时的情形。这一次应该不会这样吧？当年生不如死的感觉最好不要再回来。每一次有喘的感觉，就会想是不是要死了。。。。每一次一想到这，就会想：如果我死了，会是怎样？

如果我死了，

1. 不要为我伤心，因为是我自找的。这种不照顾自己身体的我本来就该死。。。。
2. 不要为我安排丧礼，因为我讨厌人家看我最后的容颜。。。。。。
3. 不要把我埋在那肮脏又黑的土地里，因为我最害怕黑和脏。。。。。尽快把我火化掉。。。。
4. 不要把我仅有的财产乱乱分，我可是有遗嘱的。。。。。去找 TAN SIEW KIM 因为我已交代她该怎样分。。。。
5. 不要把我的 blog delete 掉，因为这是我唯一能留给世上还在乎我的人。。。。。
6. 不要把我忘了。。。。吃着蛋挞，看着太阳花，驾着 Myvi，听着林宇中的歌，打羽球时。。。一定要想着我喔。。。

Happy Birthday to Me........

2008-07-23T01:08:00.000+08:00

好开心，好感动。。。。。

二十七岁的生日真让人感动！

身边的好友个个都在场，怎会不感动呢？

忠发，慧彬，我，Kim，幼微

老师，花姐，May

你们的叮当还可真的是带给我小惊喜连大惊喜呢！选的人还真的是超级了解我。。。。知道我的品味，也没选错。我要的叮当就是这样的颜色的。。。。蓝色刚刚好，不是那种冒牌色。。。。

哈哈哈！忠发,你有 Ultraman，我有 Doraemon!!!!

让我们回顾忠发哥的生日吧。。。。。。在 Oldtown 让他丢脸后，他铁定了要我在可乐丢脸。。。。竟然找了一个 straw 当蜡烛。Kim 还可恶到要拿三支香来做蜡烛！哈哈哈！

老师，你的蛋糕真的很好吃！就是我每次很喜欢吃的那种蛋糕。。。。巧克力也是我最喜欢吃的牌子。。。。。谢谢你。。。。

当然，一定要感谢阿姨妈妈。。。。谢谢你每年都为我做生日蛋糕！今年的超级好吃。。。每个人都赞不绝口！人家5566 是月亮光光，我们是蛋糕光光。。。。。。

老妈，谢谢你的红包。。。。不过最近 inflation rate 很高，相信你明年应该可以调整一下了。。。。。

Bernard， thanks for your call every year on this day.......... I'm really touched......... For years you won't tell me yours, yet you faithfully wish me every year............ However, after years of effort and determination..... hahahah! I managed to get yours!!!! What an achievement!!! Hahahaha!!!

素彬，Jia Hwa 妈妈，老妹，Christine，Shan Di，宝平：谢谢你们的讯息。。。。。。

大姨，三姨，六姨，二姐，Rui Chen，Syuen，谢谢你们的电话祝福！

淑女韵欣，谢谢你打电话来喔！不要太压力，会帮你祷告你明天测验顺利，也希望你找到你 practical 的工作。。。。。

幸福。。。。。二十七岁的生日幸福。。。。。。

A letter to Venus。。。。

2008-07-21T00:25:00.000+08:00

你好吗？好久没见到你了。。。。有些想你。。。。他有上去找你，对吗？你最近工作好不好？要做得开心喔！

你换 blog 了。。。。怪不得一直没看到你更新。。。。还好你告诉我，要不然我还是傻傻的游到你那个旧 blog。有空就下来玩吧。。。。我们还得见多几次，才会更加熟悉。

还可真佩服你们两个，舍得相隔两地，但还维持到那么好。不过他就是那么死心塌地的。。。。这点我可以跟你保证，所以不管他在那里，心里也只有你啦。。。哈哈！这就是我们家的 gene。。。

加油喔， Venus！God bless you!!!

jeslynsay............

陈威全。。赞！

Fun! Food! Fun! Food! in SP & PJ.....

Hi Melaka........ I'm Back After So Long.........

National Day Family Gathering............

Thank you, Gavin & YeanFei.......... 我真的很感动.........

To: Alan @ Clift @ Huat

Near Death Experience........ Relived Again

Addicted to.................

放慢脚步何尝不是一件好事。。。。

一家人本来就应该是这样子。。。。

绑不住的野马。。。。

5 Things to Learn from Caleb......

2010 - Another new beginning......

Sorry, my dear blog....

Funerals....

Going back to 'Masyarakat Jahiliah'........

Just the thing that I need..........

SLE..... took her away.....

It's really small.....

Frozen.....

The Real Patriotism and 1Malaysia

To Go or Not to Go / To Be or Not to Be

走过的。。有人陪比较好。。。

An Update of My Latest Will..........

加油！

4-in-One Coffee

Sick of Crazy People............

Happy Birthday Sis!

The Coloured Side...................

Let the apples be................

Zia......Sowelu.....

Somebody Said A Prayer...........

Sorry......sincerely

Respecting their dignity..........

不是大学生的。。。。

不后悔的日记

生命。。。。

Wonderful............

Jia Miem's 15th Birthday

Out from Hibernation........

新年的第一个自言自语。。。。。。

“友”你们真好。。。。

I Love My Earrings!

PPIA in December

Kamsahamnida!!

Batu Pahat Japanese Food

Malacca Zoo Outing........

Countdown to Malacca Zoo!!

失望。。。。

World AIDS Day...............

Jun Sen has a Blog!!!!

PPIA Telematch Day.......

Xiaodoudou's Spirit.........

祝你们生日快乐。。。。。

Beautiful Theng.......Beautiful Wedding

十年没见你了。。。。。是你吗？

Your Photos......My Inspiration and Comfort

JiaSheng。。。。 停梦吧！

旧的非去不可。。。。。。新的才会来

自己来。。。。。Steamboat 烧烤

马家五大宝贝。。。。。。

A Little Dim Sum Place。。to。。Manhattan Fish Market

Sam and his Destinee。。。。

Marmite 大餐。。。。

Happy Birthday ChinHang！！

领悟。。。。。

振作吧，好友！

Mr Ang Teck Hin。。。。。

孔明灯。。。。。

Congrats AiNgee & SzeYang!

Thx MALAYSIAN CARE!!!

庆幸的。。。。。

JTC Summit 一日游。。。。

无畏的追求。。。。笨！

Kukup。。。。我的第一次。。。。

PPIA 慈善晚宴 2008

DTC BP Mall 一日游。。。。

PPIA 一阵子前。。。。

我们都是一体的。。。。。

JiaSheng。。。。停梦吧！